Chapter 4

Flashback

“Mother! Look! The teacher praised me because I got one mistake on my test!” I ran towards mother with my paper. Mother looked at me indifferently then she took my paper I looked excited when she turned towards me.

I am hoping she’ll praise me because it’s a really difficult subject…

*Slap* The sound of mother slapping me ringed at the whole room. I held the part of my cheeks where my mother had slapped me, tears starting to form in my eyes.

“M-mother…? W-why? Did I do something wrong?” I asked, she glared at me then she slapped me on the face one more time. Then she threw the teacup at me.

“You had one mistake?! How preposterous! You shouldn’t be proud of that one mistake Beatrice! You are a Revoltoir! You’re disgusting!” She shrieked. Servants ran inside the room, probably when they heard mother shout. I don’t care about any of that at all.

“Madam! Please stop it! The young miss is already hurt!” Someone said. I looked at who it is and I saw my nanny. I didn’t hear any of their conversations after that because my vision turned dark and my consciousness faded.

When I can feel my consciousness again, I slowly opened my eyes then I saw Nanny right by my side. When she saw me, she showed the warmest smile I ever saw and she hugged me.

“Dear goodness! Miss! I’m glad you’re okay!” She exclaimed as I can feel the warmth of her hug. I’m confused, why is she the one who’s glad? My own mother doesn’t even care about me.

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m so sorry” Those are the words that I can only say. Nanny looked at me as if I just said something wrong, then she hugged me one more time as she cried.

“Miss, my cute little miss, you did nothing wrong! You don’t have to apologize…” she said. I looked at my study table with the mountain of books on it.

“Would you like to eat now young miss?” Nanny asked me, I looked at my tummy then I nodded.

“Alright, I shall get you food at once,” she said as she smiled once again. That’s right, before mother Fleurine, my Nanny, Cordelia was the first person who made me feel the warmth.

I looked at her back as she walked towards the door…

Had I known what would happen the next day, I would’ve stopped her from leaving and spend more time with her…

After eating the meal that she cooked, she left my room so I could rest, as I lay on my bed, I can still feel the warmth of Nanny. As I closed my eyes, the warm feeling soothed me and I had a good dream that night.

When I opened my eyes the next morning, I looked around my room to see if Nanny was there but I didn’t see her. I got up from my bed and I went outside, I didn’t saw anyone there so I went outside of the manor.

“Nanny?” I called as I walked down the hallway. I walked towards the door of the manor, and as I looked towards the window, I saw a lot of people gathering at the entrance. A lot, no, all of them are crying, I felt a cold chill in the air, so I walked towards there.

One of the maids saw me walking in their direction, she went towards me and she said that she’ll help me get dressed. It’s as if there is something there that they don’t want me to see.

“Come now miss, let us get dressed,” she said as she held my hand. I looked up to her and asked.

“Marian, where’s nanny? How come I don’t see her anywhere?” I asked. Marian looks shocked at my question, she tried to smile but somehow failed at doing so. She knelt so we would have the same level.

“Miss, don’t worry miss, Ma’am Cordelia just went to town,” she said. I know that’s a lie…

“Is that Nanny? The one lying there?” I asked as I turned around and I pointed there where the servants are swarming. Marian’s tears fell as I asked.

“D-do you want to see your nanny for the last time, miss? Before we bury her body” Marian asked. I nodded and there we walked towards the body.

“Please, make way. The Miss wants to say goodbye to Ma’am Cordelia” Marian said holding back her tears. The servants looked at us, some of them are shocked while most of them look worried for me. As they stepped aside, I finally saw Nanny’s body.

When I got there, I kneeled towards her and I held her cold hands. I think I know who did this, it was probably mother.

“Nanny? When we bury your body, are you going to that paradise that you’re talking about?” I asked. I know it’s silly to ask a dead person. I wished I could’ve seen her one more time.

“Nanny, you told me when I was a baby that you would stay by my side, did you leave me because you hate me too?” I asked again. I felt someone hugged me from behind, I turned around and I saw Marian. I pushed her away as I shook my head.

“You can’t hug me, or I’ll lose you too. It’s all my fault, If I wasn’t born, then everything should’ve been fine. Nanny, wouldn’t have worked here and she would’ve lived a normal and happy life. I-I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, it’s all my fault” I said as I looked at the floor, I don’t care about anything anymore. Marian carried me as a lot of servants swarmed us, they are all crying saying it’s not my fault and that I am not to be blamed. Marian and I went back to my room so I can change my clothes.

I frowned as I remembered that horrible memory. I went towards my table and I opened the third drawer, I took the box from there then I opened it. There I saw the last doll that my old nanny made before she died in the hands of the woman who gave birth to me.

I took the doll and I caressed her face. It's a doll who looks like me. I smiled sadly while caressing the doll's face.

"I wonder how you are, nanny, are you well? are you happy there?" I asked then I laughed at myself.

"Yeah right, what am I even doing," I said as I returned the doll in the box then I placed it back in the drawer and I closed it. I look towards the window as I sat on the chair of my table.

I'll flawlessly win tomorrow, and I'll put an end to Davina's children right in front of her own eyes I thought and I went to sleep.