Chapter 1 Jess

I'm so glad college is done! Professors let us out early today too! Guess I'll head over to the apartment I share with my boyfriend. We've been together since I was 16, moved in together at 19 right after I started college. He's in an MC. 

His real name is Ray, but his MC name is Reaper. It's Friday and tonight there will be a big party at the clubhouse. I pulled into the driveway and saw his bike. After I let myself inside, I heard giggling. Ok, let's get this over with. 

I went into the bedroom expecting to see my boyfriend with another woman of course. But no, the fucker has 2 women. Ok, yes, he's hot and sexy. Probably the only reason I put up with his shit so long. Plus he was the first guy who ever really paid attention to me, and he was my first crush who took my virginity. 

But he is a man whore who can't keep it in his pants. He's been able to keep me from catching him, until today. And his other flaw, when he gets drunk, he's a pure asshole. He's never hit me, but he has grabbed me and left bruises.

"Oh, hey baby, want to join the party?" Reaper asked.

"Sure, let me grab something first." I replied with a grin. 

I went to my purse. I got my best friend then walked back into the bedroom. I cocked the gun and everyone on the bed froze at the sound. 

"Now you bitches have 30 seconds to grab what you can and get the fuck out of my home before you take a trip to the morgue!" I said calmly. 

They stare at me like they don't understand English, so I fired a shot at the headboard of the bed. I hate it anyway. Reaper bought it so I'll be glad to get rid of it! They grabbed their clothes and took off running. 

I heard one whispered "crazy bitch". Yep, that's right.

"Now baby just calm down." Reaper said as if talking to a child.

 I aimed the gun at him and cocked it. "I'm done with your cheating, lying, no good for nothing, sorry ass! You've got 20 seconds to get out. And you can come by later to pick your shit up from the front lawn, after I tell Daddy of course." I aimed the gun at him.

"Let's not get carried away, baby." He stuttered.

"Don't call me baby asshole!" I shot the floor between his feet. 

And had I not been so mad, I’d probably find the whole situation funny. The way he jumped and the look on his face, priceless. His eyes grew big and he grabbed his clothes and ran out the door naked. Afterwards, I heard his bike start up and leave.

I grabbed my cell. "Hey daddy".

 "Princess finish classes?" Dad asked.

 "Yep. I just threw Reaper out." I explained.

 "What did he do?" He sighed.

 "Naked in my bed with 2 whores! I'm done this time for good. I've given him too many chances. He may be good at helping you but he's a lousy ass boyfriend". I explained.

 "I just want you happy and safe." He replied.

 "I'm throwing all his shit outside. Give me an hour and have one of the guys come with him to get it. He's not coming back to this apartment." I demanded.

 "Ok honey, I understand." He chuckled.

"Bye daddy." I responded and hung up. 

I grabbed all of Reaper’s shit and threw it out the window. Luckily, our bedroom window faces the street and the tiny yard we share. It's only a 4- apartment building so it's not large. I called the locksmith to change the locks and the security alarm people to change the code. After the locks were changed, I got ready for the party at the clubhouse. 

No way am I missing it because of his no-good ass. I need to blow off some steam. I have to admit, some of his brothers have been looking mighty fine lately. Paybacks a bitch! Hope he's ready to be on the other end of watching his ex with another man.

Thank God I didn't agree to be his old lady as the club calls it. The sad part is I'm actually more relieved than hurt. Of course, no woman likes to be cheated on and made to feel she's not enough. I'm happy with myself. Yes, I am barely a c cup, I have thick thighs, and a big butt, but it's how I'm built. 

I struggled in the past with diets trying to be something I couldn't. But one day my dad told me to embrace who I am and if a guy only loves me for my body, then he's the wrong guy. The right one will love me for me and everything about me that makes me, me! I guess it finally sunk in, because I no longer try to change myself for others.

I got to the clubhouse in my little black dress. Parties in full swing, and I see Reaper at the bar. Ok, let's get this over with. 

"Reaper". I said to get his attention.

"Come to ask me to come home?" He laughed.

"Fuck no. I came to tell you the locks and code are changed and if you want your shit, it's on the front lawn". I retorted. 

The place goes quiet and everyone is watching.

"Now baby why'd you do that? You'll just have to pick it up and carry it back in." He smirked.

"No way, It's over Reaper. I'm done with your two-timing ass. I've put up with way too much shit in the past but I'm over it. I don't love you, in fact I think I hate you. And by the way, your technique needs a lot of work!" I said as I turned to leave. 

His brothers laughed at my last statement. He walked after me and grabbed my arm.

"Unless you want that hand broken brother, you'd best remove it!" Eagle warned. 

Reaper let me go and I walked into the next room where the pool tables are.

"Alright boys, who wants a game of pool against me?" I asked, smiling. 

I'm pretty good, but others are better. Right now, I don't care. There's one brother I'd love to play. Hope he accepts the challenge.

"What are we playing for?" Ryder asked.

Bingo, I said to myself. "Seeing as I am a free woman, whatever you want."

 "You can break." He smirked.

Damn, he’s hot, sexy, and hung. I may have to lose on purpose. But man, what a way to lose! We played and I have to admit I didn't give it 100%, but enough that I thought it wasn't obvious that I didn't put all my effort into the game.

"Eight ball, corner pocket." He smiled. 

The eight ball goes into the pocket and the cue ball comes dangerously close to the edge of the hole. But don't go in, he won. I smile and then look back down at the table. Ryder came up behind me, with his body pressing into mine. He leaned down with his mouth just beside my ear. 

"I know you didn't try your best; I'll need to punish you for that. But since you weren't obvious about it and the brothers didn't seem to catch on, I'll go easy on you." He whispered.

Oh my god, yes please!!! Don't get me wrong, sex with Reaper was good. But not out of the ballpark great. Ryder took my pool stick and laid it on the table with his. Then grabbed my hand and led me out of the game room. 

We had to pass the bar to get to the steps that lead upstairs to the bedrooms. Don't judge me. I've had the hots for Ryder for a while. Just never acted on them. I know it's just sexual. I'll always wonder what if, if I don't see how it is with him.

"Oh, fuck no, Ryder. She’s my woman." Reaper yelled out.

"No brother, she's a free woman, you made sure of that. Ryder responded. 

They stand toe to toe. I heard that Ryder could easily beat Reaper’s ass, and if he would challenge him could take the VP role. But they said Ryder didn't want to be an officer. 

"You want a challenge brother?" Ryder asked.

"Shit, she ain't worth it. " Reaper replied and headed back to his seat at the bar.

Ok I know I’m done with that ass wipe, but that did hurt me. Ryder pulled me to the stairs, and we headed to his room. Soon as we are inside, he pushes me against the door. His face is on mine.

"Don't listen to him. You are worth it. It's him that's unworthy. You hear me?!" Ryder asked.

"Yes." I say breathlessly. 

Then his lips are crushing mine. His hands are everywhere. Mine are in his hair trying to pull myself closer to him. 

"Sheets? Are they clean." I say between kisses.

"Yes. I don't bring girls here. " He smiled, then his mouth was on my neck. 

We manage to get all our clothes off and onto the bed. Our kissing heats up, our hands roam everywhere. My punishment was a couple smacks on my ass. They did sting a little but also ramped up the pleasure too. 

Ryder really knows how to please a woman. Our second round was in his shower. Third on his dresser. Before we finally collapsed exhausted on his bed.

"Damn! I've been missing out!" I laughed.

Ryder also laughed. "Yes, you have. I have no idea why you stayed with him for so long with the way he disrespected you."

"I dunno. Maybe because he was my first. Not many guys seem to pay me attention." I sighed.

"Doll, that had nothing to do with you, and you know it. You could have any brother here. Anyone of them would make you their old lady proudly. And most would be faithful." Ryder explained.

"Even you?" I asked.

"Even me. But we both know this is just sexual." He grinned.

"I know. Want me to go?" I asked.

"Nah, get some sleep. It will make the walk of shame even better tomorrow morning. Hopefully that fucker will get a ring side seat. If not I'm sure the other brothers will ride his ass over it." He laughed.

I smacked his chest and laughed, then we both fell asleep. It was nice to sleep in someone's arms that appreciated me. Someone who wanted me for me and not to get in good with my dad. The next morning, I proudly did the walk of shame right past Reaper. He looked like shit hung over. 

I went home and packed. My two best friends have been begging me for a year to visit. Jade married the Prez of the Hell's Warriors and Paula was the old lady to the VP. Paula doesn’t believe in marriage. Dad thinks I'm going to just get away for a while. I'm going to see if I want to move there. 

I've been under my dad's thumb since I was born. My mom died giving birth to me. Dad never remarried. I packed my black SUV, and headed out of town. My new adventure awaits me!

After many calls and texts, I had to block Reaper. Guess he found out I left. Boohoo for him.

I arrived at the clubhouse for the Hell's Warriors. It’s nothing grand but decent. I parked and texted Jade and Paula, then got out and walked in. Ok so the inside is way better than the outside. 

Not as awesome as dads, but very nice. I walked through the door and let my eyes get accustomed to the darker interior. Just before two squeals holler out heading my way. Jade and Paula almost knocked me down.