Ikadalawampu't Limang Kabanata - Ang Pag-iyak Mag-isa

The disappointment creeped into my heart. Was it really worth being in pain like this? Does the love that my parents, my cousins, and my whole family are talking about cause this pain? It was so painful that even though Takeru does not utter a word, it makes me want to cry.

I didn't speak. I only focused on driving the car. Wala naman akong magagawa dahil wala rin naman siyang balak na magsalita. Even though I wanted to talk about things that we should talk about, I couldn't. I wanted to hold on to the glimmer of hope that I am holding, but I feel like I wanted to let it go.

Was love always this painful? I think the more you love someone, the more it is painful when you get separated.

My desire to reconnect with the things in our past seems dimmed out. Pakiramdam ko ay naiintindihan ko na. I don't have the right to be by his side in this kind of situation. But if I reveal things about me, wouldn't it mean that I gave those people access to my family?

No, I don't want them to use my