A few weeks have passed and I’m finally fully healed. Nora has given me herbs to help prevent pregnancy even though there is no guarantee it will work, but at least we are trying. We’ve decided along with Crane that if I do fall pregnant and let's be honest with the way Killian summons me to his chambers I’m bound to. We will keep it a secret and they will help me escape. I don’t know what Killian would do if he found out I was pregnant. I doubt he wants a bastard. Most kings and other nobles don’t want to have a bastard with their slaves. Especially, when Killian hasn’t chosen a Luna Queen yet.
I dread the day he does. I know his future wife is going to hate me for being his sex slave. That’s what he’s training me to be. He might not have said it, but he is. Wives often hate sex slaves and mistresses. I haven’t even thought about what I’d do if he claimed a mistress. My fear is he will make I
Today the soothsayer comes to visit. There are none left in this kingdom as George had them killed. He didn't like the idea that someone could be the future. He didn’t like that they could read special stones and see what the person asked. No, George didn’t like anything that was different from him. Today is also the day Clara comes to court as my slave and not a princess. I have prepared fairly modest clothing for her. It’s a little low cut and will show off her breasts. I’m looking forward to seeing her in what I’ve prepared for her. She will look beautiful, I know it. Then I will take her back to my chambers and tear the clothing off her as I enjoy my sweet angel's body. Heavens she does things to me. So many things. Her kindness, her mind, and her body all make her so attractive and beautiful. I’m so happy she is mine, all fucking mine. I don'
“What is it?” I ask as dread creeps inside my body. He looks up at me with somewhat sad eyes. “You have already found your Luna Queen, but you are losing her. If you don't stop her darkness you will lose her in the most tragic way possible. You must stop her from hating you. If her once admiration of you turns to hate, you will never get her back. You must save her from the hell you put her in. Oh, Alpha King, what have you done to her light? Her light is dying as the darkness consumes her. ” He looks back down at the stone then at me. He’s talking about Clara. I know he is. She admired me? I’m losing her like Nora said I would. “You killed her hope, her dreams, and now she feels there is nothing left. She’s lost everything and she will descend into her darkness, her demons will take her from you soon. They have already begun to consume her fragile mind. Her light is fading quickly. She
For the rest of the day I lock myself in my study trying to think of ways to save Clara, to un enslave her, to right my wrong. It’s never been more clear to me now that Clara is indeed Claret. The reason I was so drawn to Claret is because she was Clara. She was fated to me by the fates themselves. It explains my pull to her. Why I want her to myself. Why she satisfies my desires like no woman ever has. She was always meant to be mine, but not as my slave. She was meant to be my Luna Queen, my wife, the mother of my children. I always knew I was favored by the fates. I was told that from childhood, long before Goerge enslaved my people. Now, I risk losing their favor. My mother would be so disappointed in me as she is the one who told me I was favored by the fates, she was the one who told me I would be a savior, she also told me I would do good with my life. I risk losing everything because I was b
Approaching the double doors the guards open them and then announce my presence. Silence falls in the room as I walk in. Whispers begin as I make my way to my thorne. Nora wasn’t lying. The room is set up for an introduction. In the middle of the room is a table. Near the table is another table set up with whips, chains, rope, nipple clamps, and other things used in a slave introduciotn. They set up the room exactly how we originally planned the introduction. No doubt they were planning to carry out the horrors we had planned and I’m sure they added new ones as well. Emmett and Iris stand near the table with ten warriors around them in a semi circle no doubt waiting for their turn to rape the former princess. No wonder the soothsayer pleaded for the fates to intervene. Now I know why he was in tears and begging them to stop showing the horror. Standing
Nora had explained to me what a slave intorduciton was and I almsot faitned. Thank heavens Killian didn’t make me go in there. Perhaps he’s not as horrible as I thought. Nora and I are sitting in her room while we wait. Thankfully, we didn’t run into anyone on our way back. I’m anxious waiting to see what happens. Who would set the Alpha King up? Who would go against his orders? Killian didn’t seem happy. I have no idea how long it is before Killian finally comes knocking on Nora’s door. He’s summoned me to his bed chambers. Nora wants more information, but Killian insists he will tell her later. Nora has no choice but to accept that. I know she isn’t thrilled about it. Following Killian to his chambers I’m nervous. I don’t know what’s going to happen. Maybe he’s here to tell me I have to do the slave introduction. Heavens I hope not. I try not to
The next morning I awake in Killian’s arms. He’s still sleeping. I don’t think I’ve ever seen him sleep. Even when he let me stay in his room as a slave I don’t recall seeing him sleep. I remember him saying he didn’t sleep much. I wonder why. In his sleep he looks peaceful. I run my finger down the scar on his jaw. He’s so handsome. I always thought he was. My knight has finally come to me.I smile thinking of being his wife. I know I should be apprehensive. I shouldn’t trust him so easily. I know I should hate him and I was starting to. I really was starting to hate him, but now it’s fading away. I also know my darkness lies to me and I know it makes me feel things that aren’t always true. Like how it makes me feel unloved, alone, and unworthy.My hand goes to my neck to make sure I didn&
I can't believe Killian made me his new Beta. I can't believe I have such a high postion in our kingdom. It's honor, and something that is beyond my wildest dreams. I never realized Killian held me in such high regard, or that I had proven I was worthy of such a postion.My family would be proud of me if they were still alive. I know Clara is proud of me. I'm happy her and Killian were able to work things out between. It's a relief not to have to worry about helping her escape. I really didn't want to leave my kingdom. I like it here, but I would have left if it meant Clara was safe. Thankfully, Killian has finally seen reason.Unfortuanlty, Emmett and Iris betrayed Killian. I feel for Killian. I can't imagine that level of betrayl from two peoeple I trusted with everything. Emmett is also Killian's family, that has also got to sting. I don't know how Emmett could have been so blind, and to do something so foolish. Not to mention risky. Why would he could a
Clara hasn’t figured it out, but she is pregnant. Her scent began to change a few days after I decided to elevate her from my slave to my wife. I decided I won’t tell her. I want her to figure it out on her own and she will. She should have started bleeding by now, but I think she is wrapped in planning our wedding which is next month. We are rushing it because the sooner we are married the sooner we can start going about our plans. We’ve already begun drawing the idea for her school. We are going to do so much good for this kingdom. Clara has moved into what is now our bedchambers. She has a fresh new wardrobe of pretty dresses even though she will need new dresses as her belly grows. I’m still thrilled that she is pregnant with my child. The fates have blessed us. To have an heir so quickly is indeed a blessing. My body shivers thinking what would hav