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“Open the door. I only want to talk.” He retorts.
I opened my mouth and before I could say anything I started hearing pounding downstairs.
“Come open the door,” he said again. “I know your dad is not here so he’s not going to get mad that I’m here.”
I slowly stepped out of my room and for a second I hesitated as I made my way to the front of the door. When I opened it I saw Chris standing there and that tight feeling in my chest came back that made it hard to breathe. I tried to breathe through my nose as I watched him put away his phone once he saw me and walked in casually. I looked at him and noticed that he was around to reach a hand out to me, but I took a step away from him.
“Don’t,” I said, already out of breath.
“I’m just here to say I’m sorry,” he said as he reached out to grab my hand again and took it. “I sobered up and I realized that I didn&
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