ALINA
When I came up, I was in a room. I could hear footsteps around and my head was buzzing so hard that I couldn't even focus my eyes on one particular thing. “Oh, you're awake. You know, for someone who seems pretty smart, you're actually very stupid for what you did earlier. You're lucky he didn't kill you.” I didn't feel very lucky right now but I'll take what I can get. At least, I’m not dead. I sat up on the bed and my stomach churned, reminding me that I hadn't had anything to eat today. There was a bandage wrapped around my head. My eyes finally focused on the girl in front of me. She moved from corner to corner, arranging the room. I remember her face from around the pack. “I thought he said that no one was to talk to me. Don't you think you'll be punished if they find out that you're with me? I mean, did they put us in the same room?” She didn't even turn around to face me. “I chose to stay with you. I'd rather be here with you and away from the pack than have to deal with any of those filthy snobs. I hate them all. And since I don't like people, what better way to avoid them than to be with someone they want to avoid?” So she was using me? For some reason, I didn't mind. At least, I had found someone who hated them just like I did. She tossed me a chocolate bar. “That’s all I have to eat for now. We have the night off but from tomorrow, work begins. I don't know what they want from us but as you know, we should expect the worst.” They had no right to do this. But there was nothing to be done. This was a normal thing around this place. Small packs would be taken over by bigger ones who thought it was funny to just ruin people's lives when they pleased. Well, I won't let that happen. I would live my life, even if it was for the last time. I would have fun. I stood up with force, falling back done on the bed immediately because my head spun. “You really do a lot of stupid things.” This time around, I stood up slowly. I didn't have a lot of nice clothes but that was fine. I just wanted to go out and get drunk, forget about this whole shit that was going on right now. I searched through my clothes and picked out the right ones. “What are you doing?” The other girl asked as I put on my clothes. “I’m putting on my clothes. I'm going out.” She scoffed and walked up to me. “I can see that. Are you crazy? Are you trying to get yourself killed? What do you think they'll do if they find out that you snuck off the grounds? What do you want me to say?” At this point, I didn't even care anymore. They could do what they wanted to me and it still won't stop me from being rebellious. “Sorry, what's your name?” She was towering over me because of how much taller she was than me. “Hailey.” “Hailey, you can tell them whatever you want to. Don't get yourself in trouble because of me. I'll take care of myself. I'm going out to have a fun time.” She froze, looking at me like I was crazy and I had lost it. I picked up my bag and looked at myself in the mirror one last time, making sure that I looked just as good as I thought I did. Screw James and all of them. I won't let them dictate my life. “You want to come, Hailey?” She was already in bed with a book in her hand so I took that as a no. The house was rather empty so it was easy scaling through and getting outside. The main issue was getting to the gate. Thankfully, it was dinner time and most of the guards were rather relaxed and chatting so I took advantage of that and sneaked around them, getting to the already open gate and running as fast as I could. I knew where I wanted to spend the night, so I ran with that in mind. I kept looking over my shoulder to make sure that no one was behind me. Just as I'd expected, the club was open and I threw the door open, straightening out my clothes and hair so I didn't look like the run away that I was. “Hey! Get me a shot of vodka. Keep my tab open”. I had a little money so I wanted to make sure that I drank until I couldn't stand anymore. Tomorrow would sort itself out but for now, I just wanted to drink. The bartender did just as he was told, giving me shot after shot until my head began to feel fuzzy. “Don’t you think it's wrong that you should be drinking your head off like that?” I raised my head to look at where the voice had come from and my eyes focused on a handsome stranger. Long black hair, light gray eyes and very kissable pink lips. Even in my drunken state, I could see the way his eyes were heavy and settled on me. He held my hand and drew me close. “Come with me, let's get out of here.” Everything in my head was telling me no, telling me to not go with him but I wanted to live my life at least one night. I threw my head back and swallowed the last shot of vodka. “Lead the way, hottie.” I don't know how the hell I got to the car or how I got back to the pack that night but I know that I put my trust in the hands of an absolute stranger, letting him do as he liked with me. “Give me your permission.” He was already on top of me with my shirt off and panting very hard from our heavy make out session. I was feeling extremely reckless when I replied. “I followed you here. Do with me as you like.”ALINA“What?!” The word tore out of me before I could stop it.Lisa glared at me, and I clamped both hands over my mouth. I shook my head, trying to suppress the horror crawling up my throat. I didn’t want to imagine what would happen if Alexander found out. I was already caught between disaster and ruin.Once he learned all the things I was keeping from him, I wouldn’t even get the chance to exhale before he decided I wasn’t worth the trouble.“What are we going to do?” I turned to her, panic tightening every muscle in my chest. I genuinely didn’t know.“I don’t know.” Her voice cracked, and it sounded like she was seconds from breaking. I suddenly realized I was making things worse. She had come to me for comfort, not another wave of panic. And here I was, piling on fear.I’d never been good at fixing anything.“After what Jane pulled, I’m sure Alexander is looking into everything. He’s not just angry that I got hurt. It’s the fact someone got into his pack, past all his protection.
ALINAI found Lisa staring at the window, her legs folded beneath her and knees oulled to her chest. I didn’t know when I'd fallen asleep. The last thing I remembred was sitting in the spot for what felt like hours, drowning in thoughts about all the possible ways Alexander would react once he learned the truth. Both truths.There was no real way out of this. Whatever option i might think of definitkey neded in me being dead.I pushed that fear down and walked to where Lisa was. She hadn’t even realized I was awake, so lost in her thoughts, which was completely unlike her. And I hadn’t seen her since the day of the explosion. Jane mentioned she had been sent off on some kind of assignment. Something about the way she looked now made me forget my own problems.I placed a gentle hand on her shoulder, and she flinched hard like I’d hit her.“Sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you.” I gave her arm a reassuring squeeze. She nodded and offered me a smile. Or attempted to, rather. Her lips barely
ALEXANDERKillian wouldn’t just get on with it. I expected that from him.He had to be a little shit first. I’ll admit I was surprised when he said we should jump straight into it. Normally, he prefers theatrics. All that drmataic shit. It's how he made it this far. Not by being the strongest, but by being the most terrifying brand of patient.If you pissed him off, you’d never know. If you betrayed him, he’d invite you to dinner like nothing happened. Then, you’d start to feel hot. Chest tight. Your lips numb. By the time you realized he’d poisoned your drink, it would be too late. And Killian? He’d sit there and watch. Smile on his face. That same bored, lazy one he always wore. Watching your final moments like you were entertainment.His last words are always the same, at least according to his victims. “I didn’t give you life. But I can end it.”Honestly, I think hearing that as you die might just be worse than the dying part.“Before we leave—” I began, and he groaned like I’d st
ALINAI cleared my throat and looked down, my thoughts tangled with everything that had happened and everything still happening.Now didn’t feel like the right time to tell him James was my mate. Not when the first thing he’d done was reject me.I remembered the jolt of hope I’d felt when I first realized it when I believed it meant I’d finally be safe and protected. That he’d shield me from the whispers, the stares, the cruelty of the pack.But he hadn’t. He’d rejected me.Whatever flicker of excitement I’d felt in that moment, I couldn’t feel it anymore.I must have taken too long to speak, because Alexander shifted beneath me with a sharp sound between a growl and a sigh. I’d forgotten I was still on his lap, and when he stood, I almost fell.But he caught me before I could hit the ground. His arms wrapped around me. For a split second, I hated how safe I felt there.Once I was balanced, he turned and started to walk away.Panic surged. I couldn’t let him leave like this. Maybe it
ALEXANDERI didn’t expect Alina to want to hear about what happened so soon. Not after everything. But I needed answers. I needed to hear it from her lips before I could decide what kind of punishment to hand down to that mutt. And if it was left to me, death wouldn’t cut it. That would be far too generous and too easy. What I wanted for him didn’t fall anywhere close to easy.But she looked like I might be the one to hurt her. Like she wasn’t sure how I’d react. And that pissed me off more than anything.I wasn’t angry at her. I was angry with myself. Because something I had done some version of me that I had let slip through had left her believing I’d ever turn that anger on her.I took a breath, grounding myself. This wasn’t about me. It was about her. Her fear. Her safety. How she was feeling. And I had to remember that.“He didn’t do anything,” she said, her voice low and tight, her eyes fixed somewhere on the floor. I didn’t believe that. But I held back.I reminded myself again
ALINAI opened my eyes slowly, blinking against the soft light filtering in. The first thing I saw was the doctor watching me with a strained kind of worry, like she was waiting for something terrible to happen.My head throbbed. My eyes felt dull and heavy. For a second, I thought I was still dreaming. I hoped, actually. Or maybe I’d slipped back into yesterday. Maybe I’d wake up again and nothing would be wrong.But everything was still wrong.And it wasn’t a dream.“Oh, good, you’re awake.” The doctor exhaled, her shoulders slumping in visible relief. “You scared me there for a moment.”I didn’t respond. I was still waiting for her to laugh and to say she was joking or that there was a mixup. That this was all some kind of bad misunderstanding. But she didn’t.Instead, her face softened, lips pressing together before she spoke again. “You shouldn’t be worrying yourself, okay? It’s not good for you. Or…” she hesitated, “for the baby.”That confirmed all my greatest fears. I froze.E