I’m walking down one of the hallways in the Kartheca telling myself to turn back, but no matter how hard I try, my feet keep carrying me forward. Looking around I see the vibrant red and gold carpet with blue and green accents that line the floor of the hallway, and the walls are lined with stunning tiles of cyan blue. Fear is building inside me like a kettle reaching boiling point. I know I’m having a nightmare and I’m willing myself to wake up, but nothing is happening. As my feet continue to pull me forward the sound of moaning makes its way to my ears, and I feel a sinking sensation in my stomach. I try once again to stop walking or to turn around, but I keep moving forward. I make my way towards a partially open door where the sounds of moaning and grunting increase in volume, and my arms with a mind of their own push the door open. Bile rises in my throat as I my sister Ceren laying on the bed, her cream and glittery gold body naked and exposed, her strawberry blonde hair fiste
I slam shut another book in the library and lay my head on my arms. I just feel like I’m going around in circles. I’ve become the ouroboros at this point and I don’t mean that in a positive way. How does eating your own tail represent wholeness anyway? Whose dumb idea was that? “You look stressed.” I glance up to see my sister Hiranur’s gamboge and glittering gold aura. “I am stressed,” I sigh. “What are you researching?” she asks, coming closer. “Trying to find anything on supernatural beings that can invade people’s minds, but I’m not finding anything I don’t already know,” I say, pushing the book away in frustration. “Hmm, a makkari could. A visum could if they were granting a wish. A God definitely could, but that seems like a waste of their time. Why are you looking this up anyway? Is it a mission you’re working on?” she asks curiously. “A personal mission, you could say,” I answer evasively. “I get it, you don’t want to talk about it… want to go for a swim instead?” she of
It’s been two days since I saw Yildiz, and that’s not because I am avoiding her. I told her I would return, and I plan on keeping that promise, but she was right. I have been indecisive and it’s not fair to her. If I do return to her it has to be clear what I want, and that’s why I took the time to decide. If I remove all the voices in my head telling me why this is wrong, why this will only end badly, then all I’m left with is an overwhelming need to be with her. I don’t even care that we’re two completely different species, if Zarseti believed it can work then it has to. Yildiz is strong and wilful. She’s passionate and compassionate and sees things in ways I haven’t in a very long time. When I’m near her I feel light and at peace, but I also feel a desire unlike anything I’ve ever known, and that’s saying something. She drives me to madness and simultaneously pulls me from its clutches. She’s everything I never knew I wanted or needed and for some crazy reason she wants me, and th
Yildiz isn’t in her room, which isn’t unusual, but instinct is telling me something is wrong. I can feel it deep in my being that something is wrong with Yildiz. I focus all my thoughts on Yildiz and right away I find myself in what appears to be an infirmary. A massive and luxurious infirmary with hundreds of beds, but I’m only concerned with one. I can smell Yildiz’s blood in the air and while part of me finds it alluring, another part is enraged by it. If he hurt her… “What the hell is going on?” I almost growl out as I step towards the bed surrounded by irshiusts. As soon as I speak they all turn to me taking a defensive stance around something that makes me feel like my heart has been ripped out and pulverised. Yildiz is lying unconscious as two makkares appear to be healing her. I want to throw up. I don’t even know if I can throw up, but I want to. “Who are you and how did you get in here?” demands an irshiust with soft Korean features, peachy-white skin with glittering gold a
Osiah still hasn’t returned, but I’m not worried. He wasn’t lying when he said he would return, so I have faith that he will. The man sure loves to test my patience but I’ll crack his hard exterior soon enough. I’ll find my way to the chewy middle and learn all his secrets… now I have a craving for some künefe. I wonder if we have any left in the kitchen. To keep myself busy and distracted I’m once again in the library. This time I’m multi-tasking. I’m looking through books that have a historical account of certain magics that have been used over the centuries, focusing specifically on dream magic. I’ve found a few that come close to my situation, but there aren’t enough similarities to lead me to believe they are the same. I’m also looking through what we have on the Orraikam and its history, to see if that might shed a light on who went near it. Every twelve hours my sisters swap shifts guarding the Orraikam and since we’ve been guarding it there hasn’t been another break-in, but
The moon is full and high in the sky, illuminating the garden around me with its brilliant glow. I’m standing on a large, round platform that is a large Turkish mosaic and surrounding me are gorgeous flowers in bloom. The garden is filled with colour, each one looking ethereal and majestic in the light of the moon. I never knew the garden looked so stunning. I can see the Kartheca in the distance, but no lights are on, making the castle appear cold and desolate, sending a chill through my bones. “So beautiful and fragile, much like yourself,” I hear a familiar voice behind me. I slowly turn and standing admiring some purple crocuses is the bastard who continues to take the face of my animai. He wants me to hate him, to fear him. He can take his face, but he’ll never be Osiah in all the ways that matter. He can’t replicate all the things that identify Osiah to me. Without those things, I will never believe he is Osiah. “Why are you doing this to me?” I demand, standing my ground, “I k
“I’ve never spoken to anyone about this. There are people who know, but it wasn’t because I told them, so this makes you the first,” I begin as I sit up and drag my hands down my face. The moment my life went to shit has played itself over and over in my nightmares. I look back on that night and think of all the ways I would change it, but I can’t. “Take your time, I’m not going anywhere,” she assures me as she sits up with me. She’s looking at me with so much patience. Not an ounce of judgement on her face. Yet. She reaches out, takes my hand, and intertwines her fingers with mine sending glorious heat through my palm. She’s soothing me and keeping me grounded and for that I’m grateful. I reach out and gently brush my thumb against her glittering, freckled cheek and watch her eyes gently close. I’ll never get tired of that reaction. “I’m a monster, Yildiz,” I say flatly, causing her to open her eyes, “But I wasn’t always like this.” I take in a deep breath and relax a little when s
Her hands fist my shirt as she rips it from my body, and I respond by lifting her by her ass. Our lips continue their rhythm as she wraps her legs around me and with one hand I rip her blouse open. As she removes the tattered fabric from her torso my hand cups and squeezes her right breast and she lets out a salacious moan that goes right to my groin. I move us pressing her against the glass that surrounds her room as I trail my kisses down her jaw and down to her neck. “Tell me what you want,” I whisper as I suck her earlobe between my lips and press my hardened cock against her. She lets out a soft moan as she fists her fingers into my hair, “You… inside me. Right now,” she demands breathlessly. Effortlessly I rip her bra from her body and admire her spectacular full breasts as they rise and fall with every breath she takes. I lean my head down and take one of her dark nipples into my mouth, sucking and teasing it with my tongue as she mewls from my touch. I want to hear her like