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Theo~ I woke before the alarm, the room was still dark. Every time I closed my eyes the same questions circled back. What the rink would sound like once the words left my mouth, what my teammates’ faces would look like, whether the people who had already decided who I was would simply rewrite the story again. I sat up and let my feet find the floor. Hockey was the love of my life but it had been so damaging for me. For a while, the idea of coming out had sat in the same place as a career-ending injury: something that could take hockey, family, school, and whatever future I thought I was building. That night the question had changed shape. I was no longer asking if I should do it. I was only asking how I wanted it done. By the time the house stirred I had the outline clear. No anonymous post. No statement issued through someone else. I would say it myself, in the place where I had spent the most hours pretending I was only the player they expected. I found my mother in the kitche
Theo~Everyone laughed. Jeremy joined in at once, raising his voice over the noise in the locker room. “Make room, peasants. Apparently we're traveling with royalty now.” I laughed harder than I had in weeks. The sound came out loud and unrestrained, and for a second I almost didn’t recognize it as mine. Noah stood beside me, still smiling from the game, his shoulder brushing mine whenever someone moved past. I let myself stay right there in the middle of it. No one was measuring their words around us. No one was watching to see how we reacted. The tension that used to sit under every conversation had simply thinned out, and what remained felt ordinary in the best possible way. Jeremy kept going, inventing new titles and insisting the rest of the team bow whenever I scored. Nikolai egged him on, claiming the only proper response was to start a chant. Melody texted from wherever she was waiting outside, somehow managing to congratulate the goal and call my skating “borderline emb
Theo~It took days of training for Coach to finally let us into the upcoming game and several of the team's taunts but finally, we got in. I woke up on game day and the first thing I noticed was the quiet. My phone sat on the nightstand without a single notification waiting. No anonymous messages. No photographs from unknown numbers. No rumors circulating through group chats. For the first time in weeks the only thing on my mind was the game itself. I lay there for a few extra minutes and let that fact settle before I got up.Noah was already in the kitchen when I came out. He watched me pour coffee and finally asked the question.“You nervous?”I sat down across from him.“Yeah. Not about the university or anything like that. I’m nervous that after being away I’ll step on the ice and not feel like myself anymore.”He set his mug down.“You never stopped being yourself. They just stopped letting you play.”I nodded and left it there. The rest of breakfast stayed quiet in a way that f
Theo~I noticed the silence first. For the first time in weeks my phone stayed quiet. No anonymous messages. No photographs sent from unknown numbers. No strange cars parked across the street when I left the dorm. No one asked about the private training sessions. No suspicious accounts tried to contact people around me. The watching had simply stopped.I checked my phone more than once that morning, still expecting something to appear. Nothing came. Noah watched me do it and finally spoke.“Maybe they’re done.”I put the phone down.“After everything we’ve been through, I’m not sure I even remember what normal feels like anymore.”He did not argue. He only nodded, and we left it there for the moment.Later that day I learned the rest through a short conversation with someone who had been close enough to the situation to know the truth. Morrison had called everything off. The people who had been monitoring us received orders to stop. The university’s pressure campaign was withdrawn. Th
Reina~I met Morrison in a private office far from the athletic facilities and the noise of campus. I had chosen the place myself and arrived first, standing when he entered so the conversation would begin on my terms. I did not sit. I did not offer him a greeting.“Whatever you have been doing to Theo and Noah ends today,” I said. “There will be no further discussion of it after this meeting.”Morrison closed the door behind him and gave a short, dismissive laugh. He looked me over as if measuring how far my influence could possibly reach. “You don’t understand what you’re interfering with. My position, my money, the relationships I’ve built for years—those things have protected me longer than you’ve been involved in any of this. You should leave while you still can.”I kept my voice even. “I understand perfectly. You are hurting someone who matters to my family. That is enough.”His expression hardened. The politeness he usually wore in public dropped away. “I made my son’s career.
Theo~The single word on the screen held more weight than any threat I had received so far.Don’t.Whoever sent it had reacted the moment Noah finished speaking. Not later. Not after some delay that might have come from checking a feed or catching a rumor. Immediately. The timing left almost no room for coincidence.I looked at Noah. “Do you think they’re watching our phones?”He shook his head once. “I don’t know.”That answer sat between us longer than either of us wanted. I still wanted to call Joe. Noah stopped me before I could open the contacts list.“We need to know what happened three nights before the first message,” he said. “If we walk in blind, Joe can shut the conversation down the same way he did in the cafeteria.”We stayed in the quiet corner of the library and started reconstructing the sequence from the beginning. The first anonymous message. My benching. The cancellation of the promotional event. The private training sessions that were supposed to stay off the sched
Theodore POVYou probably think it can’t get any worse than hooking up with a random guy after a win and then seeing him the next morning as the newest member of your hockey team.Try going home that same day and finding out your mom got a ‘fiance’ over the weekend.Try watching that same guy—same
Noah~I’d seen a lot of people try to fake control before.Athletes, especially. Hockey guys were the worst for it. All that chest-beating, loud voices and hard eyes, like if they looked confident enough nobody would notice they were falling apart inside. I had absolutely no idea why the fuckers co
Theodore~I should've fucking said no. That was the first thought that hit me when I saw the moving truck pull up but the second thought was far worse.Why is he actually here?I stood by the window of my dorm, arms crossed, watching like it was some kind of bad joke the universe was trying to sel
CHAPTER 4Theodore~“Mom, you can’t do that!”My voice cracked and pitched higher than I meant it to. I cleared my throat, forcing myself to breathe through my nose before I completely embarrassed myself. Jesus Christ. How could she possibly think this was okay? Sharing a dorm was one thing.Sharin







