Once a monster, always a monster

Nora

“No… This is impossible! It wasn’t you… It can never and will never be you…” I retorted, shaking my head vigorously, hoping the voices echoing in my head could fall off.

“Nora…”

“No… You’re Alpha Damien. There’s no way you could’ve come into the Crescent moon pack, especially the strip club… This is a lie! It’s all a big fucking lie! You’re trying to trap me here… You must’ve dug up my past and you want to use it to keep me here…” I was protesting aggressively.

“Nora!” He thundered as he pressed both hands on my shoulder. “I am the man! You never got to see my face but if I show you my cock, would you remember? I remember everything about you that night except your face which I never got to see. I know you have a birthmark on your waist…” His hand easily touched where the mark was and my eyes widened in horror.

My breathing increased rapidly as I stared at him without words. My shoulders slumped in disappointment.

He was the man… All this while, the man I had been thinking about wasn’t just my mate but he had also tried to kill me and now I was pregnant for him.

Could life get any worse! I was under the roof of my lover… This is all crazy… This must be a lie! I don’t want to believe this…

“It’s true, Nora…”

“Why didn’t you say anything, Nyx? Why! You knew all along and you let me be without saying a word to me! Are you really my wolf because no wolf would let their human counterparts go through all these!” I barked at Nyx who wasn’t hurt at all by my words.

“I had to do it for your safety… I had to bring you here and make sure you’re protected…”

“Protected from what! From who! You keep talking about this stupid protection when I’m closer to death than I had ever been to safety! I do not want to talk to you again!” I barked as I shut Nyx out before she could say anything.

His hands dropped from my sides and my weak legs began to make their way towards only the goddess knew where.

I felt betrayed by my own wolf… It hurt deeply and at the same time it was crazy… I was confused. Now that I knew the girl was his, does this mean I’d have to raise the child here and let my child grow with a father like him?

“Nora… Nora…” He called as he grabbed my hand but I pushed him away angrily. Tears were streaming down my cheeks, I couldn’t believe this.

My heart was in a wreck. My brain was blank and all I could think about was the betrayal and numbing pain in my chest.

“Nora… Where were you going? Why do you have your bag packed? Were you planning on running away with my pup?” He asked, his face filled with anger.

I ignored him, still walking ahead and he grabbed my hand, forcing me to turn to him. His face was red and he was holding back a lot of anger.

“Answer me Nora! Were you planning to run away with my pup!”

“I’m not pregnant! The nurse is a liar! I just wanted to leave!” I replied, hoping he’d believe this and let me go. I could still run away with this child… knowing well Alpha Damien was the father, it was best to be as far away as possible… it would kill me to have a child who would be similar to him.

“Don’t you dare lie to me Nora! I know you’re carrying my pup! You're carrying my child Nora! Don’t lie to my face!” He thundered, his voice echoing in the house and I shook my head vigorously, determined to stand my ground and give my babe a better life.

“I’m not!” I wiped away my tears furiously with the back of my palm. “I’m not pregnant! I was never pregnant! I only wanted to run away because you don’t want to let me go!” I retorted, breathing heavily and he scoffed.

He suddenly pushed me to the wall and I was stunned. Before I could react, he shut my mouth with his palm while the second palm rested on my tummy.

I didn’t know what it meant or what he was trying to do but when I tried to move, he pressed me back in place.

“Ah!” I gasped when I felt a kick on my tummy… It was a painless kick but the fact that he had gotten a response from my tummy was stunning. I began trembling.

The babe was his, I had lied to him… What was he going to do now? Was he going to lock me up? Punish me or do worse?

“This baby is mine, Nora… Don’t you ever lie to my face again!” He thundered and tears began to gush out of my eyes.

He wasn’t going to let me go. He was going to trap me here and force me into doing his wishes.

I was left with no other option… It was going to be the most painful and regretful decision of my life but I was better off alone without a child for this monster.

“I want you to approve the termination of this pregnancy.” I announced, my shoulders pulled together and he glared at me, a loud growl of anger escaping his lips while his fangs and claws protruded.

He was furious! Hell he was an erupting volcano. His fur was beginning to appear and fear slowly crept into my skin.

“What did you just say!” He growled and I averted my gaze. “I don’t want to keep this child.” I replied vilely and it didn’t go well with him.

“Why!” He asked and I shook my head, biting back the words that were threatening to roll off my lips.

“Talk to me!” He thundered and that was the last straw.

“Fine! I don’t want to birth another monster!”

“Monster…” He repeated in astonishment.

“Yes! You’re a monster! I don’t want to have a child who would devour people and animals! I don’t want to have a child for a man who is feral! I don’t want my child to grow up in an environment where his father kills people without a good cause! I don’t want him to grow up to be like you! You’re cruel! Vile and unforgiving…” I paused to catch my breath.

“You thrive on bloodshed and people suffering… I’d rather risk going feral and losing my life than give birth to this child! Giving birth to this child is only going to increase the number of monsters in this world.” I finally concluded and he let go of me.

He didn’t say a word, his face was blank, he had masked all his emotions well but his eyes were filled with hurt, pain and unspoken thoughts.

He turned around and walked away, slamming the door angrily as he stepped out.

I slumped to the ground immediately, feeling exhausted, nauseous and sad. I couldn’t understand the reason for my sadness.

I was left without any thought, I couldn’t head out of the door without him coming to stop me and I was too tired to embark on any journey tonight.

His loud growl made me wince, he had shifted and I could hear the pain and rage in his voice, followed by the wails of an animal.

He was never going to change… Once a monster, always a monster.