I woke up in Rodrik’s arms in my bedroom the smell of warm chocolate muffins wafting up from the kitchen as I felt the heater kick on. Today was going to be another cold day it would seem, my mother never allowed the house to be cold and always made sure if we were expecting cold weather the heater did its job well.
“Get your hormonal asses down here!” She called and I nudged Rodrik.
“So much for an early night?” laughing I rolled out of bed and threw back the blankets. “You’re going to need to wear the same clothes today.”
“Damn, no extra clothes here anymore?” He jumped out of bed and quickly grabbed his clothes that had been strewn across the floor.
“Nope, our last off again ended in a fight, remember?”
I jumped out of the room barreling down the steps before we both had to recall it.
“You know I think I put up with a lot,” my mother grumbled pouring herself a mug of coffee. “I thought we were done with the sleepovers?”
“It was an accident.” I pointed to the muffins, “These are a day late.”
“Sue me,” she snarled back, “Can’t help that I hate the fact you turned eighteen in the blink of an eye.” She took a seat across from me tapping her mug with her ring, “Listen, your dad’s coming early. He’ll be here tonight. I’m sorry we fought last night. It wasn’t fair to you. I’m glad you got to hang out with someone last night though.”
Truthfully, I didn’t care about the muffins. Birthdays were never something that we had to celebrate, once you turn thirty though you start to get much happier with the celebrations. Before that it’s just a reminder your boyfriend, husband, or some other male in your family could be sent away. The girls didn’t celebrate out of solidarity.
“You two need to get moving, take the extra for your walk to school.” She finished her mug before Rodrik made his way downstairs and I think it was deliberate. He was always awkward after my mom caught us. “Good Morning stud.” she winked at him and gave him a pat on the shoulder before jumping back upstairs to get ready.
“Shall we?” I smiled and tossed my bag over my shoulder.
“Not without the muffins!” He gasped and grabbed one shoving it in his mouth. He had good tastes, many people loved my mother’s baking, it would seem though it wasn’t enough to make my father stay.
School wasn’t any better and finally we were back to our boring last bell. Halfway through though there was a knock at the door which could only mean one thing: a notice was going to be served. Rodrik sat up back straight as if it could have been him. He was still a few weeks away, but there were at least three boys in this class that I knew were at that mark.
“Can I help you?” My teacher with her snooty nose in the air acted like she could have prevented the interruption.
The man in a blue uniform that looked like a finely decorated suit passed her a piece of paper and she looked back before turning to the class mouth gaped as if she couldn’t breath. The silence in the room was palpable. No one dared to make a noise out of respect for the soon to be comrade at the border. I closed my eyes knowing Rodrik was safe, he had to be. Whatever happened next was what was needed.
“Ashai Sumter.” My teacher whispered, causing my eyes to shoot open. “Miss Sumter.” she uttered again unsure if this was reality or not, “Please make your way to the hall for your orders.”
I looked around unsure if there was some mistake. Surely there was a mistake. I wasn’t a boy. How could my name have been called? What sick game was someone playing?
“Miss.” The man in uniform looked beyond my teacher to the one person who had everyone’s attention. “We would appreciate your timely acknowledgement.”
I nodded and turned to Rodrik first shrugging. We both knew this had to be something else. Maybe my father was here to pick me up from school early? Yes, I thought. That was it. My father was right outside and he was going to just take me out for some private time before we went home. I got to my feet, shaking as I struggled to gather my things.
“I’ll get it.” Rodrik whispered, leaning over, “Go on see what’s happening.”
I nodded again, unable to find myself. I knew where I was, I was in a dream. I hadn’t woken up that morning to chocolate muffins and stern warnings from my mother. “Thank you,” finally something was able to make its way out of my mouth but my feet were still being stubborn in their place. Slowly I shuffled to the door where my teacher moved as far from me as she could manage. The full access to the door allowed me to see I wasn’t the only person who got orders.
In the hallway, I heard a girl several doors down making a point that she knew a mistake had been made. “You can’t force me to do this!” She yelled, “There’s been a mistake!” Her high blonde pony tail was wagging with her attitude as her officer stood motionless getting every piece of mind she had to give.
I looked to my own grim reaper and took the envelope that sealed my fate, “You know this is a mistake.” I looked back up at him but he was expressionless.
“I’m just the messenger. You need to report to your location tomorrow morning fully packed to the standard provided.”
“Tomorrow?” I laughed and looked around hoping there were some cameras or something, this was a terrible practical joke.
“Tomorrow.” He nodded and turned to meet his comrade farther down the hall.
When the two officers left the girl rushed up to me, her steps with as much intention as her rage could provide, “Tomorrow?” She asked as if this were the most despicable thing imaginable as she waved that envelope around.
I nodded.
“Figures.” She scoffed, “Not even the decency to let us finish school. Even the fucking boys get that courtesy before being shipped off.”
“When was your birthday?” I whispered, fiddling over the seal of my own orders not wanting to broadcast the shame in my hands.
“A few weeks ago.” she huffed, “But it didn’t matter. We shouldn’t be called.”
I nodded as if her answer destroyed any hope of logic to what just happened. The logic was gone, nothing made sense with this. So I took a deep breath in and slid my finger under the government seal popping open the envelope and taking out the official thick cream paper.
“What are you doing?” She snapped
“It’s not like not reading it will get us out of trouble.” I shrugged, returning her snide tone, “It’s just where we need to go and a list of things we cannot bring.”
She looked over my shoulder now which wasn’t difficult, this girl was taller than many of my classmates. “No jewelry, no patterned clothes, and no personal belongings? What kind of shit is this?”
“Standard issued orders,” I sighed, “They want us to prove we can follow these simple orders first because we won’t have anywhere for any belongings. I also heard we will all be issued iron jewelry anyway, so might as well not lose anything.”
“Okay fine, so you were expecting this or something?” She snapped and suddenly I was the enemy.
“No no!” I gasped, feeling her stare and judgment, “My father’s an officer at the northern outpost. I’ve just seen these letters before and know about the procedure.”
“Does standard procedure explain why not one but two girls were noticed?”
I shook my head. “No, but I’m heading home to figure this out.”
“See you tomorrow then.” She grumbled, “My name’s Sylis by the way.”
“Ashai.” I nodded back and rushed out the door hoping when I got home my father was going to be there to explain everything in far better detail than this answerless letter.
Once everyone finished filing in and the courtiers settled down I felt exposed. All eyes were on me, I could feel them. Everyone wanted their chance to look at the changeling turned pet for the House of Wolves. Luckily, it wasn’t long before Dimitris came in to the bang of three spear heads on the ground. He didn’t take a seat as I would have expected, rather he stayed standing with his feet inches from the edge of the platform. Also to his credit he didn’t look over at me once. Meanwhile I was staring just as awestruck as the first day I saw him on that platform. Maybe I was mistaken but I did manage to catch a little smirk just before he started to speak. “As you all know from our previous gathering there was outcry for the Nobel house to allow our ward to attend court in traditional fashion.” He spoke as if the very room carried his voice echoing against the walls. “She is here today, and now we can put that entire business behind us.” He turned finally, taking to his throne sitt
I woke with far more aches and pains than I had previously. The result of our antics last night painted across both of our bodies. Dimitris’s back looked like he had been assaulted by a savage animal his neck had dried blood from my many bites. At one point I could have sworn I latched onto him and nearly tore out a section of his shoulder. This morning it appeared as nothing more than a well-defined bruise, sending a chill down my spine as I couldn't help recalling how it felt to have him between my teeth. Damn, I thought to myself, I need to give him a break. Then again, nothing I had done so far left any scarring, sure he looked sore for hours afterward but as far as everlasting damage that would be something Sylis once again excelled at over me. I shook my head trying to drown out the guilt and inferiority before he could sense it, “I’m so sorry.” I buried my head in the blankets as he got up to start cleaning himself off. "I didn't mean to go all crazy on you." "Crazy?" His fa
Dimitris stood at the door waiting until Conrad and Anju left leaving me in the bed feeling far more exposed than necessary. He was just there, standing tall, deep inhales and growling exhales that sent shivers down my spine. It was as if he were just trying to assess my situation without talking to me first. “Are you going to come here?” I patted the bed but he didn’t move. “You know I’m okay right?” maybe he was worried about me? “That’s not-” but he stopped, “You’re still hiding your fae nature?” Reflexively, my hands went to the top of my head but I shouldn’t have been surprised I knew it was hidden and nodded. “Guess you didn’t take all your power back huh?” ”I closed off our bond three days ago.” His eyes were narrowed at me as if I was keeping something secret from him, “Conrad and Anju said you needed the break.” Looking down, just away from him to avoid his eyes, I shrugged, “Sorry, I guess I really couldn’t handle it like I thought.” “You handled it fine,” I heard a
Dimitris stood at the door waiting until Conrad and Anju left leaving me in the bed feeling far more exposed than necessary. He was just there, standing tall, deep inhales and growling exhales that sent shivers down my spine. It was as if he were just trying to assess my situation without talking to me first. “Are you going to come here?” I patted the bed but he didn’t move. “You know I’m okay right?” maybe he was worried about me? “That’s not-” but he stopped, “You’re still hiding your fae nature?” Reflexively, my hands went to the top of my head but I shouldn’t have been surprised I knew it was hidden and nodded. “Guess you didn’t take all your power back huh?” ”I closed off our bond three days ago.” His eyes were narrowed at me as if I was keeping something secret from him, “Conrad and Anju said you needed the break.” Looking down, just away from him to avoid his eyes, I shrugged, “Sorry, I guess I really couldn’t handle it like I thought.” “You handled it fine,” I heard a
I was put up in a room next to Conrad and Anju’s much against Dimitris’s protest. Though when Anju said it was a necessity and Conrad backed her up Dimitris oddly allowed it. Anju and Yvet were the ones who were watching over me. Dimitris, it had felt like a lifetime since I had seen him or felt him. I just laid in the bed feeling wave after wave of cramping pain that caused every inch of me to tense up. “It’ll pass,” Anju stroked my hair, “The Attason boys aren’t really known for their restraint. The same thing happened to me after I bonded with Conrad. You’ll feel better soon.” Soon? The lack of timeframe was the worst. The only thing I continued to cling to was the fact that my ears and tail weren’t out yet, Dimitris it seemed wasn’t one hundred percent gone. “Dimitris might not have told you everything, about what it means to have a bond with your mate. I guess you also don’t exactly know what it means since humans don’t know about bonding or mates.” I shook my head. “He
“Breakfast?” Conrad chimed. Dimitris rolled his eyes, “Are you really going to take up more of our time?” With a laugh and a wink Conrad pulled away from Anju wrapping one arm around his brother’s neck, “You’ve forced me to ignore my little sis for so many moon cycles. Not anymore.” “Forced him?” I frowned taking a step back, “What’s going on?” “Nothing,” Pushing Conrad off him, Dimtiris groaned, “I didn’t want you to be overwhelmed by everyone.” “Conrad’s always wanted a younger sister.” Anju winked and it was like someone flipped a switch making everyone around me actually approachable. I don’t know why they were so different towards me but maybe I could get used to this. “Emnore never qualified?” I laughed. “She’s older than me.” Conrad cocked his head to the side. “Wait…” That certainly muddied the timeline up a bit. “How?” “She was born a few moons after Alfred,” Anju nodded, “She started out as a ward of the crown too. Those two grew up together.” “Certainly waited a