Chapter 94

We talk for a while and I honestly get somewhat sad with his divided attention. When he and I are present, he gives all the attention to me. And now there is Sonia and Lai, who is literally not stopping with her waterfall of questions. But his concise answers give her the idea that he is not a person to talk that much. I don't mind my little Sonia spending her time with him. She looks very happy and I am happy about that. But sometimes I feel like I cannot talk or crack jokes with him in private. Or just have him stare at me like he usually does. Why am I thinking all of this? Why do I even want his attention in the first place? Ain't I being just too selfish? 

Dhruv doesn't spend much time with us since he has work to do. Why? He moves up from his seat and even though Sonia tells him to stay a little longer, he refuses politely, patting her head. Maybe the reason I am jealous is because Sonia has the freedom to be touched by him and I don't.