LOGINALEXA POV Desires are holy, and sometimes you just deserve its cold attacks and the crazy hook it has on you.Karl has returned to be with his nanny, and me? This time around I could not dwell much on the matters at hand rather my body seeks an affirmation that seems so lost and dead.I forced a groan, like the needs are just gonna disappear, but they are there, here with me and vowed to be my doom.I did not want to touch, did not want to awaken the beast, but maybe, just maybe a single touch could calm the fight down there right under me.And I touched, slow, intentional and I liked it, like it compare to the cold jaw Sebastian throws me at night, like it to the tears I shed when I felt like a loser, and right now, I am just going to be the lead of my own ecstasy.I was low, I needed to be low, as my finger busied itself through my wet parts and the joyous tears makes me into that young and free woman I once was, Alexa who has got her own charm.“My Luna, a visitor is here to see y
CLAIR POV “Come back to work, the manager has concluded he has no right in your personal life.”“Whatever that shit even is.”A tiny laugh escaped Mrs Hilda’s mouth and her face turned all serious quickly too.“He promise you a raise, to triple your wages.”And ever since I opened the door for her, that was the only appealing words I heard.Money, and god know how much I needed the cash, to change renew our bills or perhaps get a new apartment and Lily’s school.“I will come.”I said slowly, knowing it would cost me more time if I ever wanted to check or apply to other jobs and also, no one pays like The Mount Agency.Mrs Hilda had stepped inside without waiting for an invitation even after I almost died of fear, her heels had clicked on the floor I had mopped earlier that morning. She looked around the apartment like she was calculating the rent in her head. Her eyes fixed on the chipped paint. The couch with the stain Lily spilled juice on last summer. And the small window that let
SEBASTIAN POV “The River Star pack has sent bodyguards to welcome us my Alpha.”Kane whispered to my ear, as if I couldn’t see them already.“And Alpha Eliot is with them also.”Nuel added and I only nodded. This is Montreal, where my instinct had anticipated for a weird reason, and I wondered how much I had anticipated it in this past, but it has never happened.The bodyguards walked toward us and bowed lowly in respect. I could read their fear, even when what they do is hide it, it’s like a thick wave forming and tightening their throats.“Welcome to Montreal Alpha Sebastian of the great moon pack.”Eliot greeted.“It’s an honour receiving your support every time.”He added and I shook his hand, pulling him into my left arm and stepping out into the weather.I scented it yet again, the reek of danger.The air here was different. Colder and sharper. It bit at the back of my throat and carried deep smoke, wet invisible touches and something metallic I couldn’t place. “You brought ha
ALEXA POV LI stood in my room as Sebastian’s private jet flew out. Its wings spread into the white blue sky, and I kind of envied its freedom. “Mother I did better today.”Karl’s voice shook me free of my anxiety a bit, and I turned toward him, with the best smile I could give.“You always do better darling.”He rushed into my arms, his scent the actual hibiscus smell on Sebastian. The same smell that clung to the sheets the night he said my name like a prayer and then like a mistake. The same smell that haunted the hallways when he walked past me.“Beta Nuel will return soon, and you should make sure you keep making mummy proud.”I said, pulling tighter on the poor boy, my baby, the one I love so dearly. Any pack decision can’t keep us apart. And Sebastian, no matter how far ahead he is, I can only thank him for at least taking Karl’s side.“You can be replaced.”My wolf snarled beneath, and I pressed a gentle kiss on Karl to calm the tornado erupting in my head and pretend my wo
CLAIR POV It’s Saturday and overly lonesome, a typical ChiCanada if you ask me. “Mummy, do you miss your friends?” Lily’s voice broke out from the kitchen. I have decorated the house last summer to get things regulated and in place and even though it’s this small house, it felt bigger now that I created a kitchen space. “Not really baby, I have you after all.” I said, hating how forced and tight my voice sounded. It will be summer soon, and I think I needed the sun, as much as it could give. Clair’s eyes settled on me, curious, probably got a lot in her mind. I shifted on the sofa and beckoned for her. She shrugged off her frown and got into my arms. “You are my only friend Lily, I want you to know that.” I wish she would always remember that, even when I got lucky to have more people supporting me, I wish she would always know how important she’s in my life forever. “Why did you cry so much and said ‘I miss you’ in the night?” My heart skipped a beat. She heard me, when I
SEBASTIAN POV Her eyes were full of tears, and it moved me deeper than I wanted it to. Deeper than grief. Deeper than the walls I have tried to build around my chest for four years.But what could a broken Alpha like me promise anyone else?I had already failed Clair. I had already let Fate as they call it take her before I could even figure out how to say her name without it bleeding. And what right did I have to touch Alexa? To promise her anything when every word I spoke only turned to ash in my mouth?“I will do what is necessary to keep Karl safe,” I said gently. The words sounded foreign and weak. I hated how my voice softened for her. Hated how my strength felt like it was fading, not that any rogue could challenge me and live, my claws had ended wolves stronger in the past. But I couldn’t find the strength to give love. Not when all I did was receive it and let it burn me.Perhaps I’m a broken Alpha.“My Alpha, Karl is considered human with his weakness. Won’t your acknow
CLAIR POVHow cruel is the heart, that it hurts the most when you want it to feel nothing?I pushed through the tight line at Ontario airport, dragging my suitcase with one hand and holding the other under my belly that seems to get bigger each second. Each step sent a dull ache through my lower ba
SEBASTIAN POV My knuckles throb. And the blood dries under the skin where I split it on the heavy bag again. For three hours. Time has stopped mattering when Nuel said the word."Gone."Gone like she never existed to me, like the scent of her shampoo that still haunts my private bathroom. And the
ALEXA POV The silk is cold. Not air conditioning cold. This is the cold of an empty bed. Six nights and six mornings now, waking up with his side untouched. The pillow still round. And the sheets still perfect. Like no man ever lay there.I press my hand to his pillow anyway. It smells like him.
SEBASTIAN POV The hall smelled like polished wood and the vanilla candles Mother insisted on for every ceremony. Too clean yet fake. I stood at the altar in a tailored black suit, my tie loose because the collar was choking me. My hands were fists at my sides. The marble floor was cold through my







