MasukThe scent of smoke burns my nostrils as Kael and I sprint through the jagged hills, heading for the borders. Some of the warriors from the rogue pack join us, shifting mid-air. Kael and I retain our human forms, easily keeping up.
We meet the borders tainted, with bodies of our wolves on the floor, their eyes lifeless.
"Arghhhh!" Kael screams into the night air. I know he'll blame himself. Anytime something goes wrong, he finds a way to pin it on himself. He says if he were a better Rogue Alpha, he would be able to protect his pack better.
But I know he is doing the best that he can, and these people who attacked us need to be taught a lesson.
“Kael!” I call, going to stand in front of him. My hands clutch his arms as I force him to look into my eyes. “We can still pick up their scents. Let’s hit them back where it hurts.”
He nods and springs into action, the rest of the pack charging after him as we race past the borders we have guarded for the last ten years, trailing the scent of the pack that attacked us.
It isn’t hard to find them since they are a rogue pack as well, camping in the hills adjacent to ours. A war breaks out in full, with screams and howls reverberating everywhere.
I should shift into my wolf form to fight, but for some reason, I am still more confident in my weapon skills than the powers in my Luna wolf. I have read about Luna wolves destroying a whole pack due to losing control over their powers.
And I don’t want that to be me.
“Raya!” Kael’s voice cuts through the chaos. “To me!”
It is easy to find him amongst the twisted trees, his muscles on display as he fights off two rogues at the same time. I dart towards him, my blood roaring in my ears.
Someone throws a knife at me, but my senses are heightened as I duck immediately, staying on the ground long enough to see a second one fly right past my eyes, nicking me a little.
My years of training come into play as I block and strike, trying to cover the distance to Kael. A group of wolves charges at me, and my efforts to reach him get thwarted as I fight them off.
A rogue bares its teeth at me and attempts to dig them into my skin. But I move at once, sending him crashing into a tree. He turns around relentlessly, heading for me again. All around me, people drop dead, and some are wounded.
After fighting off the wolf, I look back at the tree where I saw Kael the last time, but he is nowhere to be found.
"Kael!" I call frantically, desperate to find him. I heave a sigh of relief when I catch a glimpse of him in the middle of the battlefield, but he soon disappears again.
None of the rogues seem to be coming for me anymore. They all leave me unattacked, even when I am standing right beside them.
I don’t think too much of it as I push forward, screaming Kael’s name.
And then, suddenly, the earth seems to have been tipped over its scale of balance. A strange light pierces the air vertically, and an opening presents itself. From where I stand, I can see buildings that reach the sky, and men in suits walking past.
I stretch my hand out into it, and like in a trance, it pulls the rest of my body through.
***
For a moment, everything is strange. I can still hear the loud screech from the portal I have just passed through, and it takes a while for my body to get used to where I am.
I look around when it no longer feels like I am about to fall, taking in the sound of engines that has replaced the howls. The sun has totally set here, and the skies are dark.
Neon lights shine at me from strategic corners, and street lamps cast shadows on the sidewalks. I am no longer on the hills where I have been for the last ten years.
I am now in the human world.
The smell of gasoline, associated with the city, hits me as I make my way through. I can hear the voices of people behind walls, their subjects of discussion sounding really hilarious to me.
Suddenly feeling too vulnerable, I wrap my arms around myself and head into the first place I see.
A bar.
It is dark and loud in here, the music booming through the walls and the sound of inebriated laughter ringing in the air.
I feel eyes on me as I step in, but I don’t pay them any attention as I move towards the farthest corner of the bar, asking for a glass of their strongest drink.
Kael will be worried about me by now, that is, if he is still alive. I hope he is. God, I hope so because I don't know what I'll do if anything happens to him.
I feel a sudden awareness to my right. A slight tingle as if someone is watching me. I look up slowly, finding his gaze on me. He is hidden by the dim light, but the intensity of his stare makes me feel like he can see into my soul.
My heart suddenly feels weird.
"Rough night?" the bartender asks, startling me as he appears with my order. He looks pointedly at my clothes, and I realize how I must look right now with all the blood stains and dirt.
“Yeah,” I sigh, grabbing the glass. “You can say that.”
He smiles. “Well, we don’t judge. And from the look of it, that man doesn’t either.”
I stare in the direction again, and the stranger's eyes haven't wavered. Taking a deep breath, I pull mine away from him and down the contents of the glass at once.
“I think I’ll be needing another.”
I stand there, watching him leave the room. My chin trembles, like I am struggling to catch my breath. The door closes loudly, the sound echoing in my head.I stumble back to the bed and sit on the edge. I stay there, blankly staring at nothing, tears sliding down without permission. I don’t even bother to wipe them.How did he find out? How did Rex know I’m pregnant? I think to myselfMy hands move to my stomach. It’s still flat, still mine, but there's life there. A small, uninvited heartbeat. I don’t know how to react to all this. Should I be angry? Scared? Or maybe both.He doesn't even care? I thought he wanted a baby? Or is it because I'm not his first mate?My thoughts circle like smoke. I remember being in the garden last night, touching the flowers, tracing their edges under the moonlight. Then the vision hit me out of nowhere and I recall that night. That cursed night.I saw it all again, the way he touched me, the heat of it, the moment I felt something dark watching from t
Raya stands by the bed, her eyes burningholes through me. She's got her hand on her stomach, gentle, almost protective. I don't look for too long, I just keep my voice sharp and cold.“I can't let you have my child.”The words feel heavy to say, but I force them out. It’s better to be cruel than to allow her to be close to me.“What?” She raises her eyebrows, like she don't understand what I say.“You heard me.” I slowly walk closer to her.“You can not mother my child.”Confusion twists her face. Maybe she thinks I will take back my words. She waits but I don't.“Why?” she finally asks.I let out a short breath, shake my head. “You don’t have the right to question me, Raya. You just do what I say.”Her chin lifts a little. There’s fire in her eyes now. “No. I won’t. We both did this, Rex. You and I. And now you want to throw it all on me?”Her voice cracks slightly near the end, but she doesn’t back down.“We’ll share this responsibility,” she says louder.The way she says we, make
The maid’s eyes are still wide with excitement when she leaves to prepare my bath. I sit on the edge of my bed, hands pressed against my belly. The room feels too small. The sound of water being poured into the wooden tub breaks my thoughts. Steam fills the air, soft and fragrant with lavender. I stand and walk toward the bathroom slowly, my legs trembling with each step. The maid bows her head when I come in. “Don’t tell anyone,” I say in a low tone. She looks up quickly. “I swear, my lady, no one will hear of it. Not a soul.” “Good,” I say. My voice sounds calm, though my chest is shaking. “From today onward, you’ll serve only me. Whatever I need, you’ll bring. Whatever you see, you’ll keep to yourself.” Her face lights up. “Thank you, your highness. I won’t fail you.” I nod and wave her off gently. “Go on. Prepare the bath, then you can leave.” She helps me undress, her hands trembling a little, then leaves when I step into the tub. The warm water touches my skin and I
I stay on the bed, rolling back and forth on it like what feels like hours. I try to stay still but I can't, I see his face every time I close my eyes. The event of the day stays with me throughout, Rex’s confrontation and Kael’s disappointment.The two of them look at me like I'm a fragile object, to be look after closely.I feel my heart pounding like it's about to burst, I put my hand against my chest trying to slow the pace. I am happy.I should feel miserable. But a little part of me feels proud.But a small part of me… feels proud. I finally stood up to him. To Rex. I finally told him off without trembling. Without backing down, for the first time since I came into this pack, I felt like me again. The old Raya. The one who didn’t let anyone walk over her.Still, the victory tastes bitter. My lips are dry. My throat feels raw. I keep thinking of his face when I called him out low. Something flickered behind his eyes. Regret maybe, or pain. I'm not sure. But I don’t care. At least
I lay on my bed and stare at the ceiling, wondering what Raya was doing.“Why have I been thinking of her these past few days? She is beginning to have an effect on me and I don't like it.”I shake off the thoughts and head outside to the training field, it's my personal space, a place where I feel peace. I need to quiet the voices shouting in my head since morning, my wolf feels tired and weak.I step out of my chamber, the air and the sunlight make me feel alive, unlike my dark and hot room. Everything is in order, the guards shifting their weight, a few warriors sparring on the far side of the yard.I’m almost at the field when I stop, a guy is talking to Raya and he’s standing too close to her. My blood boils immediately, I move closer to the stone wall near the training ground.I try controlling my breath but my chest feels like it's on fire. I can't hear what they are talking about but the look on her face says it all.“They must have history together,” I thought.I can't see th
The trip back home feels longer than usual, every step is heavier than the last. My thoughts are only making it worse. The path looks the same, but they feel empty now without Raya.Her voice is still loud in my mind, the look on her face when I ask her to come with me, hurts more than I imagine.“It's not that simple,” she says but her eyes give her all away.Raya never wears that look, when she talks about me. My wolf shifts restless inside me, it yearns for her scent, her face and everything about her.It wants me to turn back and drag her away from that place, if I have to. I remember the way she look me straight in the eyes and said No! I squeeze my fists and walk faster.The word has never been heavier than it is today. When I reach the borders, a few guards step forward to greet me.“Alpha Kael,” one of them says, bowing slightly. “Welcome, let me help you with your things.”“Get out of my way before I slice you into two!” I order, pushing past them. My time is harsh and uncall







