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A Rhapsody for the Playboy Chapter Thirty-Five
Chapter 35 – Jayler A small part of me is secretly wishing that Lance should’ve told this Dominic guy that he was the sole reason why he wrote that harrowing and gut-wrenching song. Whether it’s intentional or not, I figured that he still brought down a torrential rain of pain and thunderous agony that was all poured into that song. But then I thought that’s horribly uneducated of me to wish something like that. Yes, it’s true that I don’t know the exact feeling of those emotions but at least I have an idea and I’m inclined to believe that that’s worthy enough for me to feel for Lance. However, I might have to change my point of view in line with Lance’s sentiments. He, himself had told me that he’d already moved past, buried the hatchet and whatever you may want to call it. And I guess I have to respect his decision. “I think you did the right thing.” I voiced out. It’s not necessarily what I think but based on what I’ve heard so far, it’s got to be the right thing. “I know.” Lance
A Rhapsody for the Playboy Chapter Thirty-Six
Chapter 36 - Jayler The whole trip to the beach was just a good two hours and I have got to admit, it’s quite fun to ride the public utility bus now that I’ve tried it. The air-conditioning system felt freezing even though when you look outside the sun’s pretty much burning. I had to use my jacket just to keep myself warm and even with the jacket on, I still felt like it’s winter. I noticed a few of the passengers seemed like they’re used to this frigid level of air-conditioning since they’re just wearing a t-shirt and they don’t even look like they’re freezing at all. This is essentially my first time riding the public bus towards the beach and it was certainly amusing to see different types of people. Lance and I had some pretty interesting conversation about how he’s managing his life having two jobs and all. He confessed to me that he never finished college and when I asked him about it he just shut down. In my head, I was thinking about pressing harder just to get to know the rea
A Rhapsody for the Playboy Chapter Thirty-Seven
Chapter 37 – Jayler “Someone special?” I repeated the words as if I don’t have a clear comprehension of what Lance had just asked. But the truth is, I don’t exactly know how to respond to that query. The reality is that I don’t really have someone special as far as I know. I mean, I have people like Kenneth and Jasper but I know what Lance was trying to say when he said those specific words. He’s most certainly talking about love and what do I know about love? “Don’t you have like a crush?” Lance rephrased the question perhaps thinking that I did not comprehend what he asked initially. I went silent for a moment and I didn’t know I was already staring tenaciously at Lance. His hair was now messy and his skin became a bit greasy caused by the heat in the open air but what had captured my attention was the way he was looking back at me. There’s something enigmatic in the way he looks at me like he’s looking beyond my soul searching for something there. Our eyes met halfway and I don’t
A Rhapsody for the Playboy Chapter Thirty-Eight
Chapter 38 – Lance The magnificent view of the sunset gave me nothing but a nice and fresh sniff of relief and even for that few minute glimpse of its striking the beauty of nature, it promised a fun and wild night ahead of us. Jayler and I are supposed to go back home by this time—we only came here to have a quick getaway from the inner city and all of the things that’s making me agitated—but it seemed that a beach party had halted our plans. Jayler was just super charged with high voltage of excitement when he learned about the beach party and while initially I was against that, I ended up agreeing to go and have a little bit of fun. Jayler appeared as if he’s a kid crying and begging for a box of chocolate at the chocolate shop and there even came a point that he became extremely unrelenting towards me. I just kept on declining and while it lasted, I was delighted and amused about how excited and thrilled he was to attend an actual beach party. At first, I honestly had no actual pl
A Rhapsody for the Playboy Chapter Thirty-Nine
Chapter 39 – Lance It took me seconds before I could even realize Jayler had planted an unprecedented kiss on my mouth and once I realized what was actually happening, I felt like the alcohol inside my system has just been flushed out. I was immediately pulled back towards reality and soberness and things seemed to go in slow motion. My initial response to Jayler’s sudden action was to reciprocate the kiss even though I was completely taken by surprise. I held the back of Jayler’s head, pulled his head even closer and then began kissing him back subsequently giving him what I think he wants. It was at this moment that I recognized the fact that he doesn’t know how to kiss. His mouth was plastered on mine but there’s no clear and passionate movement coming from him and I thought I’d have to take that role and start to guide him through it. I let out my tongue and began slithering my way inside his mouth, however that movement proved to be a wrong decision on my part. Jayler seemed to h
A Rhapsody for the Playboy Chapter Forty
Chapter 40 – Jayler I stood mentally adrift under the shower as the cold water trickled down incessantly trying to wash away the sticky sweat off of my body. I just got home from that short vacation at the beach and I thought I’m going to be just fine and yet I still feel like I’m in a different space. It’s been quite an unexpected day and the apparent feeling of confusion and shock has been clinging onto me. I have zero to little idea on how would I describe the bizarre and almost unfamiliar feeling when I kissed Lance at that stupid beach party. It just happened in the moment and I don’t even know if I regret doing it but all I know is that I kissed him and I’m pretty much certain that a few people had seen us. I might have to admit the thought that I actually liked the kiss in all fairness, but I’m trying to convince myself that it was just a core mistake that was caused by the alcohol and maybe the sudden feeling of jealousy. I don’t even know why I was feeling jealous when there’
A Rhapsody for the Playboy Chapter Forty-One
Chapter 41 – Jayler I was extremely busy for the following weeks that I felt almost disconnected with everything and somehow everyone around me. For the most part of it, I was conscious and I’m deliberately disconnecting myself around for one; the snide remarks from my peers about the whole reason why I was missing for a week isn’t doing any good for my thoughts; two, I just want to focus on getting back on my academic track and that’s because I don’t want my parents to notice something fishy; and third, I’m still trying to understand myself and still ignoring Lance. The grave punishment of cleaning and helping at the laboratory and library stole my free time and the only time that I could spend with Kenneth and Jasper was every lunch break. It’s the only time that we could catch up to each other and while I missed both of them, I’m still acting as if this was the first time that we met each other. I was mostly reserved purposely to keep my mouth from over talking and oversharing. Th
A Rhapsody for the Playboy Chapter Forty-Two
Chapter 42 – Jayler I guess I was being internally and subconsciously expecting for Joyce to react intrepidly violent just like my dad and I was obviously wrong about that. Even with the current knowledge that she’s dating a bisexual guy, I was admittedly enthralled to think that she would be against me kissing a guy and all. It was really sweet to think that this was the first time that I’m feeling great and thankful with a family member reacting to what I said that wasn’t even a lie. “It just happened and I don’t even know that I truly liked it until I sat and thought about it for a hot minute.” I was stripping everything out fully naked for my sister telling her how I truly felt in the moment and she’s very much attentive which was so comforting in a sense. “Do you think I’m sexually confused or is this just a what most people call a phase and that it’s going to pass sooner?” I flat out uttered the words in its rawest form and I’m actually quite surprised that I found the right do
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