How Could She Be?

If I push him down the stairs, what will happen?

Is it possible that I can divorce him?

Could I go to jail?

If I go to jail, can the stress I feel disappear quickly?

Drrttt!

My cell phone rings.

Eve!

I call her name in my heart. Eve, she is the lover of the person who married me.

"What else? Why are you walking so long? Get fast!" he asked.

He is Bima. He scolds me as usual.

He is the person who married me because of a certain incident. He hates me as well, probably to the bottom of his heart.

Yet, at this time, both of his legs are paralyzed because of an accident.

"Eve called me," I say.

“W–what?” Bima seems to be shocked.

"Your lover called me, so wait a minute, I'll pick it up!" I say it very furiously.

"Let me hear between you two!" He asks with his facial expression still the same as usual.

The look of disappointment on his face because his lover left him and because he must marry me as well.

I smile faintly. Actually, it hurts to be continuously ordered from there and from here.

The man who married me orders me to be his maid. His lover also orders me to make him remind her as always. Thus, my mother-in-law orders me to nurse his son very well, and at least also my mother, she pushes me to be a good wife to my husband’s family for the sake of my father’s business.

They all seem to have no empathy for me.

It’s like a slave or something like a fool who has many masters to be served.

How shit this life!

"Huh.. what?" I ask Eve.

I answer Eva’s call, the lover of the man who has been married to me for two years.

Anyway, I don't think of him as a husband at all because during my marriage, he always treats me like a maid. I’ve never been considered a wife as people do.

"How has he been, Dear?" Eve asks me.

I smile, surely knowing she asks about Bima’s condition.

"Why not just ask him directly instead of me?" I answer her, as usual, my tone hearing curt because I have to.

"You yourself know that he is currently losing his memory, right?”

Fool, I wonder how long you all will be pretending not to know.

"He never loses his memory. I've told you many times he doesn't lose his memory, why don't you just confirm it yourself by contacting him directly, huh? Why does it always have to go through me? Eve, I’m tired at all.”

I'm still trying to control my emotions facing Eve who is always controlling and asking me about Bima's condition. It turns on, making me sick of it.

Once again, all this is maintained for the sake of my devotion to my mother who really loved my father even though her body and soul were completely destroyed.

"Rima, think about your mother!" Well, Eve treats me for continuous time.

"So you are threatening me?" I ask furiously.

"When the time comes, I will definitely contact Bima again yet now is not the time,”

I, who can't stand listening to Eva's excuses, hurriedly end the call.

I turn slightly towards Bima who is sitting in a wheelchair. Bima's eyes are red from holding back anger.

He must have been disappointed because the lover he loves so much never wants to meet him.

"Your voice is too loud, if mommy hears it, I will finish your life!”

Not only Eva, Bima is also threatening me now. They are as egoistic as they want.

I immediately push the wheelchair that Bima is using.

Yuph, the man who married me is paralyzed in both legs after an accident. As a result, his marriage to Eva was canceled and he was forced to marry me so that his mother would not be sad and suffer.

There is a certain reason why I agreed to marry a rude man who always thought of me as his maid. This rude man also always pretends to have lost his memory in front of his own mother and thinks of me as Eve, his lover.

For him, I am Eve, he married Eve not me. His wife is Eve. He will say to everyone that my name is eve.

I’m really going crazy to face him.

Even though he states that I am Eve, that doesn’t mean he considers me equal to Eva. He doesn't want to love me, doesn't want to consider me as his wife and doesn't want to be good to me.

He only thinks of me as Eva's substitution.

"Oh My Dear!” The sound of a woman is heard from the main door of the home.

"Has Mother come?"

I push Bima's special wheelchair down the stairs slowly ahead of his mother’s position.

Well, should I just push Bima down so that my life can be free from this torture and pain?

'Just push him down… just push down, just let him die!' That’s what I desire.

I don't know why my little heart whispers such things.

"Aahhhh… ahhh…ahhh!"

I am shocked when I hear Bima scream out. His parents rush to run up the stairs.

"Bima... Bima... what's wrong with you, Darling?"

My mother-in-law comes to hug Bima who is moaning in pain in the middle of the stairs, while I stand with eyes full of satisfaction even though it isn’t actually me who causes Bima to scream in pain.

"My leg... get my medicine, Eve!" Bima shouts at me saying Eve's name because that's how he usually calls my name in front of his parents.

A little satisfaction in my heart seeing him in pain so that I lazily walk towards his room to get medicine.

"Get Fast, Eva!" My mother-in-law shouts at me.

Whatever, I let her yell and keep walking lazily.

I still really want to enjoy the screams of pain from the man who is always rude to me.

****

"Get medicine, get me for it!"

After his parents are told to go home, Bima is finally free to shout at me as he pleased.

He throws the medicine bottle until it hits my head. Though it's just a plastic bottle, his behavior still hurts my self-esteem.

"Eve said the medicine will arrive soon," I say.

I pick up the bottle that Bima threw off the floor and put it up on the table.

"Where is the courier? Quickly ask Eve and pick up medicine!"

Bima never stops shouting at me even though he is groaning in pain.

'Feel it!' That's what I say to him then I rush out of his room.

"Hurry up, you fool, Damn woman!”

That son of bitch will never stop cursing me.

Just keep cursing me. I don't care anyway.

I've been married for two years with insults and my heart is numb.

"Eve, send me the courier number!" I ask Eve when she answers my call. “Bima gets pain!”

"Get fast, You Bitch!!"

I let Eva hear Bima curses at me so that she will be satisfied.

Well, that's proof to Eve when I have succeeded to make Bima always remind her and not to love me.

"How does it feel to be insulted?"

Damn woman, that Eve looks happy hearing Bima curses at me.

"Just send the courier number!”

****

For some reason I don’t want to speed up the speed of the car I am driving just after I meet the courier at the crossroads.

I want Bima to keep screaming in pain. Let him feel that pain until he dies, maybe.

However, if he dies, my mother probably will suffer even more and I won't be able to bear to see my mother’s death.

My mother is stubborn and impossible to convince. She is a person who always feels that her actions are the most correct. She is very selfish by sacrificing her own child to get what she wants in her life.

Drttt!

Drttt!

Dozens of missed calls from Bima. I know, if I pick it, he will definitely curse at me again and over again.

Sriitr!

Brukkk!

Ugghhh!

"What's this?" I shout in a anger.

I hold my head, and I see blood flowing from it.

"Sorry... sorry, I accidentally bumped into you!"

Knock...knock...knock...

Damn, I feel dizzy when I hear the sound of knocking on the car window but I still open it.

Then I end up unconscious.

"Sis... Sis... wake up!" I don't know who shook my body, but never mind, I just want to sleep for a long time after feeling tired of taking care of the man's illnesses for so long.

****

Ahhh…

My heart feels very calm even though my head hurts. Maybe because I haven't slept this well for a long time.

I slowly open my eyes then take a deep breath.

That's right, I remember. I had an accident on my way home to pick up Bima's medicine.

How will Bima's condition be without medicine? Is he dead?

I chuckle softly, a faint smile on my lips even though I knew that in the future my life may be much more difficult.

"Now that you're awake, let's go to the police station!"

"What?"

I am shocked to death when I hear the voice of someone I don’t recognize.

I turn my head, I look at him.

He is a man wearing a white coat and glasses.

His face is bright and his body is tall and sturdy. He is handsome and handsome.

"What is this? I was the one who was hit, why should I be the one taken to the police station?" I ask him.

My eyes teary and I shout angrily at him.

I don't care about the pain in my head, I sit still and glare at him very angrily.

"You are carrying illegal drugs illegally. These drugs cannot be carried by just anyone."

This man is a doctor. He shows me the medicines I receive from Eva.

I confirm the medicine again.

That's right, that medicine is definitely the medicine that Bima has been taking for his whole life.

"What's illegal? That's medicine to treat my husband's paralyzed legs, right? The medicine comes from abroad and my husband often takes it." I'm angry with him.

"Treating paralysis?!" The doctor smiles bitterly. "It's the opposite."

"What?"

"People who consume it can actually be permanently paralyzed."

My mouth is agape, my heart also is beating fast because I never think Eva's intention is to give medicine to the man who really loves her.

"Let's go to the police station!"

"Le– let me explain to you, please give me a chance to explain!" I asked, struggling.

How could Eve do this to Bima?