18. Kaden

I don't want her here but I also can't stand the thought of her leaving. After that night, I mostly kept to myself. Obsessing over what I could have done to change what had happened or how I could have prevented it. For starters, I should have told everyone I'd regained my sight so Maryna wouldn't worry about me. Why hadn't I done that? Because some foolish part of me wanted her to be the first to know. I wanted to see her reaction, bask in it, then spend long hours committing her face to my memory. Her face and body and every part of her. Yes, even after I met Maryna, my first thought was to go to Sophia and relearn every dip and curve and freckle and beauty mark but with my sight. This is part of the reason I've hated her for so long. She consumed every part of me to the point where I lost my ability to think straight.

And from the looks of it, it's still happening. Otherwise, why would I follow her all day and night only to bring her back? She was so close to leaving my territory.