Chapter 19: Rayne.

After what happened in my room that morning and helping Lance into the house that night after he returned so drunk, he could barely stand, I keep my focus on working in the yard and avoiding him.

Focusing on work is the only way to distract me from thoughts of how his touch felt on my skin. I have never experienced anything like it and when I consider that he is the first man I have ever been intimate with in that way, I feel a mix of exhilaration and sadness.

I need to move on past him or he is going to succeed in breaking me.

That intimate moment in my room weighs heavy in my heart. I messed up, I let down my guard and did the one thing I swore not to do. But his reaction still came as a shock, I never expected him to be so cold toward me afterwards.

The more I think about it the worse I feel because no matter how perfect the moment was, it hasn’t changed anything between us for the better.

So, no more feeling sorry for myself. I cannot let