“Oh. My. God. You are going to totally rock the night.” Ashlyn slipped her arm through mine. She’d come over early so we could get ready for the big Tori party together. We did the two-hour shopping trip last weekend to get all the things that we would need to make our appearance known. The thigh-high stockings, high-heeled ankle boots, and of course, the tight little black dresses that clung to our bodies like a second skin.
“Yeah, but this is like the most uncomfortable outfit I have ever worn.” I twisted and pulled the skirt part of the dress down so that maybe it would cover another half-inch of my skin. I don’t know why I allowed Ashlyn to talk me into getting matching outfits, but she always seemed to have that effect on me. I say no and she gives me some reason my answer is wrong, and why I should listen to her. Her rationale was that if I dressed like this, there would be no reason for Vance to have wandering eyes.
“It’s not supposed to be comfortable. Maybe you should go ahead and get some sweat pants and a t-shirt on. You know comfort comes before hotness.” She grabbed my hand as I walked towards my closet. I thought she had a great notion there about the whole being comfortable thing. Guess I was wrong because she quickly got me out of my room before I could make any changes.
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Suri’s house was packed by the time that we got there. We were right on time with our nine o’clock arrival, but it looked like a vast majority of the other kids had been there for a while. There were beer cans and red solo cups tossed about on the porch, and when we stepped inside the slightly ajar front door, there were even more on the floor.
“Looks like we’re late.” Ashlyn headed straight back to the kitchen where the coolers of booze were usually kept.
We had to push our way through, but we finally made it to where the party began. The kitchen contained all the alcohol.
“Hey, Ms. Greene,” Ashlyn greeted Suri’s mom before I got past the last person and into the kitchen.
“Ashlyn and Renko.” Suri’s mom stumbled over to us and put her arms around both our shoulders. “It is so great to see you again.” Her words were slurred, her breath smelled like she’d been drinking something other than beer, and her clothes, or what was left of them, were hanging halfway off her body.
“You too, Ms. Greene.” I ducked underneath her arm, so I could get away from becoming intoxicated just from the alcohol on her breath alone.
“Oh, you girls can call me, Linda.” She dug her long red painted fingers nails through the ice in the cooler and pulled out two cans of beer. “Here you go. Now, have fun.” She handed the bottles to me, and Ashlyn then stumbled off into the next room.
“Now, why can’t my mom be that cool?” Ashlyn snapped the tab on the can and took a long swallow.
“I think if my mom acted that way I would move out.” I set my beer on the counter. I just wasn’t in the mood to drink right now. Maybe later, but that all depended on how Vance was acting. Plus, I needed to drive the two blocks back home, so I couldn’t drink too much.
“Renko, you need to loosen up a bit.” Ashlyn drank the rest of her can and tossed it into the trash barrel. “Now, let’s find our men.” She picked up my full can on the way out of the kitchen.
Then before we got halfway down the hall, I heard the snap of the top. Looked like I was going to be the reasonable one tonight.
Thirty minutes later, and two more beers later for Ashlyn, we finally found Vance and Reese. He was Ashlyn’s main man for the moment, even if it was for just the night. They were hanging out with the basketball team out on the deck that was on the backside of the house. There was the team and of course, there were the b-ball cronies or whores as Ashlyn called them, just chilling and in my opinion, getting a little too close for comfort with our guys.
I walked over to where Vance was standing. He had his back towards me and was chatting with some girl who I remembered was in a lower grade than us. She looked all glassy-eyed and it could either be from the alcohol, or the fact that she was getting quite chummy with one of the famous basketball players. My guess was both those factors since they both had beer cans and his hand was on her hip.
“Hey, Vance.” I lightly touched his back.
In less than one second, his hand fell away from her side, and he spun around to face me. “Renko, baby.” Vance’s arms circled my waist and drew me closer to his body. Of course, his hands automatically went down to my ass and began to massage my cheeks. “Baby, you look good. I love the new outfit.” He lowered his hand down to my leg and let it travel up the thigh highs I was wearing.
“Yep. I’m sure you do.” I had stopped his hand before it got any further. I hated when he did all this type of caressing in the view of everyone. I heard Ashlyn tell me she would see me later, and she went off with Reese back into the house.
“Oh my God, baby.” Vance walked me backward until I was up against the railing of the deck. “You’re killing me here with that dress on.” He took hold of my hand and pulled it towards his crotch. “Let’s grab a room before they’re all gone.” His body slammed against me as his lips crashed into mine.
“Vance.” I managed to pull my mouth away from his.
He automatically went to my neck and began to suckle.
“Vance, stop it!” I wiggled my head around until he finally pulled back.
“What?” Now, he sounded totally pissed. Still drunk, but now a pissed-off drunk.
“I didn’t come over here to be raped by you on the deck in front of everyone.” Okay, there weren’t a lot of people still around us. It seemed everyone moved their little party someplace else once Ashlyn and I showed up, but I still didn’t want to be felt up and undressed while we were out here in the open.
Vance held up his hands and moved away. “It wouldn’t be rape; you’re my girlfriend. But fuck Renko, why the hell did you wear that outfit if you didn’t want to get something going with me?”
I took a deep breath and tried to control my anger. I wasn’t going to explain to his drunken self that yes, it would be rape if I said no, even if he was my boyfriend. “I was just hoping that maybe you would say that I looked good, not want to fuck me on the deck with everyone watching.”
Vance picked up a beer can that was left on the railing. He took a long drink then tossed the empty over the side. I hoped that was his, because who knows what some people would put into one as a joke. “You know what, Renko,” he said my name in a sarcastic manner. “Why don’t you get yourself a beer, loosen the fuck up a little bit, and then maybe come looking for me. I’m outta here.” He walked back to the house and disappeared into the crowd.
I stood there for a few moments. Like did that shit just happen? Just because I didn’t want to fuck him on the deck, he gets all pissy.A few more people came out to join in on the big party, well really it was just me since everyone else disappeared. I so wanted to go home and leave all this shit behind. I knew if I didn’t leave, Vance and I would get into some nasty fight and who knew how long that would last—come to think of it—did I care? That’s all we ever did anymore was argue and fight. We both needed some serious help or just to step away from each other for a while or maybe call it off for good this time.I walked back into the house in search of Ashlyn. The crowd seemed to thicken since I was in here last. I saw her with Reese and several other people we hung around with on a regular basis. She looked like she was enjoying this party way too much for us to leave early.“Renko!” Ashlyn squealed and pulled me int
Vance looked shocked to see me standing there. His face was flushed, which could be because of his recent activity of the fact that I caught him red-handed cheating on me.The girl, or should I say, woman, grabbed the sheet and wrapped it around herself. “Renko—I, u-uh…” Obviously, she had no words for what was going on.“Sorry, uh, Linda, uh, Mrs. Greene, I didn’t mean to interrupt.” I looked over at Vance, who had his head laying on the pillow. “It’s over…like really over this time.” I couldn’t keep the tears from falling. I knew he cheated on me before, but to have him say he would never do it again, then to catch him with Tori’s mom blew my mind.I had to get out of there and far away from this party. I slammed the door shut on the way out. I raced down the hall and ran down the steps. I heard Vance yelling my name from the second floor and knew he was going to try and find me.
MAXAre you freakin serious?Now, what the fuck was I supposed to do?I ditched the so-called happening party an hour ago. Not my crowd or scene, but me and the guys had a special invite by Suri, who promised lots of beer, food, and girls.Again, not exactly what I was looking for. But my boys wanted to go, so I caved in. They were all hitting up with a few townie girls, ones that were shallow and pedantic, not of our kind, but I didn’t want any part of it.How could I?I wasn’t the average eighteen-year-old waiting to graduate high school, go to college, have fun before real life kicked in. Nope, I was next in line to follow after my father, the alpha shifter, who reigned over the whole Appalachian Trail.But now, I had an issue. A fuckin big one.I was running across the road, in wolf form, and a car came upon me.What the fuck was a car doing out here, in the middle of fuckin nowhere, late
MAXI heard and smelled some of the pack as I made my way home with Renko. Thankfully, most were on patrol and didn’t have time to see why I was out and about. My father met me at the door but never asked why I was naked and who the girl was I carried in my arms. I knew as soon as I laid Renko down and got dressed, I would be bombarded with questions.“Care to explain?” My mother confronted me as soon as I entered the kitchen.I grabbed bottled water out of the fridge and sat down at the table. “About?” I knew what she meant but might as well prolong the agony.Mom sat down across from me. Her expression already said she wasn’t happy with this scenario even before she said any words. “Max don’t play stupid. Your father told me what he saw tonight. Who’s the girl? Why were you carrying her here?”“Long story short, I was out running, a car came up the back road behind ou
Did you ever have that feeling that you weren’t whole? That something or someone was missing from your life. No matter who you were with, you always felt alone. I feel like that every day of my life. I have my friends and even a boyfriend, if you can call him that, but they just aren’t filling the void that seems to surround me all the time. It’s like the other half of me is someplace else, and I’m just this casing of a body that’s walking around trying to pretend that happiness is all around me. My mom even wanted me to go to counseling at one point in my life, during my tenth-grade year of high school, she was worried about me not being socially receptive. Whatever the fuck that is, right? So, I started going out more with Ashlyn, mainly to parties that her ‘social’ friends held. I even accepted Vance’s proposal that we date exclusively, meaning I only go out with him while he fucks the rest of the female populat
Renko“Because I don’t want to.” I mean really, isn’t that a good enough reason not to want to go somewhere?“Renko, you have to.” My best friend, Ashlyn wouldn’t give up on the pestering of wanting me to go to the big upcoming party next weekend.Our friend Suri, well not really a friend but more of a rival in the social ladder competition that we were all trying to climb in our last year of high school, was supposed to be throwing this huge get-together for all the big who’s who of our school. Usually, that meant that the usual crowd would show up, like all the popular kids, and then they would be so drunk halfway through the party, that no one cared who else showed up. I mean I’ve been there and done that so many times that it was becoming routine anymore. The only thing about Tori’s that was different from all the other parties is that the group of partiers didn’t have to snea