Chapter four

Zirah’s POV

Rejected by even death 

"I, Noah Harvey, the Alpha of Red roses pack re..." I held him immediately to stop him from completing his statement.

"Please don't...please... please," I begged him, holding the bed sheets tight.

"I can't accept someone who has a bloody mystic aura around her as my mate. It will spell doom to my pack for their Luna to be cursed." There, he said it. I have heard people call me cursed countless times but hearing from the man who was my mate, the one who was supposed to protect me at all times was like stabbing my heart repeatedly with a hot blunt knife. It hurts so much. My wolf was withering in pain.

"If Noah Harvey, the Alpha of Red roses pack rejects you, what is your name?" He asked me and I kept mute.

"Tell me your name wolfy." He urged me and I kept mum shaking my head continuously, he narrowed his eyes at me.

"I will never accept you as my mate lady, I already have someone in mind to get married to, and you are not going to do anything about it. 

We both know how painful it is for a mate when his or her mate is in bed with another person. Tell me your name and let's end this madness once and for all." His mind was made up and there was nothing I could do to change it. Even the tears meant nothing to him 

"Zirah Oakwood...Zirah Oakwood of Blood Amethyst pack." I sobbed.

"I, Alpha Noah Harvey of Red roses pack, reject you Zirah Oakwood of Blood Amethyst pack as my mate and another half." I held my chest as pain filled my heart.

"Come on, say it, complete the rejection process." He urged me not to mind the extreme pain I was in. 

"I Zirah Oakwood of Blood Amethyst pack rejected Alpha Noah Harvey of Red roses pack as my mate and another half." I struggled to stay in pain and he nodded at me.

"Good, it is done now. I want you to leave right now. I wouldn't want any of my pack members to see even your shadow and even worse, I don't want my fiance to see you." He said, smirking.

"Please it's late, I can't spend the night in the woods, please let me spend the night here and I promise you, I will be out of your life forever," I begged him but he only shook his head.

"I won't repeat myself, I am going to the restroom to wash away your bloody scent from my body and I don't want to meet you here when I am back." He said slipping out of the bed. I could only cry. 

Just when I thought I was free. Perhaps they were right after all, I was cursed by the moon goddess herself. I wondered what wrong I had done to the moon goddess in my past life to be subjected to this kind of life.

With pain, I stood up from the bed, putting on my clothes slowly. My bottom was throbbing with pain. I could hardly stand fully on my feet. I stared at the room for the last time in tears then I turned around. It hurt so much that I was even unwanted by everyone I came across including my mates.

 I dragged my feet in pain as I made my way out of the house. The house was deadly quiet, I silently prayed that no one would see me in this state. I had suffered more humiliation than normal and I don't know if I can handle any more humiliation.

I shivered, teeth gnashing as the cool breeze seeped into my body. In the dark hours of the night, I slowly made my way out of the Red roses pack. Just when I thought everything was going well, just when I thought I could finally be a free being, my hopes were shattered all in one night. 

Not only did I drink myself into a stupor, but I also ended up giving the virginity that I had protected for the twenty-three years I had spent in this life, to a stranger. It didn't end there, I woke up in the arms of a stranger naked only to discover that the man I had slept with in my drunken state was no other person than my fated mate. Who wasted no time in rejecting me immediately after he found out that I was his mate.

 And not only did that happen to me, he practically threw me out of his pack in the dark hours of the night because he was ashamed of me and he didn't want any of his pack members to see my shadow. Not only that, my fated mate happily told me that he was getting married to someone that is not me a few days from now. I swore there and then to never taste alcohol even take a sip ever again in my life.

 If I had rejected the wine, I wouldn't have lost my sense of reasoning and I would have rejected his advances, then he wouldn't have rejected me the way he did and I probably wouldn't have been in the woods vulnerable to any kind of attack, but no, I accepted the drink because I wanted to forget about my misery for a while and it caused me more miseries. 

Maybe, I wouldn't have begged him to take me with him. I would have allowed him to go when he found me in the woods earlier. But it was of no use crying over spilled milk now. The deed was done and there was nothing I could do to turn back the hands of time.

"Can today get any worse!!" I screamed out loud in the woods. I soon got my answer as I felt raindrops on my skin. I looked up and noticed the change in weather. I searched slowly, dragging my feet for even the tiniest bit of shelter but there was none. Who was I kidding? There were no shelters in the woods.

The sky gave way and there was a heavy downpour of rain. It was as if the heavens were angry and had planned to kill me in the cold rain with cold. If so, then I am tired of fighting for my life. I tried to reach out to my wolf counterpart but there was no response. 

She had withdrawn from me. She probably took most of the pain of the rejection process and withdrew to heal herself. I am an Omega so the pain of the rejection might have killed me and my wolf took the pain, it probably won't show up for weeks or months, or even years. Omegas heal a lot slower than normal werewolves. They were sometimes even compared to humans. Pathetic! Even my wolf counterpart had left me. Why then was I still alive?

I sat down as the rain beat me like I had done something wrong to it. I was shivering and the cloth I wore did little or nothing to cover me. Alpha Noah had torn my clothes away from me before he pounced on me. 

His name tasted like a bitter drug in my mouth. My heart was still in pain. I curled myself up as I waited for death to finally take me away. I was tired of this world and I wouldn't mind if death took me away now but even death had rejected me.

I felt hands on my body and I was lifted in no time but I couldn't open my eyes. Hell! I didn't want to open them. My eyes were too heavy. I was moving but I was not on my feet. That was the last thing I remembered as I fell into a deep slumber that I wished I had never woken up from.

 If I had died in my sleep then probably I wouldn't have woken up to meet the worst disgrace of my life. My life would have ended there and then. I wouldn't have dwelt with the pain. I would have avoided a lot of things.

 But then again, not everyone was given the grace to wish for things and I was surely among the set of people that had no power to wish for anything.  Maybe if a fairy had appeared to me in my dream and asked me to make a wish, then I would have wished for death to take me away and end my misery but then again, people like me don't attract fairies, we probably scare them away with our bloody aura. Even if death refused to take me then who in their right sense will accept me?

I woke up to the dawn of a new day much to my dismay. I expected to find myself curled up under some tree shivering and neck hurting not to wake up on a king-sized bed covered with bedsheets.

I was naked! I turned in horror to look at the man that held my waist. Deja Vu!

The heavens were bent on destroying my life and at the same time making sure that I stayed alive.