LOGINPercy
The van moves.
It smells like disinfectant and old sweat. Not the sharp, sterile kind either, the cheap kind that only half masks what’s soaked into the metal over the years. Fear. Vomit. Blood that’s been scrubbed but never erased.
I sit on the narrow bench with my wrists cuffed in front of me, ankles chained, the vibration of the engine rattling up through my bones.
I hear the door slam shut behind me again, or I imagine it, I don’t know.
That sound, thick and final, doesn’t do what it’s supposed to. There’s no jolt of panic, no tightening in my chest, just a faint acknowledgment, like checking off an item on a list.
This is happening.
The guard across from me doesn’t look at my face. He keeps his eyes fixed somewhere over my shoulder, jaw set, posture rigid. Like if he looks directly at me, something might leak out. Judgment? Curiosity? I’m not sure which one he’s avoiding more.
I lean my head back against the wall on the side. Cold metal kisses my scalp.
The courthouse fades behind us, brick and stone shrinking into nothing. Reporters. Cameras. Strangers.
Now the road hums beneath us, tires rolling over cracks and seams, and my body sways with every turn. The city slides by through the narrow, barred window, people walking, laughing, living lives that no longer intersect with mine.
I wonder, briefly, if they feel it. If something in the air changes when a man like me passes by.
Probably not.
The van hits a pothole, and the chain between my ankles bites into my skin. Pain sparks, sharp and clean, and for half a second, I welcome it. At least it’s real.
The guard finally speaks. “You good?” Not out of concern, but just the procedure.
“Yeah,” I say.
He nods, satisfied, and goes back to his silence.
Time stretches, minutes blur into something shapeless. I try counting turns, landmarks, anything to mark progress, but eventually even that feels pointless. Wherever we’re going, I’ll get there. Resistance doesn’t exist anymore. The system moves, and I move with it.
Amidst my thoughts Clay's smug and smiling face surfaces, making me tighten my jaw. It’s like he’s laughing at me.
If anything, though, I should be the one happy, and I am. There's a hollow satisfaction there, buried deep and quiet. A sense of balance restored. Cause and effect.
I don’t push the thought away. I let it sit.
Then the van slows, gravel crunches under the tires, loud in the sudden quiet. The engine idles, then cuts. Another door opens somewhere up front.
Then I hear footsteps.
The door across from me opens instead of the one behind. Light floods in, harsh and white. I squint, blinking, as a different guard steps into view. Older. Grayer. His uniform fits like it’s been worn into submission.
“Blackwell,” he says.
I straighten without being told.
“Yes, you should know.”
“Come with me.”
The first guard undoes my chains with brisk efficiency. Metal clinks. Pressure releases. My wrists ache as blood rushes back in.
I step down from the van onto solid ground. The air smells different here: trees, dirt, something faintly medicinal. Not the sharp reek of a city jail. This isn’t where I expected to be.
The building in front of us is low and sprawling, more hospital than fortress. Pale walls. Clean lines. Too much open space.
They lead me inside, through a side entrance that avoids the main intake. There’s no shouting or echoing chaos. Just quiet hallways and the soft squeak of rubber soles on polished floors. Unlike what I used to see on TV.
We stop at a small office, and the older guard gestures for me to sit. Which I do. He flips open a file, skims it, then clears his throat.
“Due to… a few circumstances, you’ll be housed separately.”
I don’t know why the information surprises me. Of course, my father said he made a few arrangements.
I wait while they finish whatever paperwork and procedures they need before taking me to my room. I’m already exhausted. But I notice the older guard watching me, as if he expects me to say something. I don’t. I just stare back, ignore him, and wait.
“Private ward. Medical-adjacent. Restricted access. Still under full supervision.” His eyes stay on me as he speaks. When I remain silent, he turns to the other guard and adds, “Room 105,” then flicks his hand in a dismissive gesture.
We move forward.
“This isn’t a luxury,” the guard says after a moment. “It’s for your safety.”
“My safety,” I repeat, letting the irony sit on my tongue.
He nods once. “Follow me.”
The ward is quieter than the rest of the facility. The doors are spaced farther apart, each door with iron bars before the main door. The windows don’t have bars, though the glass is thick and reinforced. Cameras sit discreetly in the corners, small but impossible to miss.
He leads me into a room.
There’s a single bed with white sheets. A desk bolted to the floor. A small bookshelf holding a few books, which, for the sake of my sanity, I hope aren’t self-help titles. A window looks out onto a courtyard enclosed by high walls.
No roommate. Just me and this contained little world.
I stand there while the guard explains the rules. Lights out. Meal schedules. Limited visitation. Therapy sessions available upon request.
I almost laugh at that. Therapy for what?
When he finishes, he hesitates. “Your family will be informed that you’re settled.”
“Good,” I say.
Then he leaves.
The door clicks shut behind him. A second later, I hear the iron bar slide into place, sealing me in. Then there is nothing.
I drop onto the bed on my back and release a long breath.
This is supposed to be mercy. A cushion. A compromise between punishment and privilege. It doesn’t soften anything. If anything, it sharpens it. There is no distraction here. No noise to drown out my thoughts. No other bodies to remind me I am not alone in this place.
Just me.
I think about my father and what he did for me, whether he pulled those strings for my sake or for his own. Whether it was so the Blackwell name would not be written across prison walls in blood, or simply so I would be kept safe.
I lie still, staring at the ceiling.
This is prison.
Not the version they sell on television. Not yet. But it is still a narrowing of the world. A shrinking. Every choice reduced to compliance or consequence.
Beyond these walls, my name will be dissected and debated, stripped down into headlines and cautionary tales. Billionaire’s Son Turned Killer. Privilege Meets Justice.
I don’t care. It doesn’t matter in here, especially knowing I am protected.
The thoughts circle until sleep finally takes me.
I wake with pressure in my body and realize I need to relieve myself. The guard never told me how. I sit up and scan the room, searching for some way to call someone, and that is when I notice two buttons on my bed cupboard, one red, one blue.
I move to press one, then pause when I notice a narrow door set into the wall at the far end of my room. It barely looks wide enough for me to fit through. How did I miss that? The surface blends almost perfectly with the rest of the room.
I pull it open and find a bathroom. A toilet sits in the corner, with a shower head fixed to the wall beside it. An iron bar runs along one side, probably for a towel, and there is a small recessed space in the wall for soap.
I relieve myself and step back into the room. My gaze drifts to the wardrobe, which I open to find two more prison outfits, orange overalls, and several plain white T-shirts.
Percy Sleep in this place is strange.It isn’t the kind of sleep that eases you into rest with gentle arms and a quiet lull; it doesn’t cradle you and let your body dissolve into calm oblivion. Instead, it hovers over your mind lightly, almost mockingly, like a temporary visitor that could vanish at any second, leaving you exposed and alert. Even when the room is silent, even when nothing stirs beyond the faint hum of the fluorescent lights, some fragment of my brain refuses to surrender. It clings to awareness, keeps me half on guard.Maybe that’s why I wake up so suddenly.One moment, I’m in that hazy, comforting darkness of dreams. The next, my eyes snap open, and my body reacts before I can even register what yanked me out of sleep. There’s a brief, disorienting second when nothing feels anchored, the ceiling above me is foreign, the light too bright, the air too sharp and cold, cutting against my skin in a way that shouldn’t be normal. Then reality nudges back into place.I’m in
IslaMy alarm goes off at six, and just like every other day, I’m tempted to throw my phone across the room just to make the noise stop.The sound cuts cleanly through the quiet of my apartment, sharp and persistent, until I reach over and silence it. For a moment, I stay still, staring up at the ceiling while my body slowly wakes up.Why can’t I live a life where I sleep whenever I want and still be able to take care of my needs?If wishes were horses.With a sigh, I sit up and swing my legs over the side of the bed, stretching the stiffness out of my shoulders. The floor is cool under my feet as I make my way toward the kitchen.Urghh.The coffee machine goes on first. I need my coffee to be able to function properly.A few minutes later, the smell of it fills the apartment. I pour myself a mug and lean against the counter, taking a slow sip while looking around my studio. Everything is exactly where I left it the night before. Clean dishes. Folded laundry. My uniform hangs neatly o
PercyNight comes heavy and slow. The small lights above the room glow dimly, shadows crawling along the walls, and I lie on the bed, eyes wide, unable to force myself to sleep. My sister’s face is there before me, even in the dark, soft, pale, hair falling loose over her shoulders. Lila. I see the way her small frame turns into corners, trying to make herself invisible.I roll onto my side, pull the blanket tighter, but it doesn’t help. The room is silent, sterile. Nothing to distract me. No voices. No music. No games. Just me and the memory of what happened. I try to shove it away, but it sticks, clinging like wet ink to the edges of my mind.Sleep finally drags me down, and the darkness of my eyelids doesn’t erase the images; it just shifts them. The world morphs, and I’m back at the school, standing in the shadows of the hallways I can never escape. My chest tightens. My hands shake, even as I lie in my safe, private room. I see her, the real her, the living her, and then him. Cla
IslaMy day starts off differently today. It’s my day off, and each day off is different for me.I wake up later than usual, sunlight already filling the room through the single window of my studio apartment. There is no alarm. No uniform waiting for me on the chair. No radio chatter, no steel doors or schedules to follow today.I stretch in bed and roll onto my side, reaching for the book I left on my nightstand last night.It’s a romance novel. One of those dramatic ones with glossy covers and unrealistic men. The story is about a woman in her forties who falls in love with a billionaire ten years younger than her. The plot is ridiculous, but I like it anyway. The woman has been divorced, cheated on, and overlooked, and now suddenly she’s being adored by someone who wants her for exactly who she is.I like that for her. She has suffered enough.I sit up against my pillows and read for a while, flipping pages slowly, letting time pass without watching it. Outside, I hear a car horn a
PercyThe van moves.It smells like disinfectant and old sweat. Not the sharp, sterile kind either, the cheap kind that only half masks what’s soaked into the metal over the years. Fear. Vomit. Blood that’s been scrubbed but never erased. I sit on the narrow bench with my wrists cuffed in front of me, ankles chained, the vibration of the engine rattling up through my bones. I hear the door slam shut behind me again, or I imagine it, I don’t know.That sound, thick and final, doesn’t do what it’s supposed to. There’s no jolt of panic, no tightening in my chest, just a faint acknowledgment, like checking off an item on a list. This is happening.The guard across from me doesn’t look at my face. He keeps his eyes fixed somewhere over my shoulder, jaw set, posture rigid. Like if he looks directly at me, something might leak out. Judgment? Curiosity? I’m not sure which one he’s avoiding more.I lean my head back against the wall on the side. Cold metal kisses my scalp.The courthouse fa
PercyThe judge’s voice sounds like it’s coming from underwater.“…having found the defendant guilty on his own plea…”I don’t blink, I don’t even shift. I don’t look at my parents or my sister, whose voice I can hear above everyone else, crying. I don’t look at the woman crying in the second row, clutching a photograph of a boy who will never grow older, thanks to me. I did the world a favour. I keep my eyes forward, fixed on the seal behind the judge’s head, gold and flaking, like everything else, and everyone else, in this room that pretends to be holy.Murderer.The word has already been said, just not directly to me yet. It’s floating around the courtroom like smoke, clinging to my skin.I killed Clay MacCoy.And I would do it again.“…sentenced to life with the possibility of parole…”My mother makes a sound then. A small, broken sound, like glass snapping. I know without looking that she has collapsed against my father’s shoulder. I know his hand is on her back, stiff and awkwa







