Cassie -
It has been a whole week since I read the diary entry written almost 60 years ago by Luna Jennifer. A solid week of being holed up in this room, that Luna Lily very kindly insisted I call my own, That means it has been 2 weeks since my birthday, 2 weeks where all I have done is sleep, eat, heal, and meet with the Luna and the Alpha or spend time with Thomas. For about the last week now, each morning at around 9 am, I am set upon with harsh cramps that take my breath away and for the last 2 days they usually return around midnight, waking me from my sleep and causing me to clutch my abdomen and whimper until the pain subsides. They last for around 15 minutes each time, then suddenly pass with no lingering effects whatsoever. I haven't said anything to Thomas, or to anyone else about them, as I don't want to worry them all. Thomas iCassie -It has now been 4 weeks since my birthday, a little over 3 weeks since that first meeting with Alpha Sven and Luna Lily. The cramps still hit me at the exact same time everyday, like clockwork and I still have not spoken to anyone about them. Today Thomas and I are meeting with Alpha Sven and Luna Lily again, so that we can discuss our plans and options regarding my rejection of Beta Ace. We have had to wait a couple of weeks as Alpha Sven was called away for an emergency meeting in another pack. Luna Lily decided to stay behind this time, knowing that it would only be 2 weeks he was gone for, and though she didn't say anything about it, I knew she stayed because of me, to help protect me from further harm. I didn't want to meet with Luna Lily before now, specifically about the rejection, as I felt it needed to be discussed with both of them together and this way would be ea
Cassie -Thomas and I are so excited at the prospect of relocating that we pretend that between now and then, there will not be a severe event. We pretend the worst isn't coming and we make plans, we talk about the people we will be when we move, the friends we will make, the life we will lead. I talk about our ideal mate and how much we hope to find them. Basically, we act like excited siblings, off on an adventure.We talk for so long that Thomas actually falls asleep, and instead of waking him, I leave him to his rest. In the quiet that follows, I ponder my future, I'm so wrapped up in the fear of the unknown. It was easy while Thomas was awake to delude myself into thinking the coming months will be easy but deep down I knew the truth and in that time between Thomas drifting off and me falling asleep the dread was all co
Cassie -After telling Luna and Dr Thorne about the cramps, which I now know Ace caused me, the pains stopped. I still haven't ventured from my room, nervous of seeing Ace or Maddie, who I imagine helped Ace with his 'needs', resulting in my pain. I don't know what happened. All I know is that the pain has stopped, not faded, but completely stopped. And I am not complaining. Thomas keeps encouraging me to leave the room, assuring me we will not see Ace. He seems to know something but is holding it back from me."Come on Cassie, he won't get near you, I swear it, I won't leave your side for a second, you will be completely safe begged I promise," he all but begged. And today, finally, I think I am ready to face the pack. Although I'm scared, I know Thomas will protect me, and I trust him fully.
Ace -They had me arrested? How dare they arrest me, and what a crock the charges are, 'abuse of power', how can you abuse power? If you have power you use it. The pack did not suffer while I was in charge. Sure, I mean, Cas suffered, but nobody else did, the b!tch must have blabbed. She must have told them everything, and they clearly have taken her side rather than asking for my side of the story, if they heard me out they would understand. I'm not surprised really, the Luna is such a softie, definitely not true Luna material, Luna's need to be tough, strong, commanding, and Lily is anything but. But it's fine, I can stay here a while, our plan is set, we have a timeline, so for now I will just rest. It isn't the most comfortable but I've slept rough on missions before so this will be easy by comparison, and soon I will have this pack and all those responsible for thi
Cassie -"Yes, yes, it is your lucky day Cassie, you get to choose a future pack. All three Alphas have agreed to accept both of you as soon as you are ready. Of course, I haven't told them what you are about to do. That is not my place, but all three are lovely packs with plenty of peace and friendly people. I have printed out some information on each so that you might ponder your decision. Once you have decided between you, let me know, and I will notify the packs and begin making plans, including your travel and accommodation needs." He says all this very quickly, and I will admit, it hurts a little that he seems so eager to see us gone. Something of my thoughts or feelings must show on my face, as he quickly adds, "not that I want you gone, I just want you to be free and able to begin putting this business with Ace in the past." He says kindly, and I believe him. I believe he only wants what is best for me, and I know
Cassie -It is currently 1 am. I can't sleep. All kinds of different scenarios keep running through my thoughts. Thomas lay beside me, sleeping peacefully. He didn't want to leave me tonight, not after I had decided I was going to do the rejection as soon as possible. I try to think happy thoughts, to dream of the future, but always there, in the background, waiting to jump forward and consume me were the thoughts of the coming days. How will I fare? How will Ace react? I just don't know, and not knowing what is driving me up the wall, every time I close my eyes. A different scene plays out before me. Ace accepts easily, and the pain is over quickly. Ace breaks free and kills me before I finish speaking. Ace plots to have me killed whilst I am bedridden. I die from the pain, so many possible outcomes…I finally manage to drift off to sleep around 3am, but
Cassie -"You got this Cassie, and I will be right here waiting for you," Thomas speaks quietly from behind me. I turn towards him slightly so I am able to see him from the corner of my eye and give him a weak smile. Then I see Alpha and Luna standing close together further down the hall, they are smiling encouragingly at me, Luna bows her head in my direction slightly, nodding her approval of my plan once more, they don't move from where they stand nor do they speak, but they don't need to, I hear their message loud and clear, they are showing me that they are also with me, just as Thomas is, my silent triangle of pillars, ready to prop me up at a moments notice, always.I knew I couldn't delay any longer so with a heavy heart, I pushed open the door to the prison and walked through into the darkness, completely alone. It i
Cassie -I can’t put it off any longer, he will never be remorseful, he will never regret what he has done to me. The bond will never be enough for him. So sucking in one more deep breath I finally say the words that I know, for my own sanity, I must say;"I, Cassie Laura Davis, reject you, Ace David Jackson as my mate," I say with conviction. As soon as the words pass my lips a pain rips through me, tearing a cry from me. Ace grips his chest and looks at me shocked, I can barely stay on my feet with this pain pulsing through me like a heartbeat, steady and growing in intensity.“How could you do this? You are nothing without me,” He whispers, falling to his knees."Goodbye Ace," I say, completely breathless as I stagger away from his cell,