Chapter 7

Sarah’s POV

The rest of the day has passed in awkward silence between us after the kiss. I don’t know why I let him kiss me? When I looked him in the eyes and I felt his breath brushing my lips I couldn’t resist the urge to kiss him so I closed my eyes and it happened. I can’t believe all of this happened in just the span of 5 hours. If all of this happened what will happen in the next 2 months? I can’t let him love me again. It will be heart breaking when I have to leave after 2 months. I have to do something in order to make him hate me. Found it!! I will pretend to love someone else and voila he will hate me. However, who is this person? Noah? No, I have told him that he’s not my boyfriend plus I don’t want to bring Noah into this. THEN WHO?? Fred? The guy seemed cute and really into me. I know from his appearance that he’s a player but so what it’s not like I’m falling for him anyway. Then, Fred it is.

I went to the mansion and found grandpa waiting for me in the living room. He said he wanted to talk to me when I come home. I think I have a clue about what is he going to talk about.

“Good evening grandpa” I said when I entered the room.

“Good evening sweetie” Grandpa said smiling. “How did today go? Was there anything interesting?” He asked. I know of course what he’s talking about.

“It was good and nothing happened except work” I said.

“Well, if work included kissing, then I will believe you” he said grinning. OH MY GOD!! HOW DID HE KNOW?? Did someone see us? No. The office doesn’t contain any glass and I’m sure it’s walls are very thick that nobody heard our conversation. “I have a camera in Jan’s office” he said answering my thoughts.

“Why did you put a camera in Jan’s office?” I asked curiously.

“To assure my uncertainties” he said smiling “That you two still love each other” he continued. This again!!

“Grandpa, we talked about this yesterday. I don’t love Jan anymore and neither does he” I said.

“Yes I know that people that don’t love each other kiss and look at each other the way you two look at each other” he said smiling.

“What do you really want grandpa? Isn’t this the same Jan you forced me to leave 3 years ago? Why are you trying to play cupid now after everything?” I asked.

“First of all, I went to make amends. I misjudged the guy 3 years ago. I thought he was after your money and that’s why I forced you to leave him. I thought he was pulling you back from your dream to study abroad. I was only looking for your sake sweetie” he said apologetically.

“Grandpa, there is nothing to amend our story was over 3 years ago and nothing will happen now. Jan doesn’t love me and I certainly don’t love him anymore” I said hoping he will take the hint and stop what he was doing. When I turned around to leave, I saw him standing right behind me. When I looked him in the eye there was hurt in his eyes that reminded me of the moment, I left him 3 years ago.

“You left this in the office and I thought I should come and give it to you” he said giving me my purse and he turned to leave.

“Jan” I stopped him and he turned to face me.

“Thank you” I said smiling faintly. Really? Thank you? I wanted to say more than thank you I wanted to say I’m sorry for hurting you constantly but I couldn’t. He left and I went upstairs to my room and when I closed the door I cried. Cried for hurting him. Cried for leaving him 3 years ago. I can’t do this. I have closed this chapter 3 years ago. Why did I come back?

*3 years ago*

It was summer and I returned from my outing with Jan very happy and delighted. I entered the living room and saw my grandpa with the acceptance letter of Harvard in his hands and looking at me angrily. He was never angry at me. I was my grandpa’s sweetheart and his favorite granddaughter. I knew why he was angry.

“Sarah Bahgat Yorkan you lied to me!!” he said angrily. “You said you were rejected and that’s why you’re staying in Turkey!! Why did you lie to me?” he asked. I didn’t have the heart to tell him that I was giving up Harvard in order to stay here with Jan so I decided to lie to him and everyone and said I was rejected in the first place. I also told Jan that I have decided to stay here not because of him but because I wasn’t feeling like studying there anymore.

“Grandpa. Please listen to me. I don’t want to go there anymore so I didn’t want to disappoint you” I said apologetically.

“You don’t want to go there anymore? This has been your dream since you were little. What happened to that dream? Or because of that boy? You did this in order to stay here with him didn’t you?” That was the worst thing about grandpa he knew me too well. When I didn’t say anything he said “Sarah. I’ve booked you a flight next week. You’re going to Harvard and that’s a final decision”

“What? You can’t do this grandpa. This is my life” I said crying.

“And you’re messing with it and about that boy you will leave him right away” he said finalizing it.

“No! I won’t leave him and I won’t go to Harvard” I said angrily.

“If you didn’t leave him he will suffer from what I am going to do to him. I will ensure that he’s going to be fired from his job and that he won’t find any company to employ him” he paused “So, it’s your decision Sarah. Do you want him to suffer?” he continued. I know what are the capabilities of my grandfather.

“I hate you!” I said yelling. “Fine! I will go to Harvard but you have to know that I will hate you till the rest of my life and I will never forgive you for this” I cried.

“You may hate me as you like but you will know one day that I wanted the best for you” and he left me crying. What shall I do? If I told Jan this he will be angry I lied to him in the first place and he will insist that we don’t leave each other no matter what. I can’t risk his career. I will do the only thing that I promised I won’t do to him. Break his heart. If I asked him to break up without any reason he will sense that something was off. I will tell him that I don’t love him anymore. This will make him leave me and hate me till forever.

‘Meet me tomorrow at our place’ I sent him a message.

‘Okay babe. Love you’ he sent. I didn’t reply back. Tomorrow this story will end but it’s impact will remain with me till the rest of my life.