Novels by Suzi de Beer

“Sweetling.”I frowned as Axel’s soft voice penetrated my dream. It wasn’t a nightmare like usual, it was a nice peaceful dream, one I didn’t want to wake up from. “Cora.”A groan slipped past my lips when he gently shook my shoulder. Forcing my eyes open, I blinked up at his face hovering close to mine. Axel gave me a gentle smile as he reached out to move the hair from my face. “You’re bleeding.”His words confused me even more. Axel pulled the sheets down and then gripped my arm and gently pulled me up. Frown deepening, I glanced around and then down at my body. Slipping his arm under my knees and the other around my back, he pulled me against his chest. I wrapped my arms around his neck but risked a glance back at the bed. Horror hit first and then embarrassment. Not only were my pajama bottoms covered in blood, but there was also blood on the bed sheets. I buried my face against Axel’s neck. “I’m a werewolf,” I mumbled. “I’m not supposed to get my period, am I?”“You are s

Ryder moved to my other side and slipped his hand in mine. Nothing was said between the three of us as we headed towards the stage that had been set up. Keiran was already there, making a joke about something. All the focus was on him which meant that nobody had seen Axel’s confrontation with his mother. We had arrived just in time to hear the end of their conversation. I glanced up at Axel. He was still mad, but at least he had managed to mask his expression. Although people were still wary of his crimson eyes. My heartbeat increased the closer we got to the stage. Axel’s hand slipped out of mine when we reached the stairs. He moved behind me as Ryder led the way up the steps. Keiran turned, eyes locking with mine. He smiled as he held his hand out towards me. “I would like to officially introduce Cora Marlin, our mate, and your new Luna.”I turned to smile at the people. “Tonight we’re not only celebrating Cora’s special day, but we will also be welcoming her to our pack.” He

Most of the pack was already gathered at the usual spot. Laughter and conversation filled the air. I sucked in a breath, trying my best to identify as many scents as I could. There was no sign of danger, but that didn’t make me feel any better. I knew how easily things could change. Cora’s hand tightened. My eyes snapped down to hers. She smiled at me, but it didn’t reach her eyes. Her scent had changed the moment we stepped foot out of the house. I tried talking Keiran out of making it a big deal but he insisted. This was an important day for our pack. They needed to see Cora holding her head high and acting at Luna. These pack dynamics still confused me. It was so different than how things were done in the Vampire nests. A shudder raced down my spine as memories flooded my mind. Cora suddenly stumbled. My hands instantly shot out to steady her. Our eyes locked and held. I realized with a start that she had paled. She looked sick. “What happened?” I questioned. “Are you fee

“You can’t hide in there forever,” Blue called from the other side of the door. “Come out and let me see.”I ignored her as I studied myself in the mirror. Blue had chosen one of the new dresses Keiran brought me without my knowledge. I smiled as I remembered our day at the mall. It was scary at first, but the longer we walked from shop to shop, the more I relaxed. He didn’t give my fears a chance to get the better of me. And he certainly spoiled me. I now had a lot of clothes, more than I owned before. Keiran even offered to pay if I wanted to get my hair and nails done. I agreed to have my hair cut but declined the offer to do my nails. There was no use wasting money on something I didn’t need. The bathroom door opened, startling me. Blue peeked around the door and then pushed it open wider. Her eyes widened as they trailed over me. “Wow,” she breathed. “You look beautiful.”“T-thank you.” I brushed my hands over my middle. “I’m not sure about wearing it though.”“Why not?”“

Maybe we should have talked to Cora first. I glanced over at her. It was supposed to be a surprise trip. Something to get Cora away from the pack so everything could be set up for her party. Not only were we celebrating her birthday, we were going to officially welcome her into the pack. She was already ours and the pack knew about her so the introductions weren’t necessary. But Demetrius suggested that we keep doing things traditionally. So here I was driving Cora to the human town under the pretense that we needed a few things for the party. Cora was tense. I could sense her wolf hovering close to the surface and I understood why. This was a big step for both of them. It was also considered a test. “We need more of those plastic plates,” I said. “I was thinking of getting a few extra cups and cutlery just in case.”“Is the whole pack going to be there?” “Yeah. Some will probably only stop by for the introductions.”She looked at me then, but her attention was pulled away when

As expected, the moment I fell asleep, my dreams turned into nightmares. I found myself jerking awake only to be lulled back to sleep by Keiran’s purring and Axel’s reassurance that I was safe. My dreams were a mess. It was a mix of being locked in that room and being tortured to waking up in my old pack with Dean as my mate. Somewhere during the third nightmare, I woke up to Keiran gone. Before I could question it, Axel and Ryder took control, distracting me by undressing me and giving me multiple orgasms. The last time I fell asleep it was sandwiched between Ryder and Axel with the blissful waves of my orgasms slowly fading. There was no nightmare after that. I woke up near noon feeling exhausted. There was a faint pounding behind my temples and my body ached but I pushed the pain aside as I slipped out of bed and headed into the bathroom for a shower. With my hair wrapped in a towel, I pulled on one of Keiran’s shirts and then left the room to search for my mates. The smell of

I will not be like my mother.I’ll be good for our baby.I’ll love it and care for it. It’ll have a family with two moms and two dads.“Okay, let’s get a look at this baby.”I gripped Tyrone’s hand tighter as the doctor squirted some cold gel onto my stomach. His eyes locked with mine when he raised my hand to his lips and pressed a kiss to my knuckles. “Is this your first scan?”Tyrone looked at the doctor. “Yes.”“The baby is growing accordingly, and your weight is right on point.” I flinched when the doctor pressed the wand to my stomach and spread the cold gel around. “And there’s your baby.”My eyes stayed glued to his face. I watched as his eyes widen and his lips slowly curl up into a smile. His hand tightened. “Look at our baby, doll.”I didn’t want to look. But I wanted to look. Our baby. I slowly turned my head to look at the small screen. My heart slowed to a stop before it began beating erratically a few seconds later. There it was. So small.“Your baby is fully f

“Did Sin ever get her birth implant?”I paused for a few seconds and then slowly continued to lower the bag to the floor. “Why?”Michel shrugged. “I’m just asking.”“No, you’re not.”Michel swallowed loudly. “David said that there are a few possibilities for Sin to want her nest.”I pursed my lips, stopping myself from mentioning what Bella told me about Kate and David. We had agreed not to mention it to Michel and Sin because we didn’t want to upset them on the trip. And what a trip it was. A damn fucking mess. “You think she’s pregnant.” I leaned against the back of the couch and frowned at him. “There are a lot of reasons for an omega to want her nest, Michel. Just because she wanted to come home, doesn’t mean that she’s pregnant.”He growled at me and then stormed out of the house. I watched him as he grabbed the last few bags from the car and stormed back into the house. Dropping them next to the others, he straightened to glare at me. “Don’t look at me like that,” I muttered.

Having sex in a hotel bathtub was not ideal. Especially a tub so fucking small. The one in the master bedroom was custom build. Maybe we should’ve stayed at home. This trip was a damn waste. Tyrone hurt his foot before we even made it to the hotel and Sin wanted to go back home. She never said it straight to us, but I could sense it. When I planned this trip, I never took the other people into consideration. I had been thinking only about us. Our first night wasn’t so bad, but the start of our second day wasn’t a good one. Breakfast in bed, and morning sex, that was great. But Sin’s anxiety rose the moment we left our hotel room. Tyrone decided to stay back and rest while we went to the beach. Walking between us, she clung to our hands, eyes darted nervously around us. Some of the anxiety faded when we made it to the beach where only a few people sat. We chose a spot away from them. Bella spread the towels out on the sand while I set up the umbrella. Placing the cooler box down,

I felt bad. Tyrone not only twisted his ankle, but he also had an ugly cut on his heel. I had accused him of throwing us into the water on purpose and I had called him an asshole. My eyes drifted towards him where he lay on the bed, bandaged foot propped up on a pillow. It looked like he was sleeping. The doctor had given him two small white pills to drink before he left. For the next two weeks, Tyrone was supposed to stay off his feet as much as possible.Our first day on vacation was a bust. I sighed, turning to look back out the window. The hotel was located a few feet from the beach so I had a perfect view of the ocean and the activities below. There were a lot of people. More than I had anticipated when Tyrone mentioned a vacation. My anxiety levels spiked the longer I stared at them. Would they stare at me if we go down there?“Are you done unpacking?”I shrugged. “What’s the use of doing that if we won’t be staying for long.”Bella appeared at my side. She stared out of th

It’s not what you’re thinking.How could he know what we were thinking? All I got from David was that stupid text right after I tried to call him. He has been avoiding our calls since. I was tempted to drive out to his house and demand answers from him, but Sin’s excitement for our trip prevented me from doing that. She had been the one asking questions about Kate. She was right about worrying about Kate. Somehow she had managed to worm her way into David’s life. If Bella hadn’t seen them, would David have ever told us? He said it was not what we were thinking, so if they weren’t trying to tear us apart, what was it then? Were they dating? It would tear our friendship apart if she ended up being his mate. “Are we there yet?” My eyes snapped up when the soft question filled the air. To keep our destination a secret, we used blankets to cover the back windows. Another one had been used as a partition between the back and the front of the car. For most of the drive Sin and I had been

We’re going on vacation.Well, more like a short getaway because our trip was going to be a short one--only four days. I wanted it to be longer, but beggars couldn’t be choosers. It would be fun, only the four of us. Away from everyone and we would be able to forget everything that had happened the last few weeks. I was excited and despite not showing it, I knew that Sin was too. She told us that she had never been to the beach before. In about two days, she would. We had all agreed that our destination would be a surprise which was why I was in town.Sin needed some new beach clothes like a bikini. Michel had asked me to pick up a few other things that we needed because he was busy going over things to make sure that nothing went wrong on the ranch while we were away. “Bella?” I tensed. Pursing my lips, I slowly turned around. My eyes widened in surprise. The girl standing a few feet away was not the girl I remembered. I blinked, eyes trailing down her body and then back up to

The moment I opened my eyes, I realized that something was different. I felt different. Blinking up at the ceiling, I took slow deep breaths as I evaluated things. Besides from a few aches and pains, nothing about my body felt any different. I was sore from all the fucking we had been doing the previous night and the bond marks throbbed. Val’s mark hurt a little more than the others, but I was sure that it was because he hadn’t nursed it enough yet. I glanced at Val who was still fast asleep next to me and then silently slipped out of bed. Walking into the bathroom, I hesitated a moment before I turned towards the mirror. My eyes widened. Stumbling forward, I leaned forward to get a closer look. Raising a shaky hand I traced the raised skin of the mark with my finger tip. Out of all the places, he had to mark me on my left breasts directly over my nipple. It was going to be hell when he nurse his mark. I sighed. Using the toilet, I washed my hands and splashed my face with some

Elias knew what he was doing. Other than me who was starting to second-guess everything. I wasn’t so sure about my plan anymore. Insecurities were starting to fill my mind.I swallowed as I stared down at the toys Elias had placed on the end of the bed. Along with it was a bottle of lube, some towels and a packet of wipes.The lamps next to the bed were switched on, creating a soft glow around the room. One curtain had been closed and the other was half open, letting in some more light.“They should be home any minute now,” Elias said softly. “Wait here. I’ll send him to his room when they get back.” He smirked as he walked out of the room.I stood awkwardly by the bed, eyes darted around the room. Should I take a seat on the bed? Do a sexy pose like they do in the movies?It felt like forever before I heard voices coming from the kitchen. I waited a few more minutes and when Val didn’t appear, I made my way towards them.Only he wasn’t with them in the kitchen.Frowning, I glanced

“I’m not sure how I feel about this. You spend most of the time taking care of them and now you carry both their marks. It should have been fare if I got to mark you first.”I swallowed as Val slowly stalked closer.“I think I might need to hurt myself too.”“Don’t talk like that Val!” I frowned at him. “You don’t have to do anything to get my attention.”He raised an eyebrow. “I don’t?”“You have my attention now.”“Yeah, but for how long?”“However long you want it.”Valiant smiled but it slipped the moment Elias appeared. Muttering under his breath he turned and then fell back onto the bed I had been busy making.I glared at him, but he ignored me.“Your mother called,” Elias said softly. “She wants you to return home immediately.”I blinked at him. “I’m sorry, I think I misunderstood. My mother who has been ignoring me for most my life, wants me to return home?”“Yes.”“Why?”Elias shrugged. His eyes darted to Val for a few seconds before the locked on me again. I blushed under hi

I was glad that Alex had done bonded Daisy before she could run away.It was going to take some time for Daisy to work on her issues, but we were going to be by her side every step of the way.Although I had imagined a different kind of bonding when Daisy said that she wanted us to bond her.A sigh fell from my lips as I turned onto my side.Daisy was snuggled between Alex and Val, fast asleep.My eyes locked on her shoulder. The wound was ugly red and stood out against her pale skin. I swallowed and forced my eyes away from her bond mark.After hesitating for only a second more, I slowly slid out of bed and walked out of the nest.A few minutes later I was seated behind the computer with a steaming cup of coffee and my folder with notes open next to me. But no matter how hard I tried, the words deserted me. All I could think about was Daisy and the fact that she was now our omega.We were now officially deemed a pack.“Why do you always slip out of bed in the middle of the night?”My

As it turned out, much to their disappointment, their parents were already at the penthouse. They were already halfway here when their mom called. I was actually happy that they arrived when they did. As eager as I was to bond them, I wanted to clear the air with their family first. Especially Sylvia. She started glaring at me the moment she walked though the door. Mom Bee greeted me with a hug and muttered words that she was happy that I was okay and home. While Elias and Mom Bee finished cooking dinner, I helped set the table and then joined the others in the living room. Alex pulled me onto his lap before I could take a seat next to him. Colour flooded my cheeks but I relaxed against his chest. My eyes locked with Alister’s for a few seconds before I quickly looked away. “How are you doing Daisy?” he asked softly. “I’m doing okay, thank you for asking.” Sylvia scoffed. “How can you be doing okay when you’re the reason my boys got injured?” “Sylvia.” “Mom!” She ignored them

“Hey,” I said softly.Daisy’s eyes darted up to me and immediately darted away again. “Hi.”I hesitated in the doorway, waiting for her to invite me in, but she didn’t. There was an awkwardness between us that hasn’t been there before and it was driving me crazy.“Can I come in?”Daisy nodded.My eyes darted around the room as I entered.Her clothes were scattered around one side of the bed and on the other side it was folded neatly where she sat, busy sorting through it. Was she planning on leaving?My heart squeezed painfully in my chest but I ignored the pain and took a seat on the edge of the bed.“Daisy, we need to talk.”She paused for a few seconds and then finished folding the shirt and placing it on the pile of other neatly folded shirts before she raised her head to look at me.Instead of saying a word, I showed her.“John’s men trashed the apartment when they came looking for you. I found it on the floor in the nest.”Daisy swallowed loudly. “Does Alex know?”“No.”Licking

“Hey, mama.”My eyes snapped up and my lips curled into a smile. I had no idea where he learned that, but I wasn’t going to lie and say that I hated it when he called me that.Dev hovered in the doorway of the kitchen, eyes locked on me. “How are you feeling?”“A little achy,” I told him honestly. He straightened and hurried over to me. Dropping to his knees by my legs, he reached out and placed his hand on my stomach. In return, one of the babies decided to kick. Chuckling, he pushed the shirt up to expose my large stomach. He leaned forward and pressed his lips to the spot. A low purr filled the air, instantly relaxing my muscles. Cupping my stomach with both hands, he pressed another kiss to my skin and then slowly raised his head to look at me. “We have a surprise for you.”“A surprise?” I blinked at him. “Where are your shoes?”I nodded towards the living room. “Come on.”Standing, he gripped my hands to help me up and led me towards the living room. Dropping to his knees

I hovered in the darkest corner of the room as I stared at them. It was nearing midnight. I had hoped to make it home in time for dinner, but unfortunately I didn’t make it.Vanya was almost halfway through her pregnancy and the house wasn’t finished yet.The foundation had been laid and the walls were up. When I left they had been busy installing the floors.I needed everything to be perfect.It was our new start.The last thing I wanted was for something to upset my mates. Or for Vanya to start stressing. It wouldn’t be good for the babies. A tired sigh fell from my lips, I pulled my shirt over my head and entered the bathroom. I hesitated a moment before gently closing the door behind me.After opening the shower tap, I walked over to the cabinet and removed the knives.Once undressed, I stepped into the shower.My eyes fluttered closed as I tilted my head back under the water. Another sigh fell from my lips.I was tired.But I had a few more things to do before I could crawl int

“Vanya could do with some new clothes.”Obsidian glanced at me. “She doesn’t need it,” he muttered.I frowned at him. “Her clothes don't fit her anymore.”“She wears our clothes.”I loved it when she stole our clothes to wear, but I didn’t like it when she went out in public without wearing a bra and underwear.“Betsy mentioned she would need maternity wear soon.” My frown deepened. “I think that’s what she calls it.”Obsidian sighed. “She won’t need it.”I stopped and turned to look at him. He took a few more steps forward before he realized I wasn’t next to him anymore.“Obsidian－”“I lied when I told Vanya that the pregnancy would be nine months. The pregnancy isn’t the same as a human pregnancy. It doesn’t matter if the baby is human or like us,” he said softly. “Vanya will reach full term in five months.”I blinked at him.“If my calculations are correct she’s about four, maybe five weeks pregnant.”I took a step closer and gripped the front of his shirt. “You didn’t think it was

I jerked away with a gasp and stared down at his hand between my legs. “You ripped my pants!”Ezra smirked. “You can change into another pair at your apartment.” Whatever I had been about to say was forgotten when his fingers brushed along my slit.He groaned. “You’re not wearing any underwear.”The colour in my cheeks deepened. “I don’t have a lot that fits me anymore,” I admitted. “Besides, it’s more comfortable to go without.”I felt the sharp tip of a claw brushing against my skin and tensed. “You better not cut me,” I told him. His smirk slipped away and a seriousness that surprised me filled his eyes. “I would never hurt you, Vanya.” My eyes darted over his face. The words hung between us, but we both knew he was referring to Obsidian. Reaching up, I cupped his cheeks and gave him a small smile as I fought the tears threatening to fall. “I know,” I whispered. Ezra leaned forward and pressed a soft kiss to the corner of my lips. “I ruined things, didn’t I?” I shook my hea

“Ezra.”I frowned, trying my best to ignore him, but a painful jab in my ribs made my eyes snap open.“We’re leaving.”My frown deepened. “Where are you going?” I asked them. The room was still dark, but both of them were already dressed. Vanya was fast asleep next to me. “We talked about it yesterday.” He glared at me. “Were you even listening?”I nodded and carefully turned on my back. Of course, I remembered. Vanya nearly had a panic attack when Devrim told her they would be going to the mainland for some supplies.It had been a few days since we bonded. We had spent almost every night strengthening our bonds. “Make sure she eats something,” Devrim muttered as he leaned over me to kiss Vanya’s forehead. “Do you need anything?”I blinked at Obsidian. “I’m dreaming.”His eyes narrowed. “I’m only asking because Vanya made me.”“Some art supplies,” I told him. “Vanya asked me to paint the nursery walls.”Devrim muttered a curse under his breath. “She mentioned it. I forgot. You jus

Devrim and Obsidian had talked about things in detail. Obsidian was doing it to make up for the way he had behaved. He figured it would make Vanya feel better.His bond to Devrim had to be kept open so Devrim would know when Obsidian started panicking. He would step in to take Obsidian away so he could calm down, and then it would be my turn to pacify Vanya.It was a good idea, but it wasn’t going according to plan.Vanya didn’t touch him, she pressed a kiss to his chest and settled down with her face pressed to the crook of his neck.Obsidian frowned, but he wrapped his arms around her waist and held her.A soft sigh fell from Vanya’s lips.I settled more comfortably in the chair and rested the book on my knee. I gripped my pencil and started sketching.It was going to be a gift for Vanya. I was planning on drawing her touching him, but I supposed him holding her would mean the same to her.I was so caught up in drawing that I didn’t realize things had escalated until Vanya’s low moa