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I wanted this, I wanted him, I was scared of how it’s going to feel; I know it would hurt, mom did tell me about it, a day before Damon was meant to accept me.Now it’s all happening, like it has always meant to happen in years.“Don’t be scared, I am not going to hurt you.” Damon said and I smiledHe is about to see me bare, in ways no one has ever seen me, he did see parts of me but not like this, this feel different, it felt intimate.I stood in the middle of his room, his eyes were on mine when I took the bold move and I took off my clothes, his eyes never leaving me yet his mind filled with the most nastiest thoughts, his eyes gave it all away.“You are precious Ava, and only a good one is allowed to see you like that.”“You earned it.” I breathed out.He never did lie to me; he did hide a lot of things from me; he didn’t want to impress me with words, he didn’t care, what he did all this time is pure, he never wanted to hurt me. Damon inched closer to me, taking two strides tow

A year later..Damon’s POVDear Dante.Dear fatherDear mother, You were never a good brother to me, you were always looking for ways to blame me for your downfall form the moment I was born, you didn’t care for me, all you wanted was to make me hate you, to make me pay for what I didn’t do, as a kid you were ever happy, maybe because you wished you were born first Despite everything there was a part of that cared for you until I could not take it, until I realized that you are better off dead, you are better off without me, and I knew if you didn’t die then I will.I should have done better at protecting others form you, you never wanted me to be happy and now I am, I have wife, I have two kids.Ava gave brith to twins some months ago, a boy and a girl, the first girl in the bloodline after so many years, she is the first for a while, I mean I know when father spilt always talk about o ur great great great great aunt Eden, the last female in the bloodline and I guess he is wrong b

Three months later..Three months ago, we killed our enemies and Dante died, three months ago I discovered my full potential and sometimes Damon would take me on a little supply mission with him. So I can get better, we have not had any troubles for the last three months, it’s been peaceful in the town, just a few activities like theft, and so on.It was not something to raise an alarm for, it was not even something that we are meant to be getting worried about, I felt like it was perfect, as long as it didn’t bother us.I even mad a friend, when I came to the park for the first time, she didn’t know who was which made it perfect, she is Rachel; she is good, she is kind and nice, the fists time I invited her to the house: sh was shocked, I am not Damon and Damon is not Damon anymore, he is not going to hurt her, he was happy that I found someoneI did need someone and I am glad that I am not so alone anymore,Today Damon is not at home, he left early for a shipment delivery that he ha

“I am thinking something with wolves.”“We already watched that and it was horrible the way they portrayed wolves, I don’t like it,” Damon said and I rolled my eyes at himI didn’t think he would like movies about us but it was fun, I enjoyed the stereotype and I did enjoy how much he would groan and talk about how another he is with what is going on, whatever it was, Damon didn’t like it.“How about one with war and gun, I am sure you will like it.”I breathed out and he rolled his eyes at me. “Come on Damon quite groaning and sit.”He settled beside me. Wrapping his hand around me as we started to watch the movie, his eyes were on mine when I pushed his face away playfully.We moved into the house the very next day, it was too perfect and the whole time I had been dreaming about it, we got new furniture, everything was good, and the guards and stationed perfectly, and we have a new security system too, because Damon wanted to make sure that everything is perfect and didn’t have many

“Where are you taking me Damon?.” I smiled“Somewhere special.” He explained and I nodded, it's code for I am not telling you so quit asking.The past few days has being bliss, I never imagined being this happy, having a life, having someone that loves and cares about me, having someone that would always want for me, and I guess it’s the best thing that ever happened to me.Being with Damon has been the best thing that has ever happened to me, he has always been there for me; he cares for me and he knows how to make me feel better, I do know he has been overly excited about something and he won’t tell me.I stared at Damon as he drove, maybe this is what heaven feels like, where there is no war, where there are no fights and it’s all peaceful, I guess this is all I have ever desired and not I got it.—-When the car came to a halt, I had a smile on my face, and Damon asked me to close my eyes.“Do you plan on having me dead,.” I asked.“If I wanted that, it would have happened a long

“Turn around.” Damon breathed out, my breath hitches as I did as he said when he leaned in and he placed a kiss on my ass, he didn’t stop at that, he made sure to slide his cock inside of me, it was warm and hard and a moan fell out of my lipsI felt my breath hitch as I held on to the sheets, it didn't do any good when he started to move in and out of me softly, it was warm, it was gentle, and it was everything I had craved.“Do you feel that Ava? That’s not even half of what you make me feel.” He breathed out as my eyes met his, his eyes were softly on mine, I could see him even when I turned my face to the other side. He started to move around even faster.Each thrust, each movement made me crave for more, it made me beg for me and it caused me to lose my mind, I wanted to scream out Loyd at the same time my throat was getting tired of screaming, at the same time, my throat begged for help, it inched for release and I was not able to get itWe have been at this for three hours, fro

“Cole, Enzo, get your school bags right now.” I yelled and I could hear them in the living room. I got pregnant the night of his brithday and you can imagine our surprise when we found out we are having twins, boy twins. They are about ten years old now, Cole and Enzo are inseparable, they do everything together, they care for each other, and they always make switch up making it hard for me to realize which one is which, they both got Dominic’s eyes “Ready mom.” I heard the form behind, knowing they care about each other, Dom and I feel like we have done a great job with them, we feel like we have done better than any of our parents would ever do. “Finally, the driver will soon be here.” “Where is Dad?.” Enzo asked, Cole didn’t speak much, he always liked to be in his own space and play with Enzo. “Somewhere.” I smirked. “I have to tell him some thing, Cole did what he said and the girl kissed him.” He smirked and Cole rolled his eyes at us He said what? He did wh

“How about a car?” Gabriel suggested. “I got him that last year because he didn’t want to do anything special for his birthday.” “How about a house?” “You are hopeless.” I gritted through my teeth and a chuckle escaped his lips: this should not be funny but to him, it was, I am looking for something to get for Dominic’s birthday. He didn’t like to celebrate it. He didn’t want to have cake, he didn’t want to have a party, he didn’t want to even be reminded of it. I guess last time, I got him a car some days before it, I can understand why he didn’t like it, because of Damien, it’s a huge reminder of his brother and I did understand that. He did all he could to help me move on and not think about my mother anymore, and I did that, but when it comes to him, he always tends to be a bit stubborn, and I didn’t enjoy that. I wanted him to know I cared for him, I wanted him to know his birthday is worth celebrating, and it’s a reminder that he is stronger, he fought through all

“What is all of this?” I whispered. The room was filled with all of my favorite flowers and pictures of both of us, pictures we took during the year. There was one picture that stood in the middle of the room: the first day I met him, our first dance. How did he get that? I didn’t even know we were being photographed, I smiled when I saw the picture and walked further into the library. When the lights came on, my breath hitches, it was the same way that party was, the chairs, the decorations, expect the massive amount of flowers but yet, it felt good, it felt the same, like we never left that party. “Dom,” I called and I didn’t see him when another part of the room lit up, it was the video of Dom and me, when we were dancing, how did he get that, when I gazed into his eyes for the first time, I was doing it for Nicholas and I ended up with the great man anyone could ever be with, I ended up finding the love of my life, I ended up being stronger and stronger and I ended up ha

I always loved Thanksgiving, it’s been a year since I got married to the love of my life, a year of being a Ricci. I always thought he wouldn't be the same after a couple of months, but it feels like after a couple of months, he loved me even more, cared for me even more, and wanted to be there for me and protect me at all times. The last year, we celebrated each holiday, each birthday, and we were there for each other, we took care of each other, last year I learnt a lot of things for myself and for the mafia, I know how to shoot, can use a knife perfectly and not only that, I could do many more things, leading the mafia with my husband is a dream come true. I always cared for him, and now I could do this for the rest of our lives, I didn’t have any friends, no one can replace Candice, he didn’t have any either, I could say Gabriel is both our friend, we cared for him and he loves him. “What’s wrong?.” I breathed out as he stared at me, right now we are in our bedroom, his

Dominic’s POV… “What does forever look like? All these seem too good to be true.” Aurora smiled. A one-week vacation turned into three months and now we loved it here, waking up by the sound of the beach, we were away from the city yet close enough to be able to get what we needed, we were happy, we didn’t have to worry about anything and nothing was going on in the mafia It's just basic things. I get feedback from all of the men every single day. The activities are good, traders are better. There is not much work to do; it’s mostly receiving and sending our consignment. The mafia has no issues, and I don’t think anyone could come for it. I have killed every possibility of having an enemy, and to be honest, no one wants to come close to my family now that they know the De Santos and Ricci families are bound together and our kids are going to be the first heirs to the family. I enjoyed being here because she loved it more, I have never had a vacation before, it’s always wo

Dominic’s POV….. “Dom.” She yelled, her smile was radiant and her body covered in little to no clothing, I have never seen her this happy before, she walked through the beach, without wearing any shoes when she walked into the water. “Dom, come on in, the water is great.” She smiled, without thinking, I walked into the water, she wrapped her hand around me and she held me close to her, her smile brighter than the ocean itself and she gave me a kiss on my cheek. “You like this water like this, it’s freezing Aurora.” “I know, after this, the hot bath that comes with it, it’s going to be great.” She smirked, that’s what makes her excited, the little things that take place. She is precious, she is a queen. Maybe this is what love feels like, this is what forever feels like; this is what happiness feels like, this is what it feels to have someone that loves you, to have someone that cares about you to be with you, to have someone that always wants to be with you no matter the hor

Bella. “I don’t understand why you are panicking, it was bound to happen.” Caleb said and I glared at him. The kids are at school, Caleb and I were the only ones home and I just finished one of my classes, I started college a year ago, I needed to finish it and become a lawyer, yes I Bella will be a lawyer; even in my wildest dream I didn’t think of that. I have four more years to go, and I know I can do it, I wanted to fight for those kids who’s parents don’t deserve to be parents, I desire to fight for every little girl or boy that has being abused. “I don’t think much will change, you are not alone in this Bella and you can still continue college, remember you are doing this for the kids, and this is not going to stop you, it will motivate you.” Caleb said. I know he is right, I was anxious. I didn’t expect this. We didn’t plan for this, Yes we talked about this, yet there was never a plan that we had in mind, yet again we were reckless, more than I could ever i

Bella… Two days later. “Are we ever going to leave the bed Liam?.” I whispered. I turned to look at him, I never thought I would be stuck in the room for two days, it’s being two days since we got here, our honeymoon. Rome. Liam wrapped his hand around me and pulled me closer to him, his perfume filed my nostrils, all we had done was eat, have sex and video call the kids, I was glad they have their uncle Caleb to stay with them and I missed them dearly. “We had to explore the city.” I whispered and he rolled his eyes at me, when he stretched, I used the opportunity to get out of his hold and off the bed. “Bella.” Liam warned and I did what he has done earlier. Rolled my eyes at him. “She can’t hear you.” I smirked. I pulled off the covers and headed into the bathroom. A warm shower was what I needed. The moment the water touched my skin, a smile crept on my face, I felt a jolt of electricity flowing through my body, the thought of how perfect my life is flash

Bella. “The dress looks amazing on you Bella.” Jammie smiled She pulled everything off in two month, the décor I wanted, though I have not seen it yet, I know it looked great and she helped me with a good stylist. I got used to Jammie, I got to know her more during our weekly meeting, and today, I invited her and her family to the wedding, she stayed by my side all through last night, and she took me out. Liam didn’t like the idea of me having a party, but Jammie didn’t care, she wanted me to have that one night, she wanted me to have fun, she told me all about her own party and how her so called friends messed it up. Sometimes it’s a blessing not having many friends, you never know who hates you, the less the better. “What about the kids?.” “They are perfect and playing around, nothing is going to go wrong Bella, I know you are anxious.” “I always dreamed about this day and it’s here.” I smiled. I didn’t write my vows, I tried to but I could not, the ideas scra

Liam. “I lost her when she was quite young, and to be honest, for months I was angry, I blamed my friend yet deep down I knew, if he could bring her back, he will, she was sick you know, she was going to die either way, I just wished I had more time with her, I had to find a purpose so I picked religion, to find a sense of direction, call it a rebound after losing my daughter. I don’t care.” Caleb spoke. My pulse raced. I felt a thundering sound fill my ears, and I averted my gaze from the screen. I was eavesdropping on his conversation with his friend, I had a camera and a microphone hidden. I got the file about everyone who attended that camp, there is no one shady, not even a single mafia king, just mere people, thieves, people who lost themselves in drugs, people who survived something grave, people who lost themselves through other means. My eyes darted back to the screen, Caleb is good. I should have known, it saddened me that he didn’t mention she was sick, even

Bella… “I think it’s a great idea.” Jammie smiled. We finally came to a conclusion to hire someone to help us with the wedding, I realized I can’t do it all alone, between me and the kids, and taking them to school and in between PTA meetings and don’t get me started on the school activities, Ethan signed up for football and Ollie for hockey. I am proud of the boys, but I has busy schedules and after meeting up with four different wedding planners today, Jammie is the only person I like and so far, she has not made comments about Liam and how good he looks and how she can’t believe he is going to settle down. “I think it’s great too, so you have any ideas to make it better.” “I can create a design template to pick from, I would need a week for that, if you don’t mind, it’s your big day and I know how much you will want it to be perfect.” She said and I smiled. She glanced at Liam for a moment before she looked away. “And the groom, any ideas.” She asked, and he shakes

Bella… “How about lavender, instead of white, I don’t want something too common.” My eyes darted to Liam. “I love it.” “You love everything don’t you?” I rolled my eyes at him, we have been at this for an hour and all he said is he loves it, even if I change my mind a thousand times, he still loves it, he just stuck to what I like. I didn’t want a white wedding, I wanted something different, beautiful, when I look back at it, I would love it, when I have a daughter and she sees the pictures, she will love every part of it. “It’s going to be lavender, we can decorate the church in beautiful lavender flowers, maybe mix it up with a little while flower and we can have our pictures all around the place, Ollie and Ethan can walk me down the aisle, and you find a priest,” I whispered and he nodded, I had imagined it, how beautiful it’s going to look. We were home alone, the kids and Caleb are out for a walk, he even offered to take them shopping, and I have been meaning to

Olivia.“What are you doing here?.” I asked“You don’t seem happy to see me.” Bridget frowned and I rolled my eyes at her.I had warmed up to her and I had a feeling she felt the same for me too.She had a smile on her face as she glanced at me.I haven’t seen the great AlphaI have been hiding in my room.ScaredWorried“I know you are here for a reason, is this about Luca’s birthday.” I asked and her eyes flickered away from mine, she didn’t utter any word as I stared at her. “Yes.” She mumbled and my eyes widened in shock. “What?.”I pausedI glanced around the hallway I opened my door even further for her to walk in, I am certain Luca trusted her like he did with his guards, the way she is always beside me, it’s for a reason.“What do you mean?.”“Every hear there is a ball thrown in honor of his birthday, but he never attends, I got the call an hour ago to get here and get you dressed, what did you say to him?” She askedI didn’t.I yelledI never thought I will even get to

Luca’s POV…“Can I say something Alpha, without the fear of getting killed.” The guard beside me spoke.My eyes darted to his.I came to my office an hour agoOlivia infuriated me. It was unlike me to let anyone get under my skin and even worse, to let her speak to me the way she did, I should have stopped her.The thought of punishing her sent chills down my spine. “What?.”The guard looked between me and the cabinet.My wolf could feel his fear from here.“Speak, I don’t have all day.”I am not about to kill him.At least not right now, it depends on what he says to me.“The queen” he started to speak when my eyes darted to his, I had hoped on his behalf he would speak well of her, I may treat her the way I want but all the wolves, all the guard are meant to speak well of her, she is their queen, the future mother of my kids.Kids.Even the thought caused a chuckle to escape my lips.“The queen, she is a good woman, she loves you, and she cares about you, I saw the way she slav

OliviaThe first picture I noticed was him when he was younger, maybe sixteen and he looked happy, he was running and behind him was his mom.Another picture was him and his father, the way he looked happy, there were dates on the picturesLuca released my handsTears spilled out of my eyes as I turned to look at him before I took a step forward.“Go ahead Olivia.” Luca spoke, I didn’t utter any word as I moved my hand across the pictures.All of them, Every date written must have mean something to him, but I noticed one thing, there was no date after he turned to the Alpha, there are no pictures of him, not even the one they took on the night of the coronation.It’s like this Alpha version of him didn’t exist here.“Why am I here? Why don’t you ever talk about your feeling? What are you so scared of Luca.” whispered. “Are you scared someone will see you have a heart, are you scared you are worried I will tell someone before news flash, I don’t even speak to anyone, you know th

Olivia…It was one in the morning, the gaurds were stationed outside, while I waited for Luca, I didn’t feel sleepy today.After I made the cake and finished a few things, I found myself sleeping for hours, I even missed dinner. I had to have a late dinner.At some point, I was starting to feel Luca will not be coming home, the thought of that annoyed me, I worked very hard and the cake is better eaten today. The sound of the tv filled my ears and my eyes snapped open.“Don’t fall asleep.”Why was I even doing this for him?Maybe it’s because of how I saw him? Maybe it’s because a part of me wants this sham of a marriage to work, maybe it’s because a part of me really wants to know I worked hard for thisMy eyes darted to the door when I heard the sound of tires, I instantly stood up and I turned off the lights, in a few seconds, I had the candles lit up, my eyes snapped to the door knob.My wolf stirred in happiness at the thought of seeing Luca, the mere presence of him sent chill

Olivia.“I want flour, maybe vanilla extract, what do you think the Alpha will like?.” I asked as I stared at the guard Luca was long gone, he had a meeting he wanted to take care of and I didn’t ask any questions.I had thought of baking him a cake for his birthday, nothing too much, I am sure he will hate to have a massive celebration and I doubt anyone will want to work with me without him knowing about it.“I’m waiting.” I said to the guard, he slipped me a look before he looked away.I watched as a lump formed in his throat, as if he was scared to speak.“I think a birthday cake will not make the Alpha happy.” He said and I rolled my eyes at him.They feared him.A part of me did tooThe bit u can see a part of him, a part that needed love, one that understands love and is filled with so much sadness, a part that just want to be that kid that stands beside his mom with a smile on his face “I am his queen right.” I asked and he nodded. “Then that means you have to do as I say,

Olivia.“Closing your eyes is not going to be of any help Olivia.” Luca spokeI had hoped I will disappear Shame burned my skin.This is not what I had expected, I didn’t think he will be awake any time soon.You can do this Olivia, he can just disappearPlay it cool, my subconscious spoke.A breath falls out of my eyes as my eyes snapped open and Luca’s eyes met mine, we laid so close to each other, for a moment I was worried our lips would find it self on each other’sI glanced at Luca for a second.“Uhmm, I have to pee.” I whisperedHe didn’t speak, instead he continued to stare at me, I had thought he would yell at me for touching his face, yet he didn’t, it seemed like he was trying to trace my face or something, as I looked away.In a second, he pulled away from me and I rushed into the bathroom.I felt my heart skip a beatMy pulse racedI didn’t make any movements for a moment, I was trying to calm my nerves down, when I turned on the water to take a shower, I should have t