Valerie's POVWith my hands tightly wrapped around him firmly and my head on his back, I let the sound of the motorcycle engine drown my thoughts, concerns, and worries.I am also ignoring the suspicion I am having about Ryan lying to me about the kiss. I don't want to think about anything now. I just want to enjoy the evening air brushing past my face and hair.If I wasn't in a sad mood, I would have loved to shout into the air with one of my hands flying around and the other holding onto Ryan as he drives.I don't know where he is driving me to but I don't care. I just want to be far away from that cold room and let my worries go.My father is still in the hospital. I wanted to spend the night with him but my mom insisted on having me gone. From her persistence, I can see how much she wants me and Ryan to work unlike what I told Ryan a few minutes ago.Even with that, I still believe that the person who needs this sort of assurance is his mom, not my mom. My mom is just after the mo
Valerie's POVMy chest feels like exploding as he slams his lips onto mine again, kissing me fiercely with his hands grabbing my hair firmly.He continues to seek entrance until I can no longer hold it in and stick my teeth together. The moment I open up, he kisses the insides of my mouth, then he begins to trace the outline and his hands make their way to my bosom.When he bites me solely at the edge of my lips, I realize what we are doing.It is frustrating how I get to ask myself a lot of questions yet I am unable to find any answers to the questions. Then the next minute, the question will manifest. Something related to the question will happen.Ryan has never looked serious the way he looks right now. Everything about his expression says that he meant what he said but I still can't believe he is kissing me again for the second time in a day.Quickly, I push him away breathing heavily. "What are you doing?!" I yell, trying so hard to control the racing of my heart.A few minutes
Valerie's POVFred and Brenda are the only ones who know that I am a virgin. No one else knows. Not even my mother. Because of the wild parties Brenda and I go to and the fact that I had a boyfriend, she must have assumed that I have lost my virginity.She never asked me but I know that is what she thinks. She is my mother yet she doesn't know a lot about me.If only Mother knows, I will think she told Ryan this behind my back but Mother doesn't know so who did?"You can't have sex with someone you don't love but you never had sex with Fred and you two have been together for years. Don't you love him?""Ho..w..how did you know that?" I find myself stammering as I ask him with intense curiosity."How I know doesn't matter, does it?""It does", I retort back, desperate for him to answer me.Silence ensues, except for the loud beating of my heart which I can hear. I continue to watch him, anticipating the answer to the question I asked him."I will answer you", he drops his hand from hi
Ryan's POVCelina has been blowing my phone up with calls for days. She never had a reason to call me all this while but seeing me again after so many years with a woman I call wife must be so bothersome for her.Valerie does not need to know who she is. Her topic annoys the shit out of me. I wonder how she got my number. She never called me once and then all of a sudden, she starts to call.When she first called and I heard her voice even before she introduced herself, I quickly hung up and I haven't been picking ever since then.This morning when she called, I blocked her from reaching me. She is too annoying and I blame her for Valerie's recent coldness.I have no one to blame. I don't want to believe that my offer is what is making her so cold. So Celina is at fault. It's been days already since I took her to the garden and she has been ignoring me on purpose. She has been spending the night at the hospital with her dad but last night, she came home and slept in her room.I he
Valerie's POVFather is refusing to answer all my questions. I gave him enough time before bombarding him with the questions but his aloofness shows how much he doesn't want to talk about it.Now, I am sure he knows something. I am sure he is either hiding something or he wants to protect Ryan's father just because he is my father-in-law.Just like Ryan said, how can we help him if we don't know what they had in the past?I try to touch him to see if I can persuade him once more when the door opens without a knock.I turn to the door to see Mother come in with a huge smile on her face. "Guess who is here?" She beams in excitement as she stretches her arms toward the ajar door and it reveals Ryan.I don't know if it's from my imagination or if Ryan is really looking upset tonight. His jaws are clenched and he is looking at me with a sort of new gaze that I can't point out.He enters fully and closes the door behind him.I didn't tell him that Father would be discharged today but I gue
Valerie's POVFinding out a huge part of my life like this is something I never want Mother to know about. I never gave it serious thinking. I just assumed she wouldn't mind as long as her goals were achieved.But seeing her mouth still hanging open, I feel ashamed of myself and I wish she didn't get to eavesdrop on my conversation with Ryan.It is embarrassing.It is as embarrassing as letting Ryan know that I am still a virgin, despite all the wild parties and the silly things I have done in the past as well as my strong-headedness."A contract marriage?" She demands again, as though she still can not believe what she clearly heard. Finally, she shuts her mouth while I slouch to the bed with my head lowered down in shame.We shouldn't have done this here. "Valerie, talk to me. What did he mean by a contract marriage? Did you two sign a contract?" She grabs an ottoman and sits on it while she faces me squarely.I guess Ryan was still enraged to even answer yes or no to mom when she
Ryan's POVThe rage that fills me up even after apologizing to her is unexplainable. I can't explain the tightness in my chest and the sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach.I can't even control my anger anymore as I grit my teeth while sitting down in front of the bar counter downstairs and drinking the combination of wine and whiskey in my glass cup.I wish this never happened. I wish I never told her how I felt, then maybe this wouldn't be happening.She is still in love with him. He is her boyfriend. Or rather he was her boyfriend before I came along.Perhaps, if she didn't get to know about the betrothal, she would have accepted his apology and accepted him back.I guess it's not so easy to get rid of her first love. I guess she misses how he used to kiss her."Shit!" I voice out, slamming my fist on the counter and groaning in pain.I never saw this coming. I didn't mean to be attracted but it just happened. I thought it wasn't a bad thing to be attracted to her since she is
Valerie's POVNetflixing for over two hours with a bowl of tasteless popcorn, I sigh deeply and take the phone and the cone of popcorn away.I am bored despite the movie. I have lost interest in almost everything and nothing seems to kill the boredom.Not even the popcorn.Maybe it's because it is tasteless.I am beginning to feel sick out of boredom. At first, I thought it was because I was in my room so I came over to Ryan's room so I could at least feel his presence but that only worked for a while because I am now dead bored.I need a walk.When I was unmarried and in a relationship with Fred, I barely felt bored but whenever I felt bored, the solution was easy.Fred. Or parties.I miss my old life. Not the relationship lifestyle but the enjoyable moments I had without having a cause to worry about anything.Now, I am not just worried about Ryan and me as well as our relationship but also worried about my Parents.Ryan is too cold for my liking. He is making me wish I never agreed