Worry Antonym

“Aray masakit dahandahan naman sa pagpasok! Sh*t ang sakit pala! Ayaw ko na! Ayaw ko ng tumikim ng malaking hotdog," Sigaw ko rito habang siya ay walang tigil sa pagbayo. “F*ck ang sarap mo! Sh*t malapit na 'agad akong labasan! " “Taina 'wag mong iputok sa loob, ayaw kong maging single Mom." “Ayan na lalabas na! Malapit na!" Sigaw ni Marcos sabay hugot ng kaniyang ari nilalaro upang sa tiyan lumabas ang likido. Dahil sa pagod kaagad akong nakatulog. Ang sakit sh*t bakit ko ba isinuko ang aking bataan sa kaniya? Lord sinabi ko po na titikim ako ng biyaya mo pero bakit doon pa sa mayroon ng nagmamay-ari. Dios ko ang sakit sakit pala. Paika-ika akong lumakad hanggang makarating sa banyo. Paglabas ko sa kuwarto nakita ko si Marco sa kusina na naghahanda ng aming almusal. “I'm sorry!" Bungad niyang sabi sa akin pagka-upo ko sa upuan. “Don't worry alam ko naman ang limitasyon ko at kong saan ako lulugar. Nadala lang tayo sa tukso so please 'wag na nating pag-usapan. Let's eat," yaya ko rito kahit na gusto ko ng umiyak. “Ginusto ko iyon! Hindi ako humuhingi ng tawad dahil ayaw ko kun'di humihingi ako ng tawad dahil hindi mo deserve lalo na't ako ang nakauna sa'yo." Paliwanag niya sa akin habang lumalapit sa akin at hinawakan ang aking mukha. Hinawakan ko ang dalawa niyang kamay. “As I've said its okay. Don't mind it at 'wag na nating isipin 'yon. Let's pretend na walang nangyari lalo na 'pag dumating na si Yamir." “So I'll go ahead na may lakad pa ako. Bye Marcos!" Paglabas ko sa pintuan niya nalungkot ako at napaiyak. Mas masakit pa kumpara sa pagkawarak ng virginity ko. Alam kong mali pero mahal ko na siya.

Dalawang taon nang naniniwalang legal wife si Isabel Cienne Lopez. Pero nang ipa-verify niya ang marriage certificate nila, doon niya nalaman ang totoo. Peke ang kasal nila ng asawa niyang si Joshua Casiño. Gusto niyang komprontahin si Joshua, pero may narinig siyang usapan sa study room nang puntahan niya ito. “Don’t worry, she still trusts me,” kampanteng sabi ng lalaki. “Good,” sagot ng babae. “Basta tandaan mo, ako ang legal wife mo.” Ang kausap nito? Si Sabrina Carpio. Ang dati nilang guidance counselor sa university na anim na taon ang tanda sa kanya. At doon bumagsak ang lahat-lahat para kay Isobel. Limang taon nang kasal ang dalawa, si Joshua at Sabrina. Ibig sabihin, ginamit lang si Isobel bilang shield. Siya ang pinakitang asawa sa publiko. Mas masakit pa, siya ang sinisisi kung bakit wala raw silang anak. Ang pinakamalala? Ang batang inampon nila ay tunay palang anak ng dalawa. Hindi nag-iskandalo si Isobel. Tahimik lang siyang tumawag sa abogado ng pamilya niya. “Attorney, single ako. No husband. No child. Lahat ng inheritance, sa akin lang.” “Are you sure?” “Yes.” At umalis siya nang hindi lumilingon. Akala ni Joshua babalik din si Isobel noong umalis ito. “She can’t survive without me, she loves me so much.” Pero ilang linggo lang ang lumipas, napabalita sa buong bansa ang isang engrandeng kasalan. Isang marriage alliance sa pagitan ng isang powerful tycoon at isang biglang lumitaw na heiress. Sa panonood ng TV, nanigas si Joshua. Si Isobel ang bride. Nakatayo siya sa tabi ng lalaking mukhang makapangyarihan, hawak ang kamay nito, confident at malamig ang tingin. “She is my wife,” sabi ng lalaki sa harap ng media. Sa pagkakataong ito, totoo na ang kasal ni Isobel. At doon lang na-realize ni Joshua na hindi pala siya kawalan kay Isobel. Siya ang iniwan, at siya itong maghahabol sa "asawa" na niloko niya ngunit hindi na niya maaabot pa.

My mom, Gina Lowry, uses the six million dollars from selling our family hotel to buy my cousin, Harry Sullivan, a villa. The next day, my fiancé of five years, Charles Gomez, dumps me. "Vivian, this is the end for us," Charles says, sitting in the café of a five-star hotel. His tone is so matter-of-fact that it sounds as if he's merely discussing a business deal. The engagement ring in my hand suddenly feels burning hot. I ask, "Why? Our wedding is next month." He stirs his coffee casually and replies, "Your family is known for favoring sons above all else. I looked into it. Your parents sold off the family business and gave all the assets to your cousin, Harry." A chill runs through my whole body as I argue, "That was my parents' decision. It has nothing to do with me!" "Does it really have nothing to do with you?" Charles looks up, his gaze sharp. "You're a daughter of the Sullivan family. In the future, you'll have to keep supporting your useless cousin endlessly. My family won't have any part in such an unreasonable practice. It's simply too embarrassing." In a trembling voice, I plead, "Charles, we've been together for five years. Is what we have less than these worldly considerations?" He lets out a light scoff. "What we have? Vivian, you're 28. How are you still this naive? In our circle, marriage is never just about two people." He stands up and adjusts the cuff of his custom suit. "I hope you find someone more suitable for you." I watch his resolute back as he walks away. Biting my lip hard, I refuse to let the tears fall. My phone chimes as a message from my mom comes in. In the photo, Harry is standing in front of a luxury villa with his arm around the influencer girlfriend he's been dating for three months. He is smiling smugly, like he's at the top of the world. Mom sounds overjoyed in her voice message. "Vivian, look how grand Harry's new home is! Now, he won't have to worry about his marital home when he gets married!" I stare at the photo and laugh through my tears. The moment I leave the family group chat and block all my relatives, my fingertips feel ice-cold. I sneer inwardly, "Since a daughter can never compare to a son in your hearts, then from now on, that precious nephew of yours will be your only family. When he drives you out of the villa bought with your entire savings, I wonder if you'll remember the daughter you abandoned today."