Chapter 4

Feelings

“How‘s your date with Shuhn anak?” Daddy asked while reading newspaper and sipping his coffee.

It‘s seven o‘clock in the morning, we just got home from Aklan. The trip was long and tiring. I yawned, I want to sleep more. Crying helped me last night, I got rejected. Iiyak lang ako pero hindi ako susuko. 

Nagulat ako nang nakita ko na naka upo si Shuhn sa couch namin sa sala. Naalala ko ang hitsura ko at tumakbo papunta sa kwarto para mag ayos.

Nang matapos ako mag ayos ay bumaba ako at hinarap siya. 

“Bakit ka nandito?” I asked, sabay taas ng kilay habang naka pamewang. 

"That's not how you treat a guest Rhiedly. Where's your manners?" Dad semonized, and look at me with a warning. 

I gulped, Dad's not in the mood for a joke time. 

“We still have our last date, right?” he added, he look at me boredly. 

“You rejected my confession yesterday and you expect me to go on a date with you?” I replied, and rolled my eyes. 

He sighed, and faced me.

"Then where's your 'I'll teach you, I'll do anything for you to love me. Do you think I'll give up that easy? No. I'm way more than that' line yesterday? he said, mimicking me. 

I heard my dad chuckled, parang hindi nag-sermon sa akin kanina. 

"Wala sa lahi natin ang ma-reject anak," Dad said jokingly. 

Shuhn stood up and held my hand, he opened the car door of his BMW.  The exterior screams luxury, from its design, color and features. It lends the vehicle an exciting elegance from every angle. 

The design gives an impression of a vehicle  sculpture formed from a single mould. Clearly-defined cut-outs free side view to the prominent frame of kidney grille, reinforcing the impression that it extends further into the vehicle interior.

It‘s interior is rich and roomy and it has sizable trunk. His car is sporty any time but luxurious and practical. It has blind- spot monitoring, hands-free passive entry a head-up display, heated steering wheel, larger touch screen and more. He sure doesn‘t know how to keep a low profile. 

“You good?” he asked. 

I nodded, then he start the engine. He drive smoothly and caressed the steering wheel like a basic ride. Our road trip got me tired. I didn‘t notice that we arrived. 

He take a glance at his watch and pointed the beach in front of us.“That‘s the exact time when you confessed to me yesterday, right?” saad niya na ngayon ay nakatingin na sa malayo.

“I-I didn‘t remember,” 

“I got interested in you Rhiedly. No one did that kind of effort to me. Only you, you made me curious about you. I want to see more of you,” his face is serious and sincere.

Napalunok ako dahil sa sinabi niya, I‘m speechless, my plan worked. He appreciated it. But, he said he doesn't feel the same?

"But, you rejected me," I muttered. 

“I want to know you more Rhiedly, I can‘t tell if I like you or do I feel the same, for now,” he explained.

"Look, I'm scared to love again, I've had enough from my ex. I don't want serious relationships, I just want to enjoy my life as a bachelor. In that way, I'm safe. My heart is safe if I'll stay that way Rhiedly," he continued. 

Now I understand what he said yesterday. There‘s a chance that he will like me.

"Then I'll help you, don't hold back. Don't prevent yourself from falling in love, especially to me. You're safe with me, I won't hurt you nor do the things that your ex lover did," I assured him. 

"If ever you fall for me, we'll announce our marriage to our family," I declared. 

"Fine," he agreed. 

The next days are quite busy for me. I couldn‘t visit him at his company because of my busy schedule. So I decided to surprise him along with my home cooked lunch meal for him. 

I walk into the elevator and press the highest floor, his office is there. I knock the door three times.

“Come in,” he commanded. 

I opened the door, he‘s sipping his coffee while looking out at the window.

“What a view you got there Mr. Wilson,” I complimented. 

He hugged me from behind and sniff my neck, “You‘ll enjoy this view from now on, my wife,” he replied using his soft voice. 

I froze. My wife, he called me his wife. I turned to face him, “What did you say?” I questioned. 

“Why? You‘re my fiancé, and we‘ll get married soon, right?” he answered while tasting the food I made.

“As soon as possible,” I firmly said. 

“Did you made this?” aniya habang patuloy sa pag kain.

“Yeah,” I said calmly. 

“It tastes good. Let‘s get married for the next two weeks,” he replied while enjoying every bit of the food I cooked.

We announced our decision in a dinner party at the Wilson‘s mansion. They were very supportive and happy about it. Shuhn and I were busy preparing for our upcoming wedding. We bought a simple house where we‘re going to live after we get married. 

Finally, I feel so loved. Shuhn takes care of me, he‘s faithful, he never entertain other women and he‘s proud of having me. I hope this is the start to achieve my dreams and goals with him.

We choose an American style type of house, our house was designed and constructed by our engineer and architect close friends. We postponed our wedding because I got a hard time of bearing a baby. I couldn't get pregnant. We tried different procedures, treatments and medicine to have a baby. We will try everything we can do before we resort to our last option, which is adopting. We want a baby from our own.

I hope he won‘t leave me because of this. If only I knew from the beginning, I could've been get treated before we met. It could have been easier to get pregnant, I want to have kids with him so bad. We cope up by thinking that this is just a challenge to our relationship. We’ll get through it for sure.