Navigating feelings for a stepdad is incredibly complex, and I can only imagine how confusing this must be for you. First, it’s important to recognize that these emotions might stem from a blend of closeness, dependency, or even unresolved feelings about family dynamics. Therapy could be a safe space to unpack this—it doesn’t mean anything’s 'wrong' with you, but having a neutral guide helps.
I’ve read stories where people conflate admiration or gratitude with romantic attraction, especially in blended families where bonds form under intense emotional circumstances. Journaling might help untangle whether it’s genuine romantic interest or something else. And if it’s the former? Setting boundaries is crucial, even if it feels painful. You’re not alone in this, though—human emotions are messy, and families amplify that messiness tenfold.