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I could barely catch a whiff of sleep throughout the night. I kept tossing around in my bed thinking hard about my life choices. I did not want to get married to a man that I did not know or did not love. And I did not want a ruthless man like Killian. The stories that circulated around the city about him were not nice. He was the main villain in the stories that mothers told their kids at night. The next morning, I was still in bed when a loud knock came on my door. “We are leaving in 30 minutes.” My father said in a loud and authoritative voice and I exhaled sharply. I could easily run out of the window and leave forever. But someone had to care for my mother. And I could easily go ahead to sleep with another man to break my virginity, but that would be for nothing. So I was left with one choice. I had to go with my father. I had a quick shower and picked out simple clothes. A t-shirt and black jeans. My hair was packed in a bun. I went straight to the sitting room and my father was already sitting waiting. “I told you to dress nicely.” He frowned. “These are the only decent clothes that I own.” I lied because I had better clothes. But I did not want to make an impression on Killian. I wanted him not to find me attractive. “Let's move. We need to catch a taxi immediately. Killian hated lateless. He does not tolerate that.” My father was already hurrying through the door. I clutched my purse tightly and followed behind him. My phone was still down and once we finished with Killian, I was going to the hospital. We boarded a cab and in 30 minutes, the car pulled up in front of a house. It was just a normal modern house. There was nothing too special about the place and it did not look like a place that a person like Killian would want to reside. “How did you even meet Killian Davenport?” My father was a drunkard. He spent most of his time gambling. So how he met Killian to strike a deal with him and even have his men come to our house was a mystery. “From a friend. Killian does not need a wealthy girl. All he wants is a simple girl.” “Why is that?” I asked as he walked to the entrance of the house. Few men were standing around and they were all dressed in black like the men from that night. “Don't start asking stupid questions and move.” We met a man at the entrance. I was quick to recognize him. He was at my house the previous night. “She will go in alone. She will leave with Boss if he likes her.” He opened the door, motioning for me to go in. I walked in and was met with a minimalistic sitting room. Everything about the room was simple and nearly arranged. “If you are done staring, sit.” A deep voice startled me and I jolted out of shock. I followed where the voice came from and my eyes landed on a man sitting leisurely on the couch. The moment I turned to face him, his eyes widened as he froze. For a moment, the usual sharpness in his gaze softened, replaced by something unreadable… shock, maybe. Then he stood up from his chair and he approached me. “You are—“ His words trailed and he looked like he had gone pale. “Aspen. You and my father have some sort of deal about you getting a wife.” He lifted his hand and I thought that he was going to hit me, but Killian’s hand hovered in the air as if unsure what to do next. His jaw clenched, and he took a small step back. I couldn’t tell if he was angry or just… surprised. The rumors were true. Killian was fucking perfection. The bad kind of perfection. But that still was not enough to sway me. I did not want to get married. Since my father would not listen, Killian would. “Listen,” I began, “Let's make this quick.” My fingers were trembling. My body was shaky. His presence was intimidating and there was an 80% chance that I would not walk out alive for the words that I was about to say, but I still went for it. “I don't want to get married. I do not want to marry you. I don't care about the business that you have with my father. But he forced me here and I'm not interested in this whole arranged marriage bullshit. I'm not the girl for you. I'm insufferable and I have dreams. I refused to be tied down to a man for money. I have principles. So do me a favour and put an end to this.” He was the only one who could stop my father. “Interesting,” Killian mumbled. He seemed to have regained from whatever shock that he was in just a while ago and he cleared his throat. “I know that you are a busy man and I apologize if we wasted your time. I should take my leave now.” I would raise the money myself. I was desperate for money, but I did not want to get it from marrying a strange man. One with a terrible history. I turned to walk away, but I was suddenly held back by a yank on my wrist. I tried to release myself from Killian’s hold, but he held me even tighter. My eyes widened and I watched as he casually pulled out his phone to make a call. “Prepare the marriage certificate. I'm bringing my wife home.” My eyes almost fell out of the sockets and I began to struggle even more. “Did you even hear the words that I just said to you?” I felt scared. “Yes. And I have decided to keep you.” He announced. Then he pulled me close to himself, staring deep into my eyes like he was searching for something. “That will be in your dreams. Let me go right now!” He held me even tighter. “Being stubborn will do nothing and I hate stress, so behave.” He warned. I really did not expect things to go the way they did. “I seriously don't have time to play. My clock is ticking and we both have papers to sign.” “I seriously—” “If you don't stop struggling, things will go my way.” He looked impatient. “You must be joking if you think that I will come with you. I don't–” My voice trailed off when one of the men dressed in black stepped forward and handed a white handkerchief over to Killian. “Please don't–” My voice trailed off when he pressed the cloth to my nose, not releasing me until I lost consciousness.Aspen I lost track of time as I remained hugging Killian. It was hurting so much and I felt so confused. My heart has calmed a bit but I was still very confused about what to do. Everything was going out of place and it sucked so bad. “Are you okay?” Killian asked with a tone that sounded too detached, and I stared at him for a while, slowly nodding my head as tears gathered in my eyes. And I felt the need to cry all over again. I was not fucking okay.“I just—” my voice creaked off and then, a new wave of tears started streaming down my face. “I'm not okay,” I confessed. “I was looking forward to seeing her. I suffered so much to see that she got treated. And that is how she treats me. I'm not fucking okay.” I told Killian and the tears just rolled down uncontrollably. I did not think that I would be able to stop crying. Not when she was requesting for Clear and had refused to see me. I did not even know how I was going to start funding Clear. “Lets leave.” I shook my head at Kil
Aspen Day Forty-fourMy mother was very adamant and kept insisting that Clear was back. But I had not seen any Clear. If Clear was truly back, she would have reached out to me. We were very close as sisters. “Mom,” I called softly. “I will get the doctor to run a check on you.” Maybe it had something to do with her health. That was why she was thinking that her daughter Clear was back. “Get the doctor to do what exactly? I just told you that I want to see my daughter and you are going to get the doctor? Do you think that I have lost my mind? Do you think that I had no idea about what I'm talking about? Clear was here. She came to this room. She spoke to me. My daughter cried and spoke to me. So go and get Clear here.” She instructed and I wanted to scream at her that I was her daughter too. My parents had always favored my sister over me and it was her disappearance that triggered mom’s illness and dad got worse with drinking. I had not really been the likable one. I was just the s
Aspen Day forty-four When I woke up the next day, Killian was gone from my side. I could not find him. He must have left the moment I fell asleep. I sighed, slowly sitting up from the bed and then I ran my hands through my hair, feeling very tired. It took a while before I finally got out of bed and went straight to the bathroom to freshen up. After I finished bathing, I went downstairs and I was surprised to see Killiam there. “You are here,” I said, not hiding the surprise in my voice. I expected him to be out of the house, since he was always running around all the time. “Yes. What? Can't I stay in my house?” He asked me, while taking a small sip from his glass of whiskey. “It's not that. I'm just surprised that you are home. You always have this tendency of always be busy.” And I just couldn't understand why. Was he the only mafia leader in the whole of New York? Killian was always running around like all responsibilities had fallen on his shoulders. “It's my day off.” He si
Killian Day Forty Three I noticed the way Aspen's body shivered at my words and then she slowly let out a soft breath as she looked at me. I did not wait for any other moment before slamming my lips on hers. It had been weeks. Fucking two weeks of not touching or kissing Aspen and the honest truth was that it felt like torture. Aspen wrapped her hands around my neck, kissing me back as my hands roamed all over her body. Her body was so soft and fuck she smelled so good. I just couldn't get enough of her rosy smell that I felt the dying need to keep my nose on her all the time. Aspen let out a needy moan as I suddenly tossed her to the bed. I was quick to climb on top of her, careful enough not to crush her down with my weight as I returned to kissing her. I kissed her like I had never kissed before because the real truth was that I was starved. The first time we fucked, I knew at once that it would be so hard to stop. Aspen was addictive. Bring with her was and if it was possible
Killian DAY FORTY THREE I was in the middle of a business meeting when I got a text from Brooke that my father was at my house. I frowned immediately as I put the meeting to a stop. I have been so busy and have been going from one meeting to another. That was why I was not able to return home the day before.I was taking over the company soon and there were lots of things that needed to be done that were keeping me so busy. I stopped the meeting and then dismissed everyone before going back home. By the time I arrived home, I met my father who was just about to go into his car. “What are you doing here?” I asked him in anger. I had stopped him from ever coming to my house and I was going to stop my men from allowing him in. “I came to show that gold digger her place since you have refused to divorce her and don't tell me that you left the conference meeting just to come here?” He sounded surprised. He knew that I was in an important meeting and that was why he came. “You are not
Aspen DAY FORTY THREE Killian barely spent any more time again after we made up because he left. He got a call and then left. I watched as he walked away from the house and since then, he has not returned. He did send a text to me, saying that he was not going to come back early. I sighed after reading the text. He was always busy and running around. I went to bed quickly and I did not wake up early the next day. I was too exhausted and my body needed rest. “Good morning Rosa,” There was a smile on my face as I walked into the kitchen and saw Rosa there. “Hi, Aspen. Have your seat, breakfast will soon be ready.” I smiled and then took my seat, watching as Rosa moved chairs. She really did not have to keep coming to cook for me. I could take care of my meals myself. But she made Killian’s meals and Killian had a particular diet. His food was just as boring as him. Plain and bland. He was always eating vegetables. According to Kill, they were healthy. “What are you making?” I asked







