Chapter 19Marinel's POV I WAS AWAKENED by the loud knocking on the door of the room I was occupying."Nel! Come out!" I frowned at the voice I heard.What could my wonderful cousin be angry about now?! I walked quickly to the door to open it."Whatâ"I immediately held my cheek after she slapped me."You're such a flirt!" she accused."I'm not a flirt!" I answered back boldly."Yeah, right!? You ruined my chance to be with him again! What kind of cousin are you?" I felt like I was about to explode from all her accusations."Now I'm the one at fault? Who lied between us? Who always pushed him away? Who made him look like a fool and gave him false hope? Wasnât it you who did all of that? So donât put the blame on me like youâre always the one on the right. The world doesnât revolve around you!" I shot back.She was about to slap me again, but I blocked it."Donât push me to fight you because I might stop seeing you as my cousin," I warned. She pulled her hand back."Weâre not done yet
Chapter 20Calvin Enzo POVIâVE BEEN watching her every move for a while now. Iâm so mesmerized by the way she moves. The way her cheeks turn red when sheâs shy. Even if I stare at her all day, Iâll never get tired of it. I was so wrong to suppress what I felt for her. Instead of avoiding hurting her, I only made it worse. But now, I want to make myself happy. I want to see her happy. I want to spend time with her. I donât want to waste any more precious timeâwe should be making memories together.âEnzo, what if someone has cancer? Do they need to undergo chemo right away?â she asked out of nowhere.That question caught me off guard.âJust read the following statements, Nel. It still depends on the doctor,â I replied and looked back at the book I was holding.That hit me right in the chest. I glanced at Nel again. She was still busy reviewing.âNel, do you want some snacks?â I offered.âUp to you,â she replied. I snuck a kiss on her cheek before quickly standing up.She looked shocked
Chapter 21Calvin Enzo POVGOD! I almost slipped earlier. Iâm glad I managed to hide it. I was so nervous that Nel might notice. Thankfully, she didnât press me further. My conscience canât take it if she finds out the truth. Iâd only end up hurting the woman I love the mostâand I donât want that to happen. Iâll do whatever it takes to keep this secret from her.âEnzoâŠâ Nel called as we drove. I glanced at her and looked back at the road.âHmm?â She intertwined her left hand with my right hand.âI love you so much.â My heart melted at her words.âI do love you very much, Nel,â I replied.âEnzo, I want to ask you something.ââName it, Nel,â I said.âNo more lying and keeping secrets. I know I donât really have the right to ask this butâŠââIâm cool with it,â I said confidently.Even if, deep inside, I was falling apart. How could I make that promise, sweetheart? How?âReally? Youâre okay with it?â I nodded.She gave me the sweetest smile Iâve ever seen. And my conscience hit me right in
Chapter 22Calvin Enzo POVHERE we are at the park where Nel and I played with the skateboard last time, when we tried to... You know, when I acted like an idiot. Nah! Letâs forget about that. Moana and I are definitely over, even though she always tries to bug me.âEnzo!â Nel called me while riding the skateboard.I just waved at her. Iâm not allowed to overexert myself anymore, but I show her that Iâm doing fine. I was really nervous yesterday because it just so happened that I was with her. Iâm scared sheâll find out the truth. The guilt is killing me. Making her believe Iâm completely fine is like a dagger buried in my chest. My illness is killing me slowly. Sometimes, I blame God for why this happened to meâwhy it had to be me, why I have to leave someone behind, why it still hurts so much even though Iâve accepted it for a long time. Maybe itâs time for me to settle things now.âYou donât want to?â Nel said as she stopped in front of me.âI enjoyed just watching you,â I answered
Chapter 23 Marinelâs POVWHEN we got to the parking lot, I was gripping my pencil so tightly I almost snapped it. What is she doing here?! I froze mid-step, causing Enzo to stop too and look at me. âNel, Iâll explain later.â I didnât say a word. I just walked straight to the car and sat in the front seat, silently.âMorning, cousin!â Moana greeted me cheerfully. I didnât respond and turned my gaze outside the car. Enzo got in and started the engine.âGood luck on your exam, Babe,â Moana flirted with him. Even though I wasnât looking, I noticed Enzo didnât respond. I bit my lip hard. I was fuming. I wanted to cry at everything happening. Is this what he meant by ânothing importantâ? Well, itâs important to me! What did she do this time to get Enzo to give in again? I took a deep breath. I know I donât have the right to act this way because Enzo and I donât exactly have a label. We agreed that love isnât defined by status. But stillâthereâs something about having a clear hold on some
Chapter 24 Calvin Enzo POV WHAT a damn day! Iâve been cursing while walking out of campus. I didnât want to fight with Nel, or make her mad. âBabe!â Moana called. She clung to me as soon as she reached me. âLet go!â I pulled her hand away. âDid you do it already?â I clenched my jaw and teeth. âWhat do you even know about me!?â I gripped her arm tightly. She threatened me to leave Nel like she knew my illness. For Godâs sake! I wasnât ready to tell Nel the truth. Iâm terrified of making her miserable. Now Iâm just confused! âEnzo, youâre hurting me!â I gripped her arm tighter. âNow what!?â She started crying, so I let go. âFine! I donât know anything! I just want you back! I want you to come back to me! Please Enzo, choose me again! Me, please!?â I got angrier at her for saying that. âThatâs bullshit!â I snapped and turned away. How stupid was I to listen to her! I headed straight to my car to go after Nel. I wanted to apologize and explain. I drove as fast as I could. Once
Chapter 25Marinelâs POVANDY and I were both sitting in the waiting area. I had been crying nonstop. Enzo was still inside the ER.âIâm sorry, Nel,â Andy said sadly, crying too.âI shouldâve taken better care of him.â He blamed himself. I shook my head and rubbed his back.âNo oneâs at fault, Andy.â He composed himself and wiped his tears.âIâll call his parents,â he said and went to the information desk.Then the ER doors opened and the doctor came out. I stood and approached him.âHow is he?â My knees were trembling in fear.âHeâs stable now, but Iâll be honest. Thereâs nothing more we can do about his illness. Iâm sorry. You can discharge him anytime. Excuse me.â I slumped down in shock. I covered my mouth to muffle my sobs.âNelâŠâ I looked up.I stood without hesitation and hugged Andy tightly.âAndy⊠What nowâŠâ I didnât know what to doâwhether to scream or collapse just to ease the pain I felt.âMake him happy, Nel. Please!â Andy begged through his sobs.I shut my eyes tightly.
Beginning of Book 2...Marinelâs POVONE YEAR later...I GENTLY stroked Enzoâs gravestone while sitting on the thin mantle I laid out. I smile every time I remember his smiles, especially when he used to call me "Ms. Universe" whenever heâd be affectionate with me. "How are you, Enzo? Are you happy up there?" I looked up at the sky and then lowered my head again. "I'm sorry, Enzo. I still havenât passed the board exam. The review center is so expensive. Iâve taken it several times, and by the way, I always fail." I wiped away the tear that fell on his gravestone. "But I have some good news for you. I no longer feel the pain I used to whenever I remember you. And the bad news is, no man has crossed my path yet." I chuckled softly. "I think thereâs only one thing Iâve accomplished, Enzoâsurviving all of this." I hugged my knees. "I miss you so much, Enzo. Itâs so frustrating that you didnât even visit me in my dreams," I said with a hint of a pout. Then my phone rang. I read the t
Chapter 42Marinel's POV AFTER GETTING OFF THE AIRPORT...A red van greeted us right outside. When it stopped in front of us and Caldwill opened the door, Andy appeared.âHow was the flight?â Andy asked.âIt was fine,â I replied and climbed inside the van. Caldwill followed, still silent, and sat next to me.âFloyd, letâs use the other exit. We need to pick someone else up,â Andy instructed the driver and moved to the back seat. I honestly wished Andy sat next to me instead, so I wouldnât feel like drying up from being ignored. I had no choice but to stay silent.When we reached the other exit, the van stopped again. Andy opened the door, and I was truly surprised. Apparently, we werenât the only ones going thereâothers were coming too.âThey're volunteers from Dr. Ynes. Bro, can Nel sit on your lap so we can all fit?â Andy said.I was stunned by what he said. Even Caldwill looked uncertain as he glanced at me.âCome on,â he said, then wrapped his arms around my waist. I felt like Iâ
Chapter 41Caldwill Enzo POV "THAT'S fucking insaneâdisgusting, horrible, and fucking ridiculous! Why the hell did I do that!?"Iâd been banging my head on the steering wheel for a while now.âDamn!â I muttered in frustration.âSir, maybe you want to break a bottle?â Ivan said.I didnât even notice him.âShut up,â I replied and got out of the car. I grabbed the Shakeyâs pizza from the passenger seat and handed it to him. Right after that scene, I left and wandered around.âSir, maâam Marinel hasnât come out of your room since earlier,â he informed me.I just nodded and headed inside the house. I went straight to my room, took a deep breath, and knocked. Why am I even knocking? This is my room.I turned the doorknob and pushed the door open.I saw Marinel, still asleep.I quietly walked to the foot of the bed to check her feet. Thank God! Theyâre no longer swollen, and sheâs okay now.I moved to her left side and just stared at her.Pain twisted in my chest. Why did destiny make thing
Chapter 40 Caldwill Enzo POV"WHY didnât Calvin go through surgery? Why didnât he get chemotherapy?" I was surprised by her question and frowned, but I quickly recovered and let out a heavy sigh."Because he didnât want to. Aside from that, his condition was already too severe at that time. His liver and kidneys werenât responding anymore. His lungs were infected too, thatâs why he often had trouble breathing. But my brother was hardheaded and I couldnât control that." I heard her sniff."Marinel," I called. She shook her head."You know what? He even joked that methotrexate was his vitamins. He even told me he had two months left." I saw her shoulders tremble. I knew she was crying even if she tried to hide it. Even though her face was covered by a book, I could still hear her soft sobs. And it hurt meâseeing her like this, still unable to move on from the past. Iâm still grieving too, but not the way she is. Sheâs still in so much pain, and that pains me too.I stood up straight an
Chapter 39Marinelâs POV I KEPT peeking outside my room while rubbing my stomach. I didnât eat properly earlier at Veronicaâs apartment. How could I when she irritated me to no end? I rolled my eyes and finally stepped out of my room. I glanced at the clock and, as if the universe hated me, it was already 1 a.m. sharp. I headed straight to the kitchen after going down the stairs. But I think I made the wrong moveâCaldwill was in the kitchen. His back was to me, and he was only wearing pajama pants. I couldnât help but gulp as my eyes traced his back. His strong and well-built frame was seriously heating up some unidentified hormones in me. What the hell! I slapped my own cheek and slowly turned to leave."Are you hungry?" he asked. I shut my eyes tightly and turned back to him."Huh? No! Just thirsty. Thatâs right!" I cringed at my own stupidity. You idiot, Nel!"Sit," he said curtly while pointing to the high chair. The kitchen was styled like a mini bar."Huh? No need!" I refused,
Chapter 38Marinel's POV EVENTUALLY, I finished getting ready. I wore a blue fitted dress with a slit on the thigh. I paired it with blue high heels and a set of white gold jewelry. I left my hair down and only applied a bit of lipstick. Iâm not used to dressing up like this, but I had to in order to look presentable. Caldwill once bullied me because of how I dressed, so I donât want to experience that kind of mockery from others again.When I saw myself in the mirror, I felt like I wanted to date the reflection I saw."Damn, I look good!" I said in amazement.I glanced at my watch and saw I was right on time. I stepped out of the guest room and headed to my room to grab my small purse.Once I was done, I left the house without saying a word. Just as I stepped outside, a taxi stopped in front of me. The driver rolled down the window and peeked out."Maâam, are you Marinel Villaraza?" he asked, checking a paper in his hand.I was stunned. Nica really went all in! She actually pretende
Chapter 37Caldwill Enzo POVâWHAT did I do wrong?â I turned to Ivan with my hands on my hips.âI might say, sir, sheâs not the type of woman whoâs into these kinds of stuff,â he replied.I couldnât help but get annoyed by her attitude earlier.âJust buy it all, Ivan, and put them somewhere safe,â I ordered, then headed up the stairs.I stopped in front of Marinelâs room.Should I knock?Damn! Why canât I decide!I shook my head and knocked without thinking twice. The door opened, and I noticed she had been crying based on her red and puffy eyes. Guilt suddenly crept in. She was about to shut the door again, but I quickly pushed it open. She was surprised when I entered the room. She was about to say something, but I pulled her into my arms before she could. I let out a deep sigh.âI... Iâm sorry,â I whispered.She slowly moved her arms and wrapped them around my waist. She started crying again. I could feel her sobs and her heavy breathing against my chest.Damn! It felt like my hear
Chapter 36Marinel's POV THE TRIP didnât take long, and we soon arrived at SM Laguna. After he parked the car, he was the first to get out. I followed shortly after. I stood with my hands on my hips, staring at the mall entrance. What exactly are we doing here?Suddenly, Caldwill walked up to me and wrapped an arm around my waist. I gulped at his sudden closeness."Staring at it wonât make it melt," Caldwill said.I flinched as if I had been burned and immediately pushed his hand away from my waist. Come on, Nel! Your heartâs acting up again! I looked down, feeling like Iâd just been slapped because my cheeks were burning hot."Letâs go..." he said as he guided and pulled me along.As we walked up to the second floor, I couldnât help but glance at his hand holding mine. I probably looked weird, but every time heâs nice to me, it somehow makes me feel happy."Watch your step!" I heard Caldwill say.Before I could reply, he quickly grabbed me by the waist and lifted me slightly. That s
Chapter 35Caldwill Enzo POVI RAN after Marinel, but I was too lateâshe was already inside her room. What did I do!? I was about to knock, but I chose to just leave her be. I massaged my temple and scratched the back of my neck. I was just joking around that time, but she suddenly cried, and I donât even know the exact reason why she reacted that way. I donât know if it was because of the joke or something else. But when I looked into her eyes⊠there was something.I had no choice but to go to my room and sit at the edge of my bed. I took my phone out of my pocket and called Andy.âBro...â he answered, clearing his throat.âCome here,â I ordered.âHuh? Did you and Nel talk, Caldwill?â he asked.âJust come here...â I replied and ended the call.I threw myself onto the bed. Why do I feel so guilty? Damn it!I lay there for several minutes before deciding to get up and leave my room.âSir, Andy is here, in the pool area,â Ivan informed me. I tapped his arm and headed down the stairs.âP
Chapter 34Caldwill Enzo POVI FEEL like punching a woman right now. Damn it! Sheâs been making me wait for so long! I told her to pack everything but here she is! Marinelâs luggage still isn't completely packed, she says."Are you done, Veronica? Because if not, I might just come back later," I said lazily.This woman is crazy! How is she supposed to finish packing when she keeps trying to act cute around me? And when she does manage to pack something, she throws in a little wiggle. Tss!I shook my head slightly."Just a moment, Caldwill, this is really the last one," she said.I stood up from where I was sitting and silently walked out. I whistled, and my driver immediately ran up to me."Get the stuff!" I ordered irritably.I marched straight to my car. Damn that woman! I wasted almost half an hour just waiting for her to finish!I got inside the car and noticed that my driver had already loaded Marinel's belongings."Hurry up, Damian. Iâm already so late!" I said, feeling restless