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Chapter 17

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Chapter 17

Marinel's POV

I’VE BEEN staring at the ceiling for three hours now. I don’t even have any tears left to cry. So this is what it feels like to fall in love for the first time. That kind of pain that consumes you just because you feel something for someone. What’s even worse is that he loves someone else. I thought love was supposed to be all happiness, but once you start to feel it—that’s when your suffering begins.

“Nel…” I heard Nica call from outside our room.

“Come in…” I replied hoarsely. Her eyes were teary, and she hugged me immediately.

“How are you feeling?” she asked.

“Like I’m dying. I want to move on already,” I answered. She suddenly hit me lightly on the head.

“Move on? Move on from what? How can you move forward when there was never an us?” I chuckled a little at what she said. She had a point. That’s the painful part—because there never was an “us.” I leaned back against the headboard.

“Nica, I don’t want to feel like this anymore,” I said.

“You know what, N
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