Trying not to panic

Chapter 7

Tori’s POV

Trying not to panic as I hear Arthur’s question about a human mate. If it is eventually true, it will not be good.

It can’t be right. This can’t happen to Arthur too.

I was unfortunate enough to be mated to a monstrous alpha. The moon goddess can’t let this happen again. Especially to Arthur.

“It’s not your fault that you were mated to him. It’s not your fault.”

All my life, I had been using these words to comfort and encourage myself. Till I left this pack.

I compose myself and tried to keep my heart rate in a slow pace, as I continue our discussion.

“This human girl, are you attracted to her?” I asked trying to seem as though I didn’t get his question.

Arthur keeps a calm face and shrugs. He doesn’t like it when I keep asking him questions in any of our discussion.

He just wants a straight answer.

“She’s quite the beauty of course. I do find her to be attractive, and my wolf gets stirred up whenever he sees her.”

Arthur sighs like he couldn’t believe he’s having feelings for a girl.

“But she’s human. Why will the moon goddess give me a human as my mate?” Arthur asks as though he has foiled.

This takes me back to when I was married to Arthur’s father.

I was brutally maltreated, all because I was wolfless. Human.

He would always make me feel unworthy of myself. Saying horrible things to me.

“You are the most worthless, wolfless thing I have ever seem. So dumb and stupid. What a joke.”

I got married to him only because I had to clear my father’s debt with him.

It was hell on earth with that beast. Even the pack members couldn’t help me from him.

There was one time Arthur’s father, as usual, was beating the life out of me.

All because I missed training for one day. I was having the most terrific headache, so I had to miss it.

In the course of his dreadful discipline, by throwing me everywhere in the house, I hit my head hard on the wall.

I was hospitalized and suffered from a concoction.

“I wish him the most unspeakable death.” I would always say to one of the pack members that was assigned to care for me.

“Don’t say that. He might hear you.” She would say to keep me from getting beaten again.

If he had heard me, I’ll be back to the hospital in no time.

The best day of my life was when I left that pack. My only regret was leaving Arthur behind.

I had tried so many times to get Arthur. And the times I was successful, within two days, Arthur would be seriously sick.

“I want to go back home. I want my dad.” Arthur would cry out as he couldn’t endure the pain.

Arthur would beg me to come back home with him.

“Don’t worry about me. When you become the alpha, I’ll come stay with you. We will all be one big, happy family.”

I would say to him just to stop him from crying.

Arthur never cried in the presence of his father.

“That’s the sign of weakness you should never let out. Repress it.” Arthur’s father would cruelly warn him.

Sometimes I would say to myself.

“It’s not your fault Arthur is as violent and dangerous as his father was. It’s in his blood.”

I’ve heard of the drastic measures he uses on Arthur so he will be the alpha he’s might to be. Stupid.

But I have always looked at Arthur in a different way. He is a calm and gentle soul, who is just scared of been seen in his lowest.

Now, I am very worried about this human girl.

If what Arthur says is true, about this girl being his mate, she better run for her dear life.

I heard that mates use to change the nature of their partners, especially the cruel ones.

If I didn’t change the beast, no one can change Arthur.

With what I saw tonight, Arthur isn’t anything like his father. Arthur is far from what his father was, but he is too cruel and dangerous to have a human as his mate.

Although, I have to tell him the truth.

“Well, sometimes, the moon goddess may have a sense for a human, maybe a soft spot, and mate them to werewolves.”

I tell him, but seeing his eye brow furrows, doesn’t like the sound of that.

“It’s true. She would mate werewolves to other supernaturals, other than our kind. Like human. Just like me.”

He knows the story, I wouldn’t want to bore him with that again.

I really don’t want to sound disapproving of his feeling about his human mate.

“I think you should just keep a close eyes on her. You might be wrong, and Ainsley can be your mate.” I tell Arthur.

“I’m never wrong, Tori.” Arthur groans quietly.

“What if you are? Let’s just say, you might have mistaken her scent for Ainsley.”

Maybe pushing his mind to this Ainsley girl might be best for now. Till he figure it out.

“Or maybe not.” He angrily said back.

Okay, I must have pushed the wrong button. I don’t want to be the disapproving mother-in-law.

“I have nothing against the human girl or your girlfriend. I was a human once. If this human girl is your mate, it’s the wish of the moon goddess. If not.”

Raising my shoulders up to my neck and back down.

“Whichever it is, you will figure it out.”

I stand up to leave him alone with his thought. I kiss him on his head.

“I pray the moon goddess spares you from that kind of heartbreak, my son.”

I truly and hopefully pray the moon goddes does spare him. Another person can’t hate my sweet son as much as I hated his father.