I stand in front of the tall mirror in my room. In a black halter top, dark-washed high-waisted skinny jeans, and my peep-toe black suede booties, face painted with natural look--because I don’t want to give a wrong vibe, I feel excited. I can’t remember when was the last time I dressed up for a date. Or hanging out with a guy, in this case. Whatever.
I grab my cobalt suede fringe jacket before heading out. Closing the door, I find Mo and Tom curls up on the sofa watching a movie. “Someone’s ready to kill tonight,” Tom whistles.“You look good,” Mo says on approval. “I like this waves. And the outfits.” She eyes me from top to bottom and nods.“I like it too,” I replay, grinning. “I hope it’s not too much.”“Nah, girl, you’re perfect.” She untangles herself from Tom and stands to smooch my temple. “I feel like a proud momma sending her daughter to her first prom.” She fake wipes her eyes.Tom shakes his head at her antic. “Darling, let the girl be.” He pulls her down. “You’ll be fine, Bry,” he says to me in his thick British accent. “Just be you. If he’s the right one, then everything will be alright.”“Thanks, Tom.” I bend to kiss his cheek. “I’m off. You guys do what you wanna do. But leave my bedroom out of it,” I state playfully while walking to the front door. “Bye, lovebirds.”I hear Mo squealing before the door close behind me.****Weekend nights at Stewart’s means it’s hard to find an available seat in this hour. The dinner rush and party goers blends together to enjoy the performances. If you’re on the list, then it means Brad, and now Lincoln, deemed you good enough for their weekend crowds.Not so surprise to know that Nate is on tonight. In a short time playing here, he already have the patrons eating from his palms, he’s that good. And he knows it.He knows how to work the crowds to his will with his voice and guitar. A slanted smile here, a self-assured grin there, making the girls oohs and aahs as he continues strumming those strings.No exception here. I stand by the bar watching Nate work his magic sipping my tequila. My only focus is on him.“You’re ogling.”The last person's voice on earth I want to hear wakes me up from my reverie, extinguishes the star-struck fog from my brain with the hate I have for him.“Not your business,” I reply, trying so hard to sound indifferent. I don't want him to know that he still has such an effect on me.I hate that he still has it.The grump now stands beside me, his presence fills my space. He makes me suddenly feel more on edge.“Bryanna.”His stern tone have me looking up to him, just to find his eyes glued to the stage. “What is your problem?” I stare dagger at the side of his face.For what it feels like the longest time, Lincoln just stands there. When his eyes finally meet mine, something flashes in those caramel orbs so fast I’m not sure it’s real. He then shakes his head, mumbling something that sounds so much like stupid and turn around.It isn’t long before the crowds drown his body and I feel more ... confuse than ever.****“Hey, Beautiful.”Nate kisses my cheek when he reach my seat. Halfway through his set, I snagged a table around the corner and have been there since, while trying to brush off the confusion Linc’s and my encounter brings.Actually, and thankfully, that was not that hard at all with Nate everywhere.“Hey.”Sigh.He’s a little sweaty, but the kind where it makes him look even more good. And after watching the way he sang and played his guitar on that stage? Talk about a world-altering experience.Stop it, Bry, I tell to myself. I don’t know how, with all these thoughts in my head, I still can be a fumbling mess outside when I’m with him.“Sorry you have to wait long.” He sits across from me. Eyeing my empty glass, he asks, “Want me to grab you another drink?”“No,” I refuse quickly because it's already a struggle to finish this one, “I’m fine. You're welcome if you want one for yourself.”“Nah.” He swipes his hair with his fingers. “I’m good.”Yeah, you sure are.“So, what do you wanna do? I usually grab something to bite here first before heading back. Or we could just go. You choose.”“I can eat.”He gives me that blinding smile.So, we waves and Jenny appears to take our orders. We fills the time waiting with small chat, mostly me asking about the progress of his song writings. “It looks promising. Now that I have the chance to spread my music, I feel more confident with my work. Maybe one day I can show you one of them.”His invitation make my heart skips. “Really?”“Of course,” he says, giving me a playful wink.“I’d like that.” How can I not?Our food came, we ate and chatted. Actually he ate and talked about music while I was too busy ogling him to give a come back. I have no idea what’s come over me. It’s not like I haven’t been around guys. But, with Nate?I shake, shake, shake my head internally.Breaking through my own world, I realize the side-glances and evil eyes the girls in the room sends my way. It wakes me up even more to finally fully aware of the tingling on the side of my face and the cause of it. Trying to stealthily glance to my right, my eyes meet caramel ones from across the room.The giant grump of a man stands on the far wall, his face void of emotions. He holds my stare for a second, and then disappears. Again.What the hell did he want?****“So, this is me,” I tell Nate when the car stops in front of my building. “Thank you. I really enjoy tonight.”I’m about to turn my body and open the door when Nate grabs my forearm. His touch burns my skin. I look up to find his burning eyes that looks really out of this world. My heart begin to thump, thump, thump faster the longer he stares at me.I freeze, my only response is to stare back at those hypotizing blues in the dim light of the cab. His palm starts to climb up, up, up until it rest in the nape of my neck, thumb lightly strokes my cheek. Then slowly, ever so slowly, he leans down until his lips are only a hair breadth from my lips, waiting for my consent.Nate want to kiss me! What am I going to do?Making up my mind, I close my eyes and tip my head back so there’s no room for air until our lips locks.Nate kisses my upper and lower lips softly, giving each of them the same attention. Each light stroke is his way of getting me use to the rhythm and the feel of his lips. I hum as my lips grab his lower one and I can feel his smile.I can't help not to smile back.Butterflies in my belly starts to flap their wings.His tongue then licks my lower lip, sending thrills down to my toes. Liking my body’s response to his touch, his tongue finds mine and, oh my God, I cannot explain how good it feels. With each lick, jolts of electricity shot through me and I’m drowning from the high.We're so busy devouring each other, nothing matter outside of that kiss, until the driver clears his throat.The. Most. Awkward. Moment. In. My. Life.I reluctantly pull away, Nate’s lips trails my cheek, my jaw, with chaste kisses before they finally leaves me completely.I try to slow my breathing, to put myself together before opening my eyes. I meet with those blues gleaming with mirth, cocky smirk in place.He knows what he just did to me.Nate releases his grip on my hair. Yeah, I don’t know when it happened, I’ve been busy feeling his other body part. “Night, beautiful,” he says to my lips after he gave me another chaste kiss there.I can barely breathe, let alone get myself together. “Night, Nate,” I croak.****What's happening to me?It is not until I hear the familiar voice of Nurse what's-her-name that my hard-beating heart slows down.Holy moly, Batman. I'm a mess."Oh, hey. You must be the baby daddy. Glad to see you," she greets with her cheery voice.Before I can turn on my back and swat that statements away to hell, Linc chimes in, "Hi. Nice to meet you. I'm Lincoln."What in the actual hell? I sit up too fast and get myself a whiplash.Shit."Whoa, whoa, slow down, honey." The nurse suddenly stood beside me and holds me on the forearm. "Didn't think you'll be so excited to see me," she jests, trying to make it light.The giant prick snickers.I try to send a glare at him discreetly but fail miserably when Nurse—I glance at her tag—Laura eyes us back and forth. "Everything alright, honey?" she asks as she checks up on my vital."Yeah," I croak, "everything is fine.""I guess so." She writes something on the paper she brought with her. "And, please, lay low for a while, yeah? No inten
What the hell is he doing here? Who do he think he is showing up in my room after ALL that he did? And, yeah, I really mean ALL OF IT.The nerve of this freaking prick."Sweetheart, is everything okay?"Dad's voice break through the fog of disdain that coated my brain, but, still, it takes a while for the question to truly register. I shift my eyes from the big, uninvited, and unwelcomed guy that now standing near my bed to my parents.And, it's not a surprise to see confusion painting their faces. Because of course they didn't know. And I don't want them to ever know about what had happened between me and the guy who they think of as their own son beside Adrian.Don't ask. I personally don't know why I'm still trying to keep this as a secret from them. Either I want to keep my name, or ....Don't. Don't go there.I shouldn't think like that way. I shouldn't think about it anymore.This is all his fault.But I can do nothing about it in front of mom and dad. "Yeah, yeah, Daddy. Everyth
What the fuck did he just say?What. The. Fuck?"What the fuck, Linc? You're not listening?" protests Adrian.Yep, you see that right. The very best friend who had ghosted me for this past months is now drinking my liquor like it's fresh water and he's been stranded on the Sahara.I should have known when I saw his ass walking in from the door that he wasn't bearing any good news. I should have known when I saw him and he just waved his hand asking for a drink. I should have known.When the most stubborn prick on the planet shows up at your bar after punching your mug ugly, giving you silent treatment for months, you know something is wrong.And it really is. Terribly, fucking devastatingly wrong."Slow down, man. You want to knock yourself out or something?" I warn, reaching for the bottle he is gripping so hard like a lifeline.He swats my palm. Hard. Fuck, that hurts."Yeah, yeah. I wanna do that so baaad," he slurs. He then chuckles. "You realize how funny it was? I'm trying to kno
I can't. I can't do this anymore.My body is so weak. There's nothing left to be released from my belly, but my throat don't get the memo and keeps on constricting. Dry heaving is sooo draining.With shaky legs, with the last strength I have in me, I drag my body out of the bathroom and reach for my phone on the bedside table.I can't do this alone.I can't if I want my baby safe.I can't if I want to safe me too.The call is still connecting.Come on, pick up. God, help me, God. Help. Please. Please. Please.She picks up on the third ring."Sweetie?" she asks, a little hesitant. Maybe she's questioning her own eyes. She doesn't believe I am calling her now. This is my fault. I did this to her. I stopped calling her months ago.God."Mama," I answer, as loud as I can. But, with the abused throat and the dehydration, I sound like a scratch on a sandpaper.Hearing this, her alarms picks up. "Sweetie, what's happening? Are you okay?" Panic colors her voice."No, Ma," I croak again."Oh my
And suddenly out of nowhere Nate is everywhere.The internet is blowing with the news of this up and coming artist who will certainly make you lost your mind with his voice and his charm. They talked about his looks. His hypnotizing blue eyes, his lean but now muscular body. They talked about the aura he's giving out. They talked about his first single which successfully placed Nate on the chart, on people's attention. The other star starts to notice him too. They talked about that "mini tour" he did. They talked about his soon to be out first album. They talked about a real big all around the States tour after that. They talked about everything Nathaniel Moore. And they talked about all of his sexcapades. It seems like the rising star has already spread his wings in the women section. Then I see it. A photo of Nate kissing a woman in front of a building, a hotel to be exact. Bile rising in my throat. I'm gonna be sick. I run to the bathroom in my office and heaving to the toilet
NowShe darts through the apartment and be in my room in a speed of light. "Tell me you listened to me," she demands as soon as she's here.I am leaning back against the head of the bed with pillows supporting my back and going through social media like nothing happened. I mean, nothing had happened if I consider what I did as nothing. Right?"Bry!" She snatches my phone away. "Hey!" I exclaim, sitting up. "I know you're upset but can you please not take it out on my phone?""Tell me you didn't do anything stupid," she insists. Her beautiful eyes penetrates me, searching for the truth from deep inside of me. She, like hundreds of times before, sees everything. "You did, didn't you?"Gotcha. But I keep my eyes on hers. "Why, Bry? Why? He's a jerk! You've been good these past months. You're better. You're happy again. Why?" I shrug. She's still waiting for my answer. She gets none of it. "That's it?" she gawks at my response. "I'm worrying myself sick about you and you just shrug