Novels by Carina Coldwell

Dominic ‘You hate me that much?’ Apollo asks, a little sad and not angry like he usually is. ‘You will be spending eternity without Esther. You let her go. Again.’ ‘Thanks for rubbing it in,’ I say dryly. He responds with a growl. ‘What do you want me to do, Apollo?’ ‘You can kill everyone in the world for all I care. All I want is my mate!’ he grumbles.Aiden knocks once and opens the door to my study. I’ve been spending a lot of time in my study and avoiding my bed, where Esther’s scent still lingers. “You okay, Dom?” “Dealing with Apollo’s tantrums,” I sigh. ‘Yeah, sounds like him.’ He sends a mindlink and then chuckles audibly. ‘Is it about her?’ I nod. 'And about Felix. We despise Felix.’ ‘I still can’t believe you let him get away with it. You had a reason to kill him legally, but you didn’t, he closes the door and sits on the other side of the desk. ‘I know,’ I groan. ‘Why?’ I glare at him. Can’t he see the obvious reason? ‘Esther feels like Felix is the only one wh

Willow It has been two weeks since our encounter with Liam, and I keep pushing the questions that bother me to the back of my mind. I can’t completely ignore Liam’s words, but he could be lying like the psycho he is. Leo and I have fallen into this comfortable relationship. I don’t know how it happened, but most of my stuff is at his apartment. We are sitting comfortably on a couch, watching TV, with my head resting on his shoulder. “Are you telling me that Liam was one of thw wolves bear-sprayed, when I bear-sprayed those wolves at Carkeek Park?” I ask him. “Willow? Is that a smile I see on your lips?” He gasps. “You are a little devil, you know that.” “Me? It’s not a smile.” I bite my lower lip. “It’s okay, you can laugh.” He laughs heartily, and I pause mid-laughter, staring at him. “What’s wrong?” he raises his brow. “You look so happy,” I smile. “I am,” he grins before kissing my forehead. * In the morning, we eat breakfast at a restaurant, and Leo heads to his lab, wh

Willow Leo kisses me, unzipping the back of my dress my dress. We continue to kiss when the dress falls, as he cups one of my butt cheeks. I unzip his pants, letting them fall on the floor. We move to the couch without breaking the kiss, and he sits on the couch, letting me straddle him, my eyes widen as I feel his bulging manhood, suddenly feeling nervous. “Should I stop?” He whispers, and I shake my head in response. He kisses my neck while he lets out a primal growl. His breath on my neck feels a little ticklish, but it makes me want him more. He holds my butt as we kiss on the lips, and then his hands caress my back as they move upward to unfasten my bra, exposing my breasts. He kisses one of my breasts, and I moan as he does. “Leo,” I exhale. His hand is on my back, pulls me close to him, letting my opening feel his cock. He uses the fingers of his other hand to circle my nipple, while his mouth is on my other breast. I just gasp, feeling helpless while my whole body resp

Willow “Mine!” He growls, his eyes wide and his gaze on the door. This is followed by a soft tap on the door, and I look from Jeremy to the door. “My mate,” he rushes to open the door, and we come face to face with a woman who is about 5’7”. She is a redhead with beautiful freckles on her nose bridge and the sides of her nose. Her eyes widen, and she presses her lips together. She stares at Jeremy who has calmed down, and looks at her as if he doesn’t believe she exists. She looks mad instead of surprised, then she abruptly walks away. Jeremy stands still, whimpering as if he is in pain. I close the door, facing Jeremy. I pull my by his hand, and he seems to be following me mindlessly. I make him take a seat, and he does without saying a word, as if he is a zombie that is following commands and there is a part of him that is gone. I run to my dresser to grab my phone, and I call Leo, hoping that he picks up. “Willow?” “I need you in my dorm room. It’s Jeremy.” “What happene

Willow “Someone is knocking on my door,” I whisper. “Open the door, but don’t hang up yet.” “Hi, Professor Malino.” I say as I open the door, my hands shaking a little. “Come in.” I hang up on Leo, satisfied that at least he knows who it is. She awkwardly stands in the centre of the room, looking around as if lost. I offer her some refreshments and she shakes her head. We take a seat at my table, and I try to read her face, but it is blank. “Willow, I’m sorry had to see that,” she exhales. “Do you at least have an explanation?” She nods. “I have a confession to make.” I watch her expectantly. Waiting for her to continue. “I haven’t told Leo this, but my sister is suffering from vampire syndrome.” A tear trickles down her cheek. “Oh my God! Professor, I’m so sorry.” “It’s okay. I’ve been doing research and I think I was a little desperate to find a solution. She is getting worse every day.” “Professor, I know how you feel.” I sniffle, unable to contain my tears. “But we st

Willow As soon as the door opens, I run towards Leo, and I hold him in a hug, crying tears of relief. “I’m okay,” he whispers, putting his arms around me and kissing my forehead. When I have wiped my tears, he glances at the beakers on the table. “What were you doing?” He motions towards the table. “I got bored, so I decided to test myself,” I shrug. “And?” He smiles, but the smile doesn’t reach his eyes. “Just as I suspected, I’m clean, look.” I pull him by his hand and lead him to one of the computers, which shows my results. “Hmmmm. Is that the only reason you tested yourself? To show me you are clean?” He raises an eyebrow, a corner of his mouth tilting up. “Of course not, I’m going to give these results to Jeremy.” I retort. “I suspected that,” he chuckles. “Why would you suspect that I wasn't clean? I told you I haven't…”“People sometimes get infections from toilet seats, and I felt like what you did was a reckless move. I've had sex. Shouldn't you have asked for pro

JeanetDamien has been calling multiple people to find out where Linda is. I'm pacing back and forth in the penthouse as I wait. We spend almost the entire night in silence, and another part is where Damien is taking phone calls and calling more people. "Linda is at another hotel," he finally says."Okay," I sigh with relief. "I'm glad she's safe.""I'm worried about her," he admits."Me too.""She's hurting," he exhales. "I don't know what to do. She didn't even use her credit card that I pay for to avenge herself.""How is she going to get home?" "She has her savings, or she could use her other credit card. I don't want to call her to ask. She already accused me of being controlling," he grimaces. With his level of vulnerability, I almost want to hug him. "I want to give her the space she needs," he sighs. "She doesn't deserve this," I blink back tears. "I know.""What kind of monsters are we?" I lie on the mat and face the ceiling. "You are not a monster. I am. How was I not

Jeanet "What does the text even say?" I pretend not to be interested. "They mentioned something about you keeping a secret from me.""Which one are you talking about?" I blurt out. Did Rachel tell her already? But it's too soon, I thought she had to blackmail me for some time before telling Linda what's going on."Do you have secrets?" she gasps. "No," I vigorously shake my head. "It's just that this story makes a little more sense. It fits part of a puzzle that has been filling me with questions for years. Are you sure you are not keeping any secrets from me?" She raises her brows. "Don't you dare play that game, Linda," I say defensively. "You had a closet full of secrets, and you never told me a thing.""So, now you want to turn this around?" She chuckles. "I told you I was keeping secrets for your protection. Why are you keeping secrets from me?" "For your protection too, to protect your feelings?" I half-ask."Wow, I can't believe you." She wipes tears with the back of her

Jeanet I study his face for some smirk or a twitch of the lips that confirms that he's joking or mocking me, but there's none. "You?" I raise a brow. "Damien Rugiero thinks that he might have some feelings for me?" I laugh but he doesn't laugh with me. "I don't just think," he sighs. "I know, and it's not just some feelings. It's real feelings.""Are you sure? Are you not drunk?" He glares at me. "You know that I don't drink.""But it's impossible." I get up and take a few steps back. "Why do you think so?" He gets up too and walks towards me, but he still keeps some distance between us. "I don't know." I shake my head. "It's just impossible. I think you can't think straight because we are surrounded by nature and you are confused a little. Maybe this is a romantic place, and it makes you think only of romance."His jaw tightens. "I understand you not wanting me. But, for you to try to invalidate the feelings that I have for you, that's..." He shakes his head. "What am I suppos

JeanetIt's the 26th, and Damien is not in the house. So, it's just me, Linda, and the bodyguards. They are usually just somewhere we can't see them, but we were promised that they would always show up when needed. The mysterious person who has been sending texts asked for a meeting, and I don't know if I should sneak out or take at least two bodyguards and the driver. If I sneak out and get kidnapped like last time, it might cost Damien. I still have no idea what he did for me to get released when I got kidnapped the first time. Perhaps I should've told him about the texts because he knows about the money. After all, he's the one who gave it to me. When I call the number that Damien gave me, the three bodyguards appear in the kitchen within seconds. I take two bodyguards with me, and the driver takes me to meet this mysterious person at a restaurant. The moment I see her, I shake my head in disbelief. I tell the bodyguards that it's okay for them to wait for me outside, unless I

Jeanet "What about him?" I ask defensively. "Nothing. He's actually a good guy. There are so many people who have a crush on him, but he doesn’t have an ego.""Would you approve if I went out with him?" I beam. "You don't need my approval. You should do what you want.""Someone is growing."He shoots me a dirty look. Someone knocks on the window of his car, and he opens the door. "No, you don't have to get out of the car. I came to say hello.""How are you, Father?" He shakes the priest's hand. "I'm glad that you came to church, and who's the lady? Is she the future Mrs...""No!" we say at the same time. "I apologize," he says sheepishly. "I shouldn't have assumed.""It's okay, Father," Damien smiles. "This is Jeanet. She's a friend of the family.""Nice to meet you, Jeanet," he smiles at me. "Nice to meet you too, Father." I smile back. We sit in awkward silence after he has left. "You spend most nights out," I say to fill the silence. "It's December. People go out all the

JeanetLinda and I bought a Christmas tree. We are having a lazy morning on the 20th as we hang the ornaments. "I think we are getting old," I say to Linda."I know," she sighs. "Are we not supposed to be partying somewhere like we used to?" "Maybe we are already old."She gasps audibly. "Don't say that, we are just babies." She purses her lips. "We are almost thirty. Damien was married, and he had already accomplished so much at our age.""Damien had no choice," she snorts. "He had to work hard, but we have him. Why should we work hard when he already did?""Well, you have him," I point out. "I don't have anyone."She glares at me. "I thought you have me, and Uncle Damien promised me that he got your back.""He did?" "Yes," she nods. "From now on, let's do things at our own pace. Even if Uncle Damien wasn't around, we would be sharing a cheap apartment somewhere and trying to make it one day at a time, but we would still get where we want.""Awww! That's wise.""Thank you," she b

EstherThe moment things almost settle, the chaos starts. Members of Até’s army run away, and our pack members want to chase them. Josh rushes to Hilda’s side as a wolf. Their snouts meet, creating the most majestic image I’ve ever seen. The full moon and the almost dark sky are here to bear witness to this encounter. Their eyes are closed, and I wonder if they are communicating with each other using a mindlink or if they are just listening to each other’s heartbeats. It’s so beautiful to such an extent that we are all quietly watching.I feel a pinch of jealousy and guilt, because I will never give that to Dominic; he will never know the feeling of being like that with his mate. Dominic comes back from the dungeons and places his arm around my shoulder. “I’m sorry,” I say to him.“It’s okay,” he kisses my forehead. “You have prevented much more damage from Até’s army. It would’ve been chaos.” “Don’t try to make me feel better.”“I’m not, I’m serious.”“Dominic is right.” Logan wa

Esther‘Gee! I wonder what would’ve happened if I killed her,’ Dominic says sarcastically in my mind.‘Her minions were going to come here to kill us,’ I respond.Até walks towards me, my heart is beating so fast. She is here to remind us of who she is, I almost forgot this unpredictable part about her.“Your heartbeat is betraying you,” she grins. “Even though you are trying to keep a straight face, which is actually not that bad, your heart refuses to cooperate. What a weak vampire you are who can’t control her heartbeat when she really needs to.”“What do you want?”“I told you what’s I want,” she sighs. “Do I have to repeat myself over and over again? Anyway, here is my army, or some part of it. I have millions of vampires who are on my side. One wrong move and you will never see your daughter ever again. What I have just demonstrated here by killing my right hand man,” she looks on the ground at the body. “What I have just demonstrated is that I have nothing to lose, if you ki

Esther"But we need her," I say to him."After everything she did?" He grumbles. "Yes, even after everything she did."Dominic hesitates as he removes his hand. Até's wound closes as soon as Dominic lets go, and Até sighs with relief. "Phew! For a second. I thought I saw my life flash before my eyes." She glances at me and then at Jane. "Thank you, girls."Logan pushes the door open without knocking. "Até? What is she doing here?" he grumbles. "We invited her," Jane says. "You completely forgot about her affair with your father and that she tried to kill us?"Thank you, Logan," Dominic says. "I'm starting to suspect witchcraft. There's no way in hell we are suddenly Até's best friends.""Did I forget to mention that you don't have a choice?" She says with a smirk. The four of us perk up, waiting for her to do something. I begin to regret letting her in, but she is a queen of chaos, and who knows what she would have done if we refused to let her in? "I told you that nothing would

Esther“We don’t need your help,” I glance at Jane for at least a murmur of agreement, but her eyebrows are furrowed and she has a distant look on her face. “What are you thinking about?” I ask her.“Nothing,” she shakes her head. “This is interesting,” Até laughs. “I know a lot of things that you don’t know, you know. I know many vampires and let me tell you, war is coming, and you are going to need me.”“We don’t need you,” I say to her.“Are you sure?” She grins. “I could prove myself to you to show you what I mean. There’s so much that you don’t know here, and I could help you.”“We don’t need your help, not after what you did to my mother.”“But I loved your father,” she says. “Why would I hurt the daughter of the man I loved?”“What do you want to tell us?” I ask. “May I please get in the room so that we can talk?” Jane and I exchange a glance, and then a nod. We stand aside to let her in but we keep our guards up. With Até in the room, we need to watch each other’s

Esther“We are not undressing each other,” I protest. “Can we please focus on what’s important here?”“Fine,” Jane says with a smirk.‘You are childish,’ I roll my eyes at her. “Anyway,” I say out loud. “We need to work together for this. There’s no way I’m going to let Charles get himself out of this.”“But I don’t want to be part of...”“You already are part of this. There’s no way out, and if you give up complete ownership of this forest, someone else might come to claim it, it could be Felix, Boris, Enzo or William. Do you really want that to happen?”“I said I was giving it to you.”“And put the lives of so many werewolves in danger? Hell no, and incase you forgot, I have a daughter to protect, whom I love very much and she is growing where she is, without me getting an opportunity to hold her. Do you have any idea how much I’m suffering?” My voice breaks, but I keep it together. I need to practice more how to show emotions a little less. Dominic’s eyes flash with someth

Esther“What is it that I don’t know?” I look from Jane to Dominic. The entire room is silent, and the only thing they are doing is exchanging glances. “We never intended to kill Felix,” Jane sighs. “Uhm, Why?” I ask, confused. “Why have we been chasing Felix around if we were never going to kill him? After everything he did?”“Why is no one helping me out here?” Jane looks around. I follow her gaze and everyone is keeping a straight face. “We spoke about this when you were locked up by Felix in London.”“And no one thought they should tell me?” “I changed my mind, Jane,” Dominic says lazily. “But you didn’t think of telling us first?” Logan asks. “Telling who what? Could someone please tell me why you are all suddenly best friends with Felix?”“We wanted Felix to live so that he can feel how it is to be a servant,” Dominic says. “ Although his minions think they are doing this for themselves, they are technically working for him, and you know there’s nothing that Felix