"We're still in the first choreo, yet you're completely missing your part, Abigail. Can you still do it?"
I held my breath and looked at Bianca, the cheerleading team leader at our school. It was obvious from her face that she was no longer happy about my countless mistakes. Me too; I don't like it anymore every time I make a mistake. It's tiring to repeat my part over and over again.
"I'm sorry, Bianca. I'm just not in the mood today, but I guarantee I won't be like this tomorrow." It tried to sound promising.
She shook her head. It's like she's trying to absorb my words so that she can't be mad anymore.
"Don't apologize to me, Abigail. You should go to our team. They work so hard for this routine; they do a good job on their part, but because you have mistaken your part, they need to repeat it not just once or three times." She said this and turned to our group mates, who continued where we started and ended.
It's like heaven and earth have joined me. My failure today is embarrassing. Bianca is used to the mistakes we make. But right now, mine just doesn't make sense at all. It feels like it's not me. If I make a mistake, it will be recorded on my fingers, and for this day, I better keep it to myself.
"That's all for this morning, guys! Let's take a break for an hour!" She shouted, and some students threw a shout of relief, and others lay down on the floor. Tired for sure.
I felt guilty for what I'd done.
I heavily sighed and excused myself from Bianca.
I went to my team and apologized for my mistake. When our eyes met, some stood up and approached me. They smiled and gently patted my shoulder.
"We understand you; take a break to catch up." One said that everyone agreed.
I smiled gently and nodded. "I'm really sorry, guys. I'll make it up to you all. I promise."
"Common, you're just a victim of having a bad day. There's no need to make it up; we all have bad days, and we meanly understand you, Abigail." Said of another one.
I just smiled shyly and apologized to them again. Bianca later told me not to practice today. She said she'll wait for my part and to do my best tomorrow, and I should rest early so I can get myself in good condition. And she added that she would take care of my subjects for today and for the rest since it's automatic that we can't attend our class since the intramurals are coming up, and all the teachers expect that the participants will be absent for a few days.
Sweating, I headed to our bathroom and cleaned myself. Then I put on a uniform. I don't want to go home yet. Aunt Anne was not at home because Mang Arlando invited her to go for a walk.
I snorted.
Aunt Anne was lucky. Her love life is clear. As for me, here, it looks busted again. I don't even know how many times I've seduced him or how many times I've been busted. But of all that, his words hurt the most. But I'm still hanging up. I don't know why—maybe because I have deep feelings for him.
Or maybe because I'm used to it?
I shook my head and sighed.
I'm not used to it. I'll never be used to it. Even to anyone who tried to give me hurtful words. It's not my cup of tea.
Time passed quickly. Bianca and I even met and asked why I hadn't come home yet when we crossed paths in the hallway. I told her my reason, and we talked for a while until the hours passed. Candy, on the other hand, did not move towards me. Twenty-four hours have passed, and her sullenness still hasn't disappeared. I want to run towards her, but my whole being feels tired. We might just fight. So instead of teasing her, I just let her go this time.
"Abigail," I said, automatically turning my attention to the voice coming from behind me.
"Jack."
He looked around before looking at me again. It stepped closer, and I also stepped back. He seemed to have noticed that, so he stopped walking towards me.
"About yesterday..."
"I understand. If you're here to apologize, it really doesn't matter to me—."
"I'm not here for that. I also have no intention of apologizing for what I said yesterday because it really was your fault."
I was swallowed by Jack's seriousness. I thought I had nothing to do with that. Why now does it seem to be there again?
I grinned.
"I didn't do anything, Jack. How could it be my fault? You see, I had just arrived on your floor when I caught up with your messy scenario." I answered sarcastically.
"Samuel started it. He insulted my boyfriend."
I slightly raised my eyebrows at his emphatic pronunciation of the last word. I want to torture him and turn him away because I will look rude in his eyes.
"And you know Troy, Abigail. He only snaps when it's too much." He added.
"Oh, then where's my fault in that scenario?" I asked and scratched my head.
"Samuel likes you, Abigail, and he can't accept that you're tailing over Troy." This is a straight answer. I was stunned for a moment.
"Y-You know?" I asked in disbelief.
"That you like Troy, and he agrees to date you because you're a nasty person?" He nodded slowly, and he also answered his question. "What do you think about the chatter of the students here?" He looked away and frowned. "I'm going to confess to you, Abigail. I don't care what you feel for Troy, because that's normal. I also understand why Troy agreed. But if they continue to fire between the both of them because of you, I will make sure that you stay away from him."
I was left dumbfounded for a couple of seconds. Troy just told me that yesterday's was just more torture because he really pushed me away.
Save yourself. I feel so deep; how can I get out?
"I'll talk to Samuel." I just said that and looked at my things. I can't stand his presence now; the way he looks seems to have penetrated my entire being. I know him, but not that well.
I didn't expect that he already knew. But after all, there are many craters in this school; what else is surprising?
I grinned involuntarily as I walked away from Jack's bulk. If he knows, that means I can tease Troy again. That's what scares him the most, and in this case, her boyfriend confirmed in front of me that it was okay with him.
My smile did not disappear as I returned to the room. Just as the last subject is about to finish, I'll just go home with Candy; after all, she's my only problem.
But of course, when it comes to her, I should expect her cold personality when we're in this situation.
"Besides, I'll talk to you when you stop being crazy about the person who has a relationship with other that should be respected, Abigail, so get out of my way because I'm going home."
Candy really made me hard to make it
up to her and at the same time, I decided to not to tell her just happened a few hour hour ago. It's just not fit to tell.
I snorted and followed her quick footsteps.
"Candy, don't make me chase after you! I'm already chasing Troy, and I don't want to do that to you too!" I yelled and sped up my pace as if she were really determined to ignore me. I wasn't even stopped, but some words were thrown at me.
"Who told you to chase anyone, huh? That's your choice, even if you're already hurt, so take care of your life. I don't feel sorry for you anymore because you just ignore every piece of advice I give you!" She said that and suddenly stopped. I almost hit her because I was rushing to catch up with her.
I stared at her reddened face. I want to hug her and say sorry, like I always do, but I know that won't work.
"I heard you two yesterday. Troy is sending you away, isn't he?" She raised her eyebrows and asked.
I didn't answer. So she's there? Why didn't I see her in the hallway yesterday? Was she really there, or did someone else hear us and gossip about the conversation between Troy and me?
"What's your plan?" She asked gently.
I scratched my forehead and tried to smile.
"You already know, hehe." I answered.
She blinks twice and sighes deeply. "You know what a fool you are, Aby."
"I-I know. T-That's why I'm sorry." I said, biting my bottom lips. My voice also cracks in a sudden outburst.
I admit that I am really stupid. Sometimes it's too much. What can I do? If I had stopped my stupidity, I would have given up on Troy. I cannot do it. I can't even be absent just to see him. I'd rather be stupid than let him go. I cannot do it.
I heard Candy's sigh; after a while, she came to me and extended her arm. I immediately smiled and wrapped my arm around it. She also smiled and shook her head.
"Give me a donut, then we'll be fine." She said that I didn't object, even though it would reduce my flower purchase tomorrow for Troy.
INTRAMS. I woke up early since today was a fun day at our school. I was excited to do my morning routine and adjust my clothes. I just wore a white t-shirt and leggings paired with a white sneaker. Later on, when I arrive at school, I'll change into our cheerleading uniform.At exactly 8 in the morning today, we will have a practice for finalization. Then we will rest again to prepare for our time on the ground later.It's only the first day of intramurals, but the booths will definitely be crowded again, especially the wedding booth that students usually line up at on campus. And I am one of them. I haven't brought Troy to that booth yet; how come every time I pull him over, he will pull Brando, or else he will glare at me with his two deadly eyes and get angry? And in the end, we couldn't get married!Later, the gate will also be opened for others who want to have fun with us. Students or non-students can enter, but the guards are still strict to prevent chaos."You might break a bo
I couldn't accept Troy's words, so I quickly chased him after I returned to consciousness, and we were almost out of balance when I pulled him again. I could clearly see the mixture of shock and irritation on his face."Is there really no hope, Troy? I'm ready to court you again." I asked, depressed, as my eyes fixed on his face."Gail, I don't know how to say this to you without hurting your feelings so badly, but you heard me clearly. There really isn't much chance for you and me. I don't have any feelings for you; even if I tell you to take Jack out of my life, I know for myself that I don't really like you."I gasped. "That's unfair. Really unfair for me." I suddenly laughed. "I courted you for almost four years, and now you're going to answer like that? Tch, what else did I expect?" I shook my head. "I've been too complacent, but with your words today, it's like the truth just hit me."I wiped my tears and smiled at him."I wish you had said it sooner.""I already told you, Gail.
"Get changed, then just call me when you're done."I bent down and took from Troy the clothes he handed me. I didn't have anything extra with me because my bag was in the locker. One more thing: I didn't know my ending would be like this, which is why I'll be wearing his hirt that looks like a dress to me for the time being.I want to smile proudly; it's like the weight of my heart has disappeared. It's only because of the rain that I can use his clothes. It's superficial, but it's really my dream to wear her clothes because they smell good. And as usual, his smell is not masculine; Troy uses Victoria's Secret.Before, I was still frowning, but now, I quickly gave in. Instantly I was alive with hope. But it changed immediately because the things he told me came to my mind.After I entered the bathroom, I took a quick shower. I also washed my uniform so I can wear something tomorrow.When it was over, I looked at my appearance in the mirror because I might look like a dwarf in her clot
"I'm not happy about your sudden departure, Abigail. What if we're not prepared for this? What if we don't have a backup plan? How can we go ahead?""Calm down, Bianca. Let her explain herself to us."I bent down and just kept fiddling with my finger. I expected Bianca's reaction to be like this. But I didn't fully think that she would be this angry; that's why the nervousness rumbled in my chest.Nervous about my position in the group. I'm nervous for Bianca and nervous for myself that Bianca might not accept me anymore and just remove me from the group, even though it's the first time that I've lost myself. I know Bianca; she is a persistent person. As long as she can handle the things around her, she can make a plan immediately. And I'm afraid she'll see me as worthless to the group."Speak up, Abigail. You need to explain why you disappeared yesterday. We searched the entire campus; even in the senior building, you were not there. Some students approached us, saying that you were
"Ain't there no flowers? Did you forget? Or maybe you already gave it to Troy? But wait, we were together a while ago. I didn't see a bunch of roses in his hand earlier." I only gave Brando a simple smile when I met him at the door of their classroom. I didn't answer him. I got up and looked inside their room, but my two eyes couldn't catch the person I wanted to see. I looked at Brando. "Where's T-Troy?" "Answer my question first, girl. Why don't you have flowers for my friend?" He asked while crossing his arms in front of me. "I don't have time to buy." I tried to say it casually. Brando gave me a sharp look in return. "I smell something fishy; is that the two of you?" I scratched my forehead and tightened my grip on the paper bag in my other hand. "Don't ask questions now, Brando. Where is Troy?" I repeated, and again my eyes went inside, but I couldn't even see his shadow. "I don't know where he is right now; we barely saw each other this week since we have different agend
A few weeks have passed since I tasted Troy's harsh words. It was like my whole system was trampled by what he said before I left him outside the library. I'm fine. I'm fine. But because of that, I feel like I'm floating again, and I feel like I want to cry again because of the pain. It's really different when the person you love tells you no. It is hard to accept.I chugged my Bear Brand milk, then stopped to throw it away. The bell is about to ring, and I still haven't fixed my appearance. I hurried into a hallway, stunned by the loud shouting. My forehead furrowed when I looked somewhere, and that's all I grimaced at. It's him. It's Troy."Abigail! Wait!"He was gasping for air when he finally got close to me. And I was even looked up at because of his height."What do you need?" I asked coldly. I looked around because someone might see us. When I turned to him again, he was holding his chest. His hand still fluttered in the air while he fanned himself. Really gay."What do you nee
WARNING! This chapter contained a sexual scene."It's so painful here, oh." Troy pointed at his chest as the beer continued to pour.He's had a few bottles, and I can't even take him out because he gets angry if I try to grab what he's holding.I scratched my head. What am I doing here again? Why did I send it to him again?God, I'm really busted this time around!I gasped when I felt my phone vibrate, and when I looked, it was Aunt Anne. I was left wondering if I should answer him or not. I sighed and stood up to move away from Troy because of his noise."H-Hey wait! Where are you going?" I stopped walking and turned to Troy, who now had his arm wrapped around my leg. I widened my eyes at him, but he shook his head.I rubbed my forehead and turned my phone over to see Aunt Anne's name still there."L-Let go of me, Troy!" I was interested in pushing him, but he only shook his head even more and buried his face in my leg. I feel like I'm going to run out of air because of him.I swallo
"SAFE!"I almost passed out on my bed after I got out of the bathroom. I felt a strange sense of relief after a few days of waiting. I immediately took my calendar and kissed it. It's good that my menstruation has arrived; it was even postponed for two days, so I'm already nervous.It's been a month since that unexpected event happened. I seemed to realize what we were doing when my phone rang because of Candy's call.I rubbed my eyes when I was disturbed by the ring tone of my phone. I'm still sleepy, and my body feels like it's been bruised for reasons I don't know. I woke up and blinked a few times when I saw an unfamiliar ceiling. I swallowed and felt myself I felt like I was going to pass out in my situation when I felt a touch on my waist and a hot blast of air on my neck.I swallowed and slowly turned my eyes to the one next to me. I feel as if the blood has escaped"T-Troy." I gently patted his arm. My hand was even shaking from being so nervous"Oum..." He hummed softly and p