READ. AT. YOUR. OWN. RISK.InevitableJuly 26, 2016Seattle, WashingtonMariake Rojas"Be careful huh?"I told Ada as she opens the car door. She was at the backseat and she was wearing a white dress. Today is Alejandros and Elisha's engagement party. I just dropped her off tapos ay aalis rin kami ni Maria Juana. I looked at Maria Juana. She's the one driving the car. Anak siya ni Ninong Pidong na best friend naman ng Daddy ko. She yawned."Babalikan lang ba natin si Ada?""Yes, Mary Jane." I told her. "Maglibot muna siguro tayo. She's a big girl plus hindi naman siya pababayaan ni Ate Amal. Isa pa, Cachi is there."Mary Jane made a face. "I still cannot believe you, Mary. Alam kong mabait kang tao – actually for me you aretoo mabait. Why did you become friends with you ex's old flame who turns out to be the legal wife thus, making you the kabit? Alam ba ni Uncle Seb ito? Alam mo bang hindi lang iisang beses kong narinig si Pops na pinipigilan si Uncle Seb na ipa-good shot iyang Kairo
READ. AT. YOUR. OWN. RISK.This is the momentMariake Rojas'"Mama, mama, mama, nakita kita kanina sa TV! Nag-wonder nga ako akala ko nag-alis ikaw."Nakahiga ako sa kama habang si Ada ay nakatabi sa akin. My very big belly is exposed in front of my daughter's eyes. I have no idea if she knew that I am pregnant or she really believed what Maria Juana told her these past few weeks, that I have eaten a big chunk of watermelon at na-impacho ako.Maria Juana is putting a lot of things inside my baby's head. Hindi ko rin naman siya masisi, maigi na rin siguro iyon para hindi masabi ni Ada sa Papa niya na buntis nga ako."Hindi pa pwede, Baby kasi nga nagre-rest pa si Mama."She was drawing something in her paper."I like it when you're on tv. Kasi you're very pretty po. Just like Ate!"Napangiti ako nang banggitin niya ang Ate niya. I cupped her face tapos ay nagpa-kiss ako."Ay, Mama, lalabas na ba si Baby Dog? Kasi nagbibili na si Tita Mary at Tita Clari ng mga things.""Oo, malapit na,
READ. AT. YOUR. OWN. RISK.Tell me why, KairosMariake Rojas'I couldn't stay still. Si Ada ay nakayakap sa Papa niya at umiiyak. Si Mary Jane ay karga si Xhan habang may subong pacifier. Iyak ako nang iyak. I can't lose another child again. I can't lose my Xavi. He's too young!Not a moment later, lumabas iyong nurse at tinawag ako. Agad akong tumakbo papasok. I wiped my tears and moved closer to the bed. Naroon si Xavi. Ave Maria was playing with him. He was making googly sounds, halos pumutok na ang pisngi niya kakatawa."What happened? Did he choke? Is he okay?""Oh, he is, Mariake." Sabi ni Ave sa akin. "May namuong milk sa may lalamunan niya and he almost choked pero okay na siya. I got it all out. Advice lang, every now and then, iki-clean mo iyong tongue niya." Napalunok ako. I forgot to clean his tongue a day ago dahil sa pag-aalala ko kay Ada. I talked to her on the phone and she seemed sad, dala ko na iyon sa isipan ko hanggang sa ngayon.Naluluhang kinuha ko si Xavi at hin
Read. At. Your. Own. Risk.Pros and Cons Kairos Gregor Rouvin Vejar"Tell me why, Kairos?"Her tears fell. I somehow know how hard she was trying to look stronger. Her hands were clasped in a way na hindi mahahalata na nanginginig siya. I know her, she is my wife. I know how scared she is now and I cannot blame her. I know how much of an asshole I am. I know how much I have hurt her. I know these things and yet, I cannot prevent them from happening to her because, well because of the wrong choices I have made in my life."Well, that's not true." Biglang sabi niya. "I felt like I was the wife but at the back of my mind, I was never sure if you love me or not or you were just being nice. But to me, those were the best moments of my life, Kairos but that all went away because you told me that it was always been her. How about that huh?"May pait sa boses ni Mariake. I sighed again. She stood up and fixed the pillows inside the crib."Bakit pa ng aba tayo mag-uusap? Alam ko naman, Kairo
READ. AT. YOUR. OWN. RISK.Falling into placesKairos Gregor Rouvin – Vejar"What happened?!"I am frantic as I am talking to Alejandros. Alba was sitting on the couch while looking at us. Elisha was with her. Si Eros ay nasa lap ni Pan at tulog na tulog na. Everyone in the family is awake and we are going to look for Ada. Mariake is crying and shivering. I am worried about her too – pero mas nag-aalala ako sa prinsesa ko."I saw her leaving the house. I checked on Alba kasi, Kairos tapos napa-look ako sa window and then, I saw her leaving. I thought, I was namamalikmata pero it was real! Like, I went here to check on her, the twins were asleep on the crib but Ada's nowhere to be found so I came to the house again and woke Elisha and here we are now. We like have to find her.""Mr. Pops is gone." Iake said. "Umalis talaga siya. She always takes the bear with her.""God! Mariake, how can you be so pabaya?" I heard Dione in the background. "Iyong dapat nagpapahinga na kami, pati parents
Kairos Gregor Rouvin Vejar'sDay one"Ako na."I smiled at Mariake right after I took from her the big box she was holding. We were on the stairs and she was trying to out the box to the nursery. Nilagpasan ko siya pagkatapos ay dumiretso na ako sa loob ng gagawing nursery. I had my people fix things here in the house. I am very excited about them coming home."Papa, look po, I found these po sa toys namin ni Ate. Pwede bai tong ilagay sa crib ng babies?"I put down the box to accommodate Ada. She was holding a musical mobile. I remember that thing. It was the first thing I bought for Danielle when I learned that Mariake was pregnant with her – na hindi na iyon false alarm. I didn't know how or what to feel back then, but one thing is for sure, I am excited to see Danielle. I wanted Mariake to give birth the next day."Why, Papa? Why are you silent? Nagugutom ba ikaw?" Ada asked me again. Ginulo ko iyong buhok niya at saka tumawa."This is the first toy I bought for Ate Danielle." I t
Prologue: O to the M to the G!Since I was five years old, I know that something inside of me is different. First, I have three sisters, Amalthea, Pan and Dionne, they are all pretty and they all like pretty things. I also have a brother; his name is Kairos Gregor Rouvin Vejar. We're supposed to always play together but Kairos likes playing tough games like rugby, football and others. Habang ako, I like playing tea party with my sisters. I love brushing Pan's hair, I love braiding Ate Amal's hair. I love putting lipstick on Dionne's lips. I love hanging out with my sisters so much.When I was eight years old, Pan introduced me to her new friend, Elisha Marie Limaco Magkaklase sila ni Pan at sabi nila mag-best friend daw sila. Pan and I and my other siblings study at the same school. Araw-araw kaming magkakasama kaya araw-araw rin naming kasama si Elisha.Elisha became a part of our lives. Kumbaga, parang extended sister na siya. Mama became very close to her. Wala rin namang kapatid s
Alejandros'"Have you heard from Elisha?"I did not react. I just sat there and ate my pasta while I listen to my boyfriend and my sister talk about the woman I fucked and probably the mother of my child now. It's been two years since I last heard from Elisha and no one really knows where she is. She went off the grid. Even her parents don't have a single idea of where she is right now. She's not missing – she just doesn't want to be found."I kinda miss her." Pan said. Sabino seconded her. I remained quiet."Babe, are you okay?" Sabino asked me. I looked at him and smiled."Of course. I miss her too. I just hope she is okay." I smiled at the two. Sabino kissed my knuckles and wiped the side of my lip. I didn't know that I had something in there. I wasn't myself. I am not myself for two years now. My mind is where Elisha is right now. How I wished that I went after her to ask her. What if he's pregnant? What if I got her pregnant? I haven't told anyone about what happened to us. I can