4. Worried

Valarie's Pov*

After freshening up I styled my jet black hair into a neat professional pony tail and applied some light make up that matched with my skin tone and brown eyes

After fixing myself I chose to wear a neavy blue pensil skirt with a white satin blouse and black high heels" I looked at myself in the mirror feeling confident" and as always I looked elegant" my whole look screamed powerful' dominant Boss lady

After getting ready I headed downstairs" Isa helped me push my wheelchair into the elevator" not that I needed any help I could do it myself but she likes helping, she says it makes her feel useful

I looked at the golden elevator as it closes' it brings back many memories both sad and happy" I was so happy five years ago when I came back from the hospital and found out my parents had installed an elevator for me" my heart was touched by the efforts they were putting into making me feel comfortable and happy

When I found out I would never be able to walk again" there are no words to describe how I felt' I was beyond dejected' I felt like my whole world was coming to an end" but what broke me the most was Mason's betrayal, it hit harder' more than anything, making me feel I wasn't worthy to be loved

I cried day and night depressed and eventually stopped eating for days, I wanted to end it all" all of the the pain and suffering" I won't lie there were days I almost did

My health became critical because of it, I had to stay in the hospital for a month, causing my parents to worry

I got a wake up call when my father had a heart attack because of it,

It was then that I realized that there were many things worth living for in life' than ending my life for a person like Mason who wasn't even worth my love to begin with

From that day I told myself one thing" and that is" there is no such thing as love' only back stabbing betrayal, I promised myself that I wasn't going to make the same foolish mistake of trusting someone with my heart again

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The smell of fresh beacon and pancakes hit my nostrils as the elevator opened" thank you Isa I can take it from here I said placing my hands on the hand rims of my wheelchair

Okay then" I'll go help out in the kitchen' call me if you need anything she said before disappearing to the kitchen, not that she was paid to work there but Isa was the kind of person who liked to help" in short she had a good heart the opposite of me, sometimes I wondered why we got along so well, maybe it was because besides my parents she was the only other person who wasn't afraid to tell me when I went to far " unlike other people, they shiver at my presence

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I pointed my thumbs forward grasping them to the hand rims and pushed evenly with both hands heading to the dinning room where my parents sat"

Good morning I greeted with a smile as I parked my wheelchair on the side of the table"

Morning my princess" how was your sleep asked my father sitting at the head of the table

Perfect how was yours I asked smiling at him back"

Amazing my princess I hope you're ready for the award ceremony tonight he said spreading more butter on his bread than needed

Is that your way of asking me if I'm going I said slicing a croissant on my plate" passing him a sneaky smile as I did

Of course not your mother has already clarified that' you'll be there he said taking a sip of his coffee

I turned my head and looked at my mother who sat next to him with a sneaky smile on her lips" I sighed realizing I had just gotten played by emotional blackmail

I know what you're thinking" you must be thinking about what you're going to wear tonight" trust me you don't have to worry about anything I got everything under control' I'll make sure that no one is able to take their eyes off you" you'll be the most beautiful tonight she said beaming with excitement

Mom... please I said looking at her

What? can't I make my only daughter look beautiful, who knows when I'll ever get another chance like this it's not often that you agree to attend a social event like this one she said stubbornly

Dad" back me up a little I said looking at him"

I totally agree, your mother is right" this is your time to shine and without a doubt you'll steal the spotlight tonight he said brushing her hand gently causing her to smile

I smiled looking at them" not many of us are lucky to find love like theirs some of us get back stabbing betrayal" I guess it is easier to accept that love isn't meant for everyone" for some of us it wasn't written in our stars, like mine ”

I heard there will be many handsome young man from respected families tonight started my mother with the same hopeful smile she always gives me when she's about to start this conversation" I sighted knowing were this was heading

Valarie honey' I also heard that William your childhood best friend" he's one of the country's top ten bachelors now" every girl want to marry him" the last time I talked to his mother she told me she was looking for a wife for him, 

Why don't you take some time to catch up with him who knows maybe you two might end up getting married

Mother please not this again' I have already told you that I don't need marriage in my life I'm perfectly fine the way I am, you have got to stop matchmaking me it isn't going to change anything" I said frustration building up inside of me

Are you fine' or you're just afraid" ever since that boy betrayed you breaking your heart you have never been the same, your humanity left with him!! she said her voice cracking' her eyes turning red tears threatening to leave them

Mother" I have told you many times before I don't like talking about this topic I said dropping the fork and knife on the plate, my appetite lost

Valarie how long will you go on like this" can't you see this isn't the way to live!! she shouted finally breaking down into tears my father held her hand comforting her" I can see how much it's paining him too" but I cannot afford to give in, I can't ”

I know they want to see me married and happy" but I do not believe marriage will make me happy, I am already happy but why won't they believe me when I tell them

Valarie honey" at least consider what your mother is saying" you cannot give up on living because of" him' he says with coldness feeling too disgusted to utter his name by his lips

Mom' dad you know I love you but my answer still remains I won't get married"

I'm sorry I can't be the perfect daughter you want me to be" I said emotionlessly as I pulled my wheelchair out of the table”

I'm going to work I said pushing my wheelchair towards the door" I closed my eyes as I heard my mother's loud sobs as I left

We don't want you to be perfect' we just want you to be happy!! I heard her shout between her sobs as I left

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Cynthia & Walter's Pov

Walter I'm worried about our daughter she cannot continue like this, she's becoming more and more cold everyday" I fear she's becoming heartless, we're losing her Walter says Cynthia with tears in her eyes

Don't worry my Love we'll find a way to make her happy again"  don't lose hope says Walter reassuring her as he wipes away the tears on her face even though he himself cannot help but question his own words" he too is deeply worried about Valarie

The happy and cheerful daughter he once knew was slowly fading away in front of his eyes and there was nothing he could do to stop it" he blamed himself for trusting his daughter's precious heart with that monster of a man" if only he had refused when he came asking for her hand in marriage

He wonders if things would have been different today" if  only he had said no" he wouldn't be drowning in so much desperation to see her happy again