CORNELIUSThe old geezer was a handful.I could barely feel my skin as the sun bit my skin like a thousand termites tearing my skin bit by bit.Putting the hoe down, I gulped the rest of the water my eyes on the patio.“You are doing great”, she mouthed and I heaved in response. Her smile was the only thing helping me get through this, otherwise I would have given up weeks ago when her father suggested he needed some work done on his farm.Of course, he had fired all the farm boys and hired me. And necessarily not hired me but manipulated me into working on his farm for weeks now.Harrison Hayden was testing me, trying to make the fine thread of calmness I had maintained snap, trying to make me leave his daughter by overworking me but I would rather continue cleaning up horse shit than admit defeat.Lydia and I were together and pretty soon I would pop the question and then no man be it her father would take her away from me.I was finishing up on the digging. The digging I had done f
LYDIA“She’s so cute”, I cooed like a fan girl in one of Dean Lewis’ concerts.Chubby cheeks, long lashes, Carlos’ midnight black hair, God she looked like an angel and I wanted nothing more than to jump inside my screen and steal the little thing from a distraught Henley’s arms.“Only because you’ve not been with her for a day”“I want one”, I fussed about putting my salad aside.“Motherhood isn’t an easy feat, Dia. I haven’t slept for days”She did look sleep deprived. Like a week sleep deprived.While Carla looked like she had been straight out from a sauna, her mother, Henley looked like she had been sleeping on the streets for weeks with her ginger hair up her head in a mess, eyebags under her eyes and her shirt…well let’s just say motherhood had taken a rather hard toll on her.“Ooh I’m sure I’ll manage it. I mean you did, right? And Veronica is on her way to becoming a mother too so..”“Right, how are things between you and Connor?”Ooh between sex, watching rom coms, him talki
CORNELIUSHappiness, I never really knew it until today because boy oh boy when the doctor said Lydia was pregnant my heart had been roaring so loudly in my throat.I was going to be a father.To a girl and I really hoped it was a girl. Or a boy, a choice Lydia preferred.A few months later and we were still indecisive whether we wanted to know the gender of the baby or not. Girl or boy, my mind had been solely dependent that I was going to be a father and God damn it, I was going to be the best father there was going to be.While Benjamin Flores, my dad had been a dick to me in my entire childhood, he had still been a father figure to me and I was hell bent on being a better father to my kids. And Lydia? Well, I had no doubt she was going to be a good mother even though her temper tantrums over the past few months had overtaken the sweetness inside of her.“You did good”, Cain said pulling me out of my reverie.I gulped the martini at a go, eyeing him with a quirked brow,“What’s tha
JOAQUINI loved her, no not past tense but present tense, I love her.She was the only woman who made me feel like this way like my shitty life could somehow change, and I was ready, to change.To become a batter man. To leave my terrible life behind and start a fresh. A good life without violence, without blood shed without my father but then life was never easy was it?I killed Rocco, I mean sure the motherfucker deserved it and it gave me pleasure to kill him but doing that had brought all of this shit in front of me.I gazed at the rusty place they held me in.It had been days since I ate anything, not that I would stomach any food with the sight in front of me.The blood and gore, a body sprawled up from the ceiling like it was nothing.Like it was a bloody sack of potatoes and not a living thing. They had done it in front of me, made sure I got to witness each and every layer of skin they pulled from the body.My screams had been nothing to them and how could they?We were train
CORNELIUS“Do you know who did this? Why—she never had any enemies, she never caused trouble. I don’t understand”“Has, she doesn’t have any enemies. Present tense because she’s going to pull through”, I said with a growl and my aunt Vicky shut her mouth with understanding.I scrubbed a hand over my face noticing the red color of Lydia’s blood adorning my hands like paint. My heart wept, my hands shook, I couldn’t breathe because it felt like I was on the losing end.Because I was on the losing end of the battle. I was about to lose the two people that mattered to me in a single day and I felt it. I felt it the minute the medics strapped Lydia’s lifeless body to the stretcher. I felt it the moment I glanced at the pool of blood left behind by her body.I felt it because she couldn’t move and inch as I tried to call her name over and over again. As I tried to plead for her to hold on. For my sake. For our baby’s sake.God, this was all my fault and if she died, I was going to die with
CORNELIUS “All I need is 24 hours to get the job done”, I snapped.Lowering his cap eyeing me like the deal wasn’t that sweet to consider he stated the obvious,“You’ve got a lot of money and we both know you have the means and resources to disappear from the face of the earth”True.So fucking true.I leveled him with a look,“I have nothing to live for”I didn’t and that was the fucking truth. A truth that had me mourning for days and wishing I was six feet under and not her.As for my son, a son I never got to hold or know his name, he was better off without me. Me being in his life would lead the same path to what happened to…her.She was dead.Out of existence and I was a shell of vengeance and fury.Shell of nothing but bitter wounds that refused to heal and I didn’t think I would heal and that’s why I was doing what needed to be done.For Lydia,For my son,Joaquin needed to die.And he was going to die, today.“Listen buddy, I’ve helped you tons of times before but this time i
CORNELIUS“We will get you out, you hear me Connor?” Aunt Vicky cried.“We all make an appeal”, Cain said behind her and my other cousin for the part eyed me like she’d received a strike to the heart.They all looked the same. Crestfallen after the judge’s verdict.For the most part of it I had remained neutral during the whole court hearing, my lawyer had deemed my case as a hard one to crack. I knew it, I knew it would be a hard one the minute I uttered the words ‘I am guilty’. And when the judge had given a final verdict of twenty-five years for all my crimes including dealing with LA’s largest crime lord, I had been rather disappointed than happy.Twenty-five years meant that there was a possibility of me getting out soon. A possibility of me seeing the outside world when I didn’t deserve it.My family had taken the news rather horribly. While they had forgiven me for everything that had transpired in the past, I wasn’t quite ready to forgive myself.This was my punishment, not pu
CLAIREAs sure as the color of the sky, the green in the grass, the shades of both yellow and orange in the sun's rays, I could attest to the fact that those were the only things that made sense in my life.I wasn't trying to be ungrateful. God knew I wasn't.But have you ever woken up one morning to realized that your life might as well have been a big lie.That maybe what you knew wasn't necessarily true. That maybe you didn't know yourself as much people knew you.It felt that way and even though I tried to push the ill feelings aside and tried to really enjoy what God had given me, I still felt...Stuck somewhere I didn't belong.Stuck as someone I didn't know in an utopian fantasy my mind had created.And it was safe to say, said mind had done a really great job in ensuring that I was stuck into being a shell of someone I didn't recognize."The whole barrel this time?" Old farmer Greg asked and I nodded taking the bills from my purse and giving it to him."They are adamant on win