AUGUST
The star-crossed lovers. That phrase might sound really superficial and whimsical at the very same time. I would even call it an overstatement but that’s what people call Rachel and me now. Everybody treats us almost as if we were that one couple in almost every romantic movie that has gone through a series of unwanted and terrible circumstances and still being destined to meet in the end. Everyone at school were palpably hyped up about my relationship with Rachel that it has gotten to a point that we are about to have a fan club. This was all, in full honesty, just an over exaggeration purely because of the fact that we are basically a normal couple.
A month has already gone and passed and my relationship with Rachel is smoothly sailing across the ocean. We haven’t really had a major fight that’s worthy gossiping for except for our constant bickering about inconsequential stuff. Perhap
AUGUSTSitting right in the middle of everyone, I was watching the screen go idle. Everyone’s busy looking for a certain song to sing and although I would love to help them all out, I remembered I’m acting the straight guy up in here. I should just probably let them pick and choose whichever song they would like. It’s about to get dark anytime soon but the lights in this private karaoke bar is just bright enough. I looked around the entire room and everything doesn’t look that much expensive anymore. They’re really that quite expensive but perhaps the main reason why they all looked normal to me is because I’ve been seeing and checking them every single time that I come here.I sat down quietly on the couch as they flipped the song book. After fifteen minutes of just flipping the pages left and right, they were finally finished listing a short list of songs. Some of these son
AMBROSE Today’s about to turn into something interesting for me. At least that’s what I’m highly hoping for and when I say highly hoping I meant I had so much expectations. Having the whole night all to myself made me realize about this undiscovered magic that I didn’t know I was yearning for. I almost feel like I’m traveling into a new world and I’m all curious about its hidden wonders. I have come to realize that this indescribable feeling is not the definition of confusion in any way. In fact, this feeling is what they call attraction. It’s not the typical type of attraction that I already know and recognize but it’s a different form of attraction. I didn’t know that until I had all the time to myself. This is humiliating to admit but I talked to myself as if I’m a crazy person. The silence of the house wasn’t that negative in all fairness. It actually made my heart and mind talk to each other like they were the best of friends. I have made my decisions based on what my heart and
AMBROSEFocusing on class was the hardest thing to do. I know I’m not the brightest student here in Mary Heights High and that’s another big problem. My grades are hanging on a thread. I should be sitting here with both ears open and eyes up front instead of staring outside the window. I know I will eventually see August today, that was the only thing that I was thinking of, but the overflowing anticipation seemed to be disemboweling me.“Haylock!” Mrs. O’Riley called for my name forcing me to snap out of my head.“Yes,” I spat almost immediately.“Your mind is flying again,” Mrs. O’Riley said calling me out and all eyes are pinned on me. I heard a few people laughing and I just had to shut them down instantly. I looked around giving them a dead stare and they all ceased from laughing.“I’m sorry,” I spat almost e
AMBROSEMy hands were already bleeding as I continued to punch the wall with such unwarranted anger. I don’t quite remember climbing up inside here but I am inside our turf at the abandoned part of the school. I was so upset by what happened at the cafeteria that it had forced me to walk out of the situation as soon as possible. I don’t know what has changed inside of me but I was quite surprised that I didn’t jump right into the already occurring ruckus. Perhaps I don’t want to get involved but that sounded so much absurd. I have every reason, most probably every right to join in with the fun but something was just keeping my body from jumping right in. If this was before I discovered my newfound feelings for August, I would’ve probably exploded like the most active volcano in the whole wide world. I would’ve even ranted like a raging bull aiming for that red waving garment. This would&rsq
AMBROSEOverkill. I guess that’s how I would describe everything that has happened so far. It was wild to think that a month had already gone and passed ever since Rachel and August became a couple and they’re only getting stronger. They were like the star-crossed lovers and everyone was just talking about them like they were some celebrity couple. Everyone at Mary Heights High thinks they were the hottest and the most perfect couple of all time. And I guess, if I wasn’t stuck in my current situation, if things didn’t happen the way they did, I would’ve probably agreed that they were the definition of perfect. Rachel Curtis was definitely every boy’s dream, wet or not. She’s sizzling hot not in the most obvious way, it’s the way she carries herself, the impeccable grace and her sweetness that’s making her hot. She’s also smart and rich. August on the other hand, was very c
AMBROSEThe presence of loud upbeat music was completely encouraging in the most unexpected moment. I haven’t been to a party for too long to forget what it feels like, but this vibe was utterly nostalgic. I don’t know why does it feel that way when there hasn’t been a year since I last attended a house party like this. It’s still too early for the real party to start but everyone’s already starting to catch the feel of the upcoming night. People started flooding minute after minute and I wondered why Marlon seemed to have invited everyone at school.I was sitting at the couch and everyone who’s invited were already hyping up as the music continued playing in the background. I suddenly felt like I want to immerse myself along with the few people that I recognize. I saw Phil by the fridge and he was talking to this girl wearing a sky blue spaghetti strap and a red mini skirt.
AUGUSTI have never been disgusted by myself this much. Kissing Rachel for the nth time doesn’t fail to make me feel awful at myself. The kiss was good if I was being honest but adding my true sexuality into the mix makes it unbearable. The worst thing was I have to hide my abhorrence. Playing the straight guy was exactly the opposite of what I’ve been watching on films. There are a lot of straight actors playing gay roles on television and they seem very much convincing. They seem to be enjoying making out with another guy.“CHEERS!” Rachel was already screaming at the top of her lungs as we all raised our shot glass in the air. She has totally transformed into a whole new different person but I perfectly believe that’s pretty normal most especially when you’re under the influence of alcohol.All four of us poured the vodka down our throat in unison. I w
AUGUSTThe drive towards Marlon’s house was surprisingly not that long. I almost thought we just turned around two blocks. It looked like it, but the drive took about twenty minutes even when it’s already late and there aren’t many cars on the road. This was probably one of the good things about living in a normal town like Mary Heights. The streets and the roads aren’t that much crowded as early as eight in the evening.I was growing a little bit nervous about Rachel sitting right in front of the steering wheel. She was evidently drunk, we’re all evidently drunk and no one’s quite that sober to take over the driving job. I don’t even know how to drive myself which was a total disappointment considering the fact that driving’s becoming more of a skill requirement. I kept my eyes on both Rachel’s hand and on the road making it sure that we don’t crash a