We all have our vices, bad habits we can't seem to kick off no matter how many times we vow to let go of them. For example, Ashley will never stop chewing on her nails nomatter how many times Mckayla threatens to throw her an intervention.
Well mine is a little more complicated than that because my bad habit, the one I can't seem to shake off, is Santiago Monroe, twin brother to one of my best friends, Tatiana.
Messing around with socially labelled 'bad boy' Santiago started out as nothing but a harmless game we both enjoyed but now it's become something so secretive that neither of us can define.
Don't get me wrong, I love my boyfriend, he's everything to me. But somehow I always get caught up in Santiago, I can't help it, I have tried.
Speaking of Santiago, he's looking effortlessly presentable while I struggle to make myself look as normal as possible.
Maybe hooking up at school is not such a good idea after all, well the aftermath of it that is.
"I thought you said no more secret school meetings." Santiago says. He's sitting on top of a lab table and in his right hand is a lighter which he won't stop flicking. I think that's his annoying habit.
I stop raking my fingers through my hair and position myself between his legs. "You weren't complaining five minutes ago." I whisper but I know he has a point.
Even though this particular laboratory has been out of service for while now, it's still on school premises and chances of us getting caught are pretty high here.
He flicks his lighter again. "I'm not complaining," he says as his other hand strokes my face. "I don't care where we meet, you know that."
"I do." I say against his mouth. "And this was nice, our morning fix." I add just before I kiss him.
"I want to see you tonight Genesis." He says into my mouth, using my last name like he always does.
"I can't, I'm studying tonight." My voice is a breathless whisper.
"How about tomorrow night then, or even today after school." He sounds desperate which is not unusual for him when it comes it comes to me.
"Sorry lover but I can't." I break up our kiss. "Tomorrow we are having a slumber party for Kristen's initiation and I have plans after school today."
He frowns. "Initiation? Are you some kind of a cult now?" He asks as puts his lighter into his pocket, finally.
I laugh because it's pretty funny that he would think that. "No of course not, but she's the newest member to our group and Mckayla saw it fitting to throw her a slumber party." With Mckayla it's always go big or go home.
"I will see you around then."
I smile at him. "Yes you will but for now I have to go to class so would you kindly give me back my panties."
Now it's his turn to smirk. "No, I think I will hold on to them."
"Come on, you always do this and at this rate I will end up with no underwear." I complain but I know it won't help my case, Santiago never budges on this.
"I don't mind, I actually prefer you with no underwear Genesis."
I roll my eyes at his comment even though it turns me on to hear him talk like that, especially with his thick accent. "Whatever, suit yourself." I'm about to leave when he abruptly grabs me.
For a moment he just stares at me, his hand pushing my hair to the side. I briefly look into eyes but not liking what I see, I quickly look away.
I don't want this mindless fun to get anymore complicated than it already is.
He leans in to kiss me but I look away. If he kisses me now we will never leave and I really need to get to class, we both do.
However, instead of kissing me Santiago just murmurs, "Eres muy guapa."
I don't know what to say mostly because I have no idea what he just said. "Well, I don't understand Spanish as you are fully aware of but I will take whatever you said as a compliment because you don't have it in you to insult me." I tease him but it's not really because he has a weakness for me, even though he shouldn't.
He chuckles lightly and removes his hands on me. "Get to class Genesis." He slaps my ass as if to encourage me.
I gasp, feigning shock and outrage. "I will get you for that."
He grins at me. "I look forward to it."
"See you in class lover." I wink at him before finally leaving for class.
Fortunately or unfortunately Santiago and I don't interact much during the rest of the day. I don't really care though, because I'm too busy trying to suck up to Nicholas to concentrate on anything else.
Nicholas is still pretty pissed about the whole sex tape ordeal and for some reason I'm at the receiving end of his rage. Somehow he has convinced himself that I'm mostly to blame and I have had to put up with his tantrums and rude behavior.
And when he's not being cold towards me, he's avoiding me and not even being subtle about it, outright telling me that he doesn't want to see me.
I feel like he's slipping through my fingers and that really scares me, way more than anything ever has. Despite my shenanigans, I really love Nicholas and losing him is not an option because it would destroy me.
Which brings me to tonight, tonight I'm going all out for my boyfriend. I'm to surprise him by showing up at his house, wearing one of his favorite things, lace, and I'm going him the best night of his life. As angry as he may be, Nicholas will never reject me, so I will use that to my advantage. It's almost ironic that sex is going is going to solve our problems because a sex tape is the reason we are having problems in the first place.
I really can't wait for tonight, but first I gotta get through this dump day.
Speaking of this dump day, from the corner of my eye I spot Billy Kane approaching me as I'm taking out some of my books from my locker.
Given how popular I have been lately with the tape and the stupid bet, it's no surprise that brainless idiots like Billy are constantly hovering around me. But it's no big deal, I can handle them.
But Billy being Billy doesn't even use words to get attention, instead he grabs my ass and he isn't even secretive about it so everyone around us notices.
Ok, so now I'm pissed. No one touches me without my permission. "What the fuck Billy?" I shout, not even caring that I'm attracting a lot of attention to myself.
Billy doesn't even look remorseful, he actually looks proud of himself for pulling off that little stunt. "Oh come on Maxie, from what we saw from your little video we know you like it rough." He continues to laugh with his friends.
He's trying to show off in front of everyone at my expense but I'm not going to allow that. "Yes, I like it rough," I say it loud enough for everyone to hear. "But with a real man and not a little boy like you." I say even louder and again everyone laughs, except this time they are not laughing with Billy but at him.
Billy's face hardens. "What?" He spits outs the word through gritted teeth.
"What I'm saying dear Billy," I give him my best smile. "Is that girls like to talk and rumor has it you come up a little short."
More laughter erupts around us but Billy isn't having it, in a fit of rage, he pushes me against my locker and traps me with his body.
"Listen here you little bitch," he snarls angrily. "I can easily have you, with or without that bet. Boys like to talk too and rumor has it you are easy."
"Fuck you." I spit in his face but before he can do anything about it, he's aggressively pulled off me.
As relieved as I am by the fact that there's now some distance between Billy and I, I am however alarmed by the way my boyfriend is currently pounding his fists into Billy's face.
I have always known that Nicholas has a temper and that he can be extremely jealous, I kinda love that about him, but I have never seen him like this. It's like he's snapped, finally beating out all of his frustrations onto someone.
"Nicholas stop!" I try to stop him. As much as Billy deserves this, I don't want my boyfriend to get in trouble.
But Nicholas doesn't even to me, he's too busy punching Billy. I turn around to look at Billy's friends who are also witnessing the fight. "Do something before we all get into trouble!"
It takes three boys to pull Nicholas off of Billy. And knowing my boyfriend as well as I do, I know that he's still not entirely satisfied with what he just did so I position myself infront of him to prevent him from doing further damage to Billy's face.
"Let go of me!" Nicholas huffs, harshly shaking off the boys holding him back.
They wisely let him go and start to walk away from us, much like everyone else. The fight has died down so there's nothing else to see. I'm not really paying attention to Billy but I can hear him groaning and swearing as he walks to class with his friends. Well, at least the principal didn't anything otherwise Nicholas would be in so much trouble.
"Ok, so what was that?" I ask now that we no longer have an audience. "Why the hell would you pick a fight with Billy Kane?"
"So you know his name huh?" I can tell from his tone that this is not going to end well.
"Of course I know his name." I hiss out. "And you do too because we have classes together."
Nicholas's face hardens. "It seems like you are well acquainted with everyone here, especially the boys."
I sigh. "Nick don't do this."
"It's bad enough that every guy at this school has seen my girlfriend naked but to see you entertaining every guy who's hitting on you is just the last straw for me."
"I wasn't entertaining....." I try to defend myself but he cuts me off.
"You were practically flirting with him!" He shouts. "But then why am I surprised? It's what you do, you will do anything for attention. You are probably the one who filmed us and leaked the stupid tape just so you could be the center of attention!"
His words hurt, mostly because I am sort of an attention seeker but I would never film myself having sex just for attention. "You are being unfair." I tell him, tears simmering in my eyes.
"Maybe." His tone has changed a little. "Or maybe this isn't working anymore."
My eyes widen in shock at his words. "What?"
"I'm done Max. I'm not doing this anymore."
My heart thumbs. "Are you breaking up with me?" I ask, desperate for him to say something, anything other than us breaking up.
"Yes." He says and tears spill from my eyes. "It's over."
Nicholas doesn't wait for my reaction. He walks away from me and I'm left all alone, too stunned by what just happened to even consider following him.
So much for my plan to seduce him tonight.
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