4 years before...
She enters into her department and goes towards her class along with her best friend. There was a smile on her face and she was in her own world.
“Ansha!”, her friend called her back to reality.“Hmm?”“These are only our first days of university and you are already smiling like an idiot.Tell me what happened that left you all smiles and I don't even noticed that.”“Rabeel! It's nothing like you're thinking. There is anything in my life that I can hide from you? You're my best friend since junior school. You know all about me.”“Yes I know all about you that's why I'm asking what is on your mind that you keep smiling.”Ansha smiled more.“Well, I'm just thinking about life, just a month back, I was in my most depressed state and at that time I can't expect that my life would turn out like this.”There was a series of flashbacks of past few months of her life.
How she scored less than she should and lost her chance to get in her desired field of another university.How her parents persuade her to apply in this university and how she ended up here.Her best friend also got selected here after few days of initial classes and she is again her classmate now.She thinks that life could not be more perfect.“Me too.” Rabeel replied.
“Well, they say that everything happens for our own good. Maybe they are right.”She added playfully, then they both burst out laughing and entered their classroom just like that.Ansha was unaware that her presence has lit up someone's world just by laughing. He was silently admiring her. But she never cast a look towards him. And he never minds.
“Hey Ansha! There is quite some time in the class. Let's go outside.”
Ansha agreed and they both go outside the classroom to wander.They started from library according to their everyday routine and take a tour there observing everyone. Smiling evilly at the couple sitting there.
Then they went to Girl's Common Room where Rabeel freshen up herself.Ansha looked at her best friend from back admires her chubby appearance and her presence in her life.
“Now why you are staring at me like that?”“You're already looking pretty can't you just hurry up?” She said flipping her hairs to back from shoulder.“I want to go outside.”She teased her. “And it's not like that your boyfriend is waiting outside.” And as expected Rabeel is annoyed.“What if I found the one there? You never know.” She huffed.Taking the pleasure from her annoyance she takes her hand and moves towards the door.
Then they stroll around the canteen and on their return from there they stand near the iron fence of the garden which was along the building entry gate.
They were looking towards the main gate of department where the number of students entering were increased as only minutes left in the lecture to start. They were as usually waiting for their third friend.
“So did you find your soulmate?” Ansha asked her laughingly.
“You're thinking that this is funny? I know there is one out there only for me. We just didn't find each other up until now. But we will.”“And I'll be the first one to know.” Ansha demanded.“Yes! Other than you who will be.” She states as a matter of fact.“But where and when will you find your perfect one? I just think that I have to find one for you first so that you won't interfere in my quest for my soulmate.”“Hey! I'm not going to stop butting in your affairs even if I'm married and have 2, 3 children. Or old at the age of 60 with my grandchildren.”“Seriously?” Rabeel laughs so hard that it seemed that she will be rolling on the floor any second.
“It's not funny.” Ansha said and Rabeel laughed more.“Not even a little bit.” She added but there was no sign of Rabeel to stop her laughter session.“OK just behave like a civilized human now. Everyone is looking towards us.” She said looking towards the growing number of students rushing for their classes.“So let them look.” She said stopping her laugh.“As if they didn't saw a girl laughing before.” And they both laughed and high-five each other.“Why she is always late?” Rabeel was irritated and suddenly look towards the main gate.
“Hey look Ansha! Your best friend!” She said with an evil smile.Now it was Ansha's turn to be teased.
She also looked there, in Rabeel's hinted direction.There was a girl who most irritates Ansha just by doing nothing. Only her presence annoyed her so much that she wants to hide from her. But the pleasuring part for Rabeel is that, the girl named Nisha is always so sweet to Ansha and she can't just jerk her off. She had to bear her with patience and this is more hilarious to Rabeel as she always teases her on this.
Nisha was just entering the gate. There was a person in front of her that she almost missed but her eyes set on him for a fraction of second before stopping at Nisha and then suddenly she hits Rabeel on her shoulder for teasing her.
She looked back at Nisha hoping that she doesn’t see them, but again her eyes stopped at him.
He was looking at them.
She didn't see his eyes as he was wearing sunglasses. But he momentarily stopped and stared at them. And then proceed to enter the building.Her eyes followed him but he mixed-up in crowd.
This all happened in just 2 minutes.
In the first time in her life she wants to see a boy again.She wants to converse with him.His personality just attracts her in a way that she can't describes.She was lost for a moment.
She looks at Rabeel as to see if she notices something. Much to her relief she was looking towards the main gate.
She choose to hide this from her. As she just takes this as a momentary infatuation which will just last until her first class will over.Much t her ignorance, she doesn't know that it was just a start of her hiding things from her best friend or anyone.
“Just call her and asked where is she.” Ansha suggested to her.
Rabeel takes out her mobile and initiates the call.Ansha's mind was once again on the incident happen just now.
She came to conclusion that he stops because he thinks Rabeel teased her because of him. And now she was just all embarrassed.
“Here, she comes as there are only 2 minutes left in the lecture.” Rabeel said grumpily.
Ansha was once again pulled back into reality. And the three rushes off to their class.Unaware of herself she just hoped to see him again.
This was the start of her upcoming many restless nights.
Chapter 2 Is it Love or Hate? Few days later.... She was attending her last lecture of the day. She tries to concentrate on what the teacher is saying but she can't. She always seats in the first row, as it helps her not letting her mind anywhere else. But today this method also was not working for her. Her mind was again and again going on that mysterious man. She was sure that she has seen him anywhere else before but she can't remember where. She can't even remember the time. And for her the main issue is that these are already the last week of the semester and she don't even see him again after that day. She always tries to look for him whenever she had a chance to look around outside her class. She also waits for him on the main gate just like first time, but he was nowhere to be seen. After this week there will be final exams of the semester
Days passed and her preparation period was over. Today was her first exam. Second year and first year exams are scheduled to be on same day but 2nd year students' exams were in morning. Whereas First year Exams were in afternoon but they all were in university from morning as usual. Her eyes were finding him since she steps into premises of her department. Her speculations were if he is in first year like her, he will definitely appear at exam time but if he is in 2nd year, she will saw him coming after the paper. But if he is of 3rd or 4th (last) year, there is 95% possibility he will not come if he does not have any 1st or 2nd year improve exams.
Present Time... She was going through her Snapchat memories. Those photos were from the last day of her first semester. Her selfies, pictures with whole class, the happy moments of her group friends and with Rabeel. Seeing her selfies with her, the clips of her happy memories flow through her mind but end at the sad note. What she did to her leaves a thorn in her heart forever. At times she thinks, why she did all this to her. But she already knows all the answers. She put down her mobile and let her back rest on the sofa. She already has so much issues in her life to sort out. She does not have time for the past. As she thinks that her past has only added to her miseries. She has to survive in her present. Her 22nd birthday is coming up soon but before that she had to get a job. The reminder tone of her mobile reminds her that her interview is in 2 hours. She had to get ready. S
The acceptance call from the company which came in the morning was enough for her happy to the moon and back mood. She has to join on the day after tomorrow. She called Nisha and set her plans for the day. First, they will do shopping then Ansha would treat her in her favorite restaurant. After that she message another person. “Got selected! I’ll be joining the day after tomorrow so I’ll be super busy. Meet me at our usual place tomorrow for dinner?” “As your wish sweetheart!” He replied. She smiled at his expected message. Later that day in Shopping mall…. They were leisurely walking with their hands full of their shopping. Ansha was humming a song. “Well, well, well your excitement for this job is already over the moon and you haven’t started it yet. I think you will not
Again, the night was restless today too for her. She was tossing and turning on her bed. Tears were just uncontrollably flowing out of her eyes, despite of all her attempts to not to cry. After sending the files through e-mail on time she was just like this. She thinks of sleeping but that seems impossible to herself. In the end she just sits up and holding her knees, she gave in to all her sorrows. She cries harder, holding herself tighter. He just appears again. When she was finally ready to move on. Despite of her hate for him, her love is always more. And from her love for him, the broken pieces of her heart are even more. With her cries getting intense, she was shaking badly. As always, there was no one to hold
Back to Past… This was the fourth day of her 2nd semester. This time she was more hopeful for their ambiguous relation. Her heart was even more attracted to him. On her first day she only saw a glimpse of him. Later, she was unable to find him. Later that day, Ansha and her friends were going to photocopy shop to purchase their lab handouts. They have to pass through a corridor in which there were classes of senior year students. There she saw him. He was standing there with his friend. He also looked at her. When she came closer, he whispered to his friend and pointed towards her with his eyes. She noticed it all but ignored it. She can only feel happiness in her heart as she was afraid to show it. On her way back from the shop, she was more than happy. She had to go back from the same corridor, she saw that he had en
PRESENT TIME… A week had passed. And every day was same. Starts with load of works and sometimes with some mental torture. And ends with the announcement of tomorrow’s workload. She was already feeling tired of her dream job. At first, she wants to continue her job no matter what as she loves her work but everything is falling apart here for her. Every day her hopelessness is only increasing. Now, she was hesitating. Her boss and colleagues were welcoming and friendly to her but suddenly her boss is clearly showing his dislike for her and all her colleagues are keeping their selves at a distance from her. This is too much for her. Only Maira came for her help whenever she gets a chance. Many times, she would be chased away by boss or his assistant but she always comes back. Finding a friend in her in this chaos is a blessing to her. She was deliberately ignoring the fact of involvement of Ahmer in her misery bu
At Night… Ahmer was watching her today’s recordings on loop on his laptop. The screen was showing her video of sitting with her head in her knees, holding herself together. She was in pain. She had been wronged. She was tired of all this. But she never looks up. The screen shows Maira coming for her. She doesn’t even say a word of complain to her. She can let her frustration out. But she didn’t. Now, the screen was showing her reaction after seeing her gift in worst state. She got hurt after seeing the tie. Tears were evident in her eyes when she was holding it in her hand. She suddenly got up and get out of the door. He waits for her. She has to come to him. She will definitely ask him about the things happening to