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FINAL YEAR The beginning of the end. As I stepped into the hallway of Bennington college, I grinded my jaw, the sharp pain that rose soothed me strangely. Students gathered in clusters, talking over each other. The chaos felt new, even when it was the same as always, at the start of a new semester. “Hey bitch!” Someone bumped into me, shoving me with her elbow. I turned, trying to steady myself. “Allison, I genuinely am not in the mood for this!” I groaned. She only scoffed and held my shoulders, steadying me. “You are never in the mood for anything fun.” Her eyes glowed with a poorly subdued excitement, “this is our last year in college, Natalie! You've got to live a little!” I squinted my eyes at Allison, my best friend since sophomore year. “What difference would it make?” “See, this is what I'm talking about. You always go on and on, talking about some doom and gloom. Not anymore! You're coming with me to the party tonight!” I sighed, as we walked towards our lockers. “Allie, I'm really not in the mood for parties.” “You never are, Natt. Come on! This is our final year! After this, we are practically strangers,” she bounced slightly, grabbing onto my hand, her eccentrics making me chuckle, beside myself. “Allie, we are not going to be strangers after school. You'll go ahead to become a hot shot reporter and get yourself your ‘Clark Kent’ and live happily ever after.” I rolled my eyes, smiling as I could see her paint the image in her head. “Yes but still!! We have to live life to the…” she trailed off then, looking around her. “Hey, do you think people are staring at us?” I noticed it then. The halls were so much quieter, and we were indeed getting stared at. “Why are they all looking at us?” She whispered. I scratched my nose in thought, a habit I had yet to stop. There was a small gathering in front of my locker. A small wave of panic rose in my chest. “What's going on?” Allison's chirpy voice was gone, replaced by a quiet wondering. “Wait here.” I dropped her hand, and walked towards the crowd. The sea of students parted, revealing an older man standing in front of my open locker. I looked at his suit, his graying hair and his expensive watch and decided he was someone important. “What's going on? Why...” I asked. Panic was now a bitter taste in my mouth. The man looked at me, his eyes analysing, then he looked back at the locker. “Are you the owner of this locker?” He asked me, lifting his right-hand up. It was then I noticed a small bag. I tried to swallow, it was a pitiful attempt. “Yes, why?” “And are you Miss Natalie Mayers?” I nodded again, the lump in my throat made it impossible for me to speak without sounding like a child. He looked at me, turning his body to face me fully. “I am the associate Dean of this faculty, Miss Mayers. This boy here gave us a little tip that you were harbouring controlled drugs in your locker.” Controlled drugs? My eyes shifted to the man standing beside him. He looked like a jock, tall, blonde and stupid. He had a lazy smirk on his face but I could see through it. He was scared. “Are you listening to me, Ms Mayers? You've been called to the board for questioning. Please come with a doctor's prescription to defend yourself. Note that while these aren't illegal, they shouldn't be circulated within the school.” I nodded, though I didn't hear all he said. The bitter taste was gone. In its place was the irresistible urge to smack that smile off the boy's face. My fists clenched by my side. I looked at the boy, his fake confidence drained till it was just fear shining in his eyes. “Do you understand me?” The Dean spoke again. I only nodded again, not certain I could speak without hurling myself at the man. “Good. Your hearing would be at the end of the month. Goodluck.” And then he was gone. The whispers of students were now getting to me. They were becoming more audible. I looked at the blonde boy that was trying to walk away and I couldn't hold back anymore. I lunged in his direction, shoving him to the lockers. The crowd erupted, then quietened, waiting for the next move. “Whoa, easy, tiger!” He exclaimed, his voice breaking a little, the only sign of his fear. “Who are you, and what the hell did you plant in my locker!?” I pressed my knee up against his nether regions, twisting my legs till he let out a painful groan. “Please I'm sorry, I was just following orders from my boss!” He let out the pained whisper, through his gritted teeth. “Boss??” I echoed, blood pounding in my ears. “I'm just a freshman, please! He told me to plant the drugs in a random locker! I didn't know who you are, it's nothing personal, I promise! It was a task to join his frat house, please!” I looked at him, watching his face turn red in pain and then, I twisted my legs again. He almost doubled over, a tiny sob escaping his mouth. “Who is this ‘boss’ of yours?” He leaned back against the locker, his eyes scanning the hallways. “I can't tell!" "He said nothing would happen to you. It's just a panel probe. You won't get expelled!” He pleaded again. I twisted my legs. “Who. Is . Your. Boss?” He paused, then let out a whine. “Kian… his name is Kian Lawley.” I finally lifted my legs, watching him drop to the ground. Kian Lawley. I knew that name. My eyes scanned the hallway, shifting from one unknown face to the other. I saw Allison, rushing to me from where she was at, but my eyes kept looking. Then, at the far end of the hall, leaning against the wall, surrounded by laughing jocks and preening girls, I saw him. Kian Lawley. The literal King of this school. His eyes were already on me, a lazy and relaxed smirk on his face. My legs froze in place. He stared at me, not flinching. His dark hair flicked in every direction, like he just rolled out from bed. Just when my legs decided to work again, he winked, turned and vanished into the crowd.Natalie's pov By the time I got home, I had replayed Louis's conversation in my head so many times that I was beginning to hate the sound of my own thoughts.I dropped my bag on the couch and sighed.“Rough day?”“Fuck!!” I screamed, holding my chest, startled out of my mind by the voice.I turned around in the direction of the voice, to see the culprit.Kian was standing in the doorway, holding a glass of water.I collapsed on the couch in relief, cradling my head in my hands.“Do you enjoy appearing out of nowhere?” I sighed tiredly.He took a sip of water, slurping loudly, much to my annoyance.“Do you enjoy being dramatic?” he asked, shaking his head at me.I rolled my eyes and walked past him.“Where are you going?” he asked, taking just a step after me.“Upstairs.”“Why?”I stopped halfway up the stairs and looked over my shoulder. "Because that's where my room is?”He stared at me for a second, then squinted his dark eyes at me, leaning his head forward at me.“You're in a moo
Natalie's pov “I want to talk about us, my love,” Louis said, adjusting so he was closer to me.I immediately became more attentive.“What about us?”He swallowed, then paused and looked around. Then he cleared his throat.“We've been together for a while now,” he began.“Yes.”“And…”He stopped.I waited, feeling my patience thin out really quickly. I started pinching off the cuticles of my fingers in anxiety.“And we haven't really…”His voice trailed off.“Haven't really what? Just speak up, Louis,” I said tiredly.He laughed nervously.“You're really making me say it?” He asked, groaning rather gently.“I genuinely don't know what you're trying to say.” I pointed out, mirthlessly.He looked at me for a long moment.“Intimacy.”My face heated immediately.“Oh.”“Yeah…” he trailed off again.I looked away, feeling extremely embarrassed.He continued quietly, “I mean, we've kissed once or twice. We've done all the cute couple stuff.”I smiled despite myself.“Cute couple stuff?”“You
Natalie's pov I stared at the message for a few seconds, standing in the middle of the hallway as I reread it again.Louis: We might need to talk.My stomach tightened in anticipation and anxiety. Messages like this don't sit well with me. My mind has been jumpy the past few weeks.I typed quickly.Me: About what?The typing indicator appeared almost immediately, then disappeared, before it appeared again.Soon a new message popped into my phone.Louis: Can we meet after your next class?I hesitated before replying, humming softly as I considered my answer.Me: Okay.His response came almost instantly.Louis: I'll find you.I put my phone away. Kian was standing a few paces away from me, watching me with a mild interest on his face. As I came closer, the interest morphed into a quick bored expression.“You're quiet,” he said, “must be important.”“I just got a message, is all. It's no big deal,” I said, clearing my throat. Kian nodded knowingly.“From Mozart?” he asked, like he alr
Natalie's pov “Natalie…Natalie…. Natalie!!”Kian's voice snapped me out of the reverie I was in. He was looking at me, his eyes widened in …concern? Worry?? I couldn't tell. The warmth on my shoulders made me aware that his arms were still on me.I felt my face get hotter, and I cleared my throat awkwardly, trying to regain the smallest shred of normalcy I could muster.“Are you okay, weirdo?” He said, his voice a little tight, even as it was tinged with amusement. I shoved his arm from my shoulders, letting it drop away from me.He barely moved.“You're annoying,” I said, feeling anger rise at the awkwardness of the situation.What were you thinking?!“So I've been told,” Kian said back, completely oblivious of whatever turmoil I was going through.He looked down at me for a second, then, unexpectedly, he smiled.It wasn't his usual arrogant smirk. It was small, almost genuine.I stared at him.“What?”“You are genuinely so odd,” he said to me, shaking his head.“You're the one s
Natalie's pov After a few days, everything felt normal again. At least, normal enough, our routines were back to how it used to be. This morning, as expected, Louis was waiting for me outside the library when I arrived on campus.He smiled as soon as he saw me.“There she is.” He said, leaving the wall he was leaning on and coming to me.I smiled back,“Why are you always waiting for me?”“Because I like seeing you,” he answered without missing a beat.“That is a very cheesy answer.” I mocked him.“And yet you smiled, so it's a win for me,” he shrugged with a smile.I rolled my eyes, but I couldn't stop the small smile from staying on my face.He reached for my hand,“How's your head, genius?”“Fine. I just needed rest really,” I said, falling into step with him.“Really?”“Yes, doctor.” I teased againWe walked toward the main building, our hands loosely intertwined. Nothing felt wrong.Louis was still Louis - Sweet, affectionate, a little too attentive sometimes.But normal.He ask
Natalie's pov “...what do you think about Louis?” Allison paused, her face contorting in confusion.“What do I think… in what aspect?” She asked.“What do you think of both of us in a relationship, of him as a person… just tell me what you think in entirety,” I clarified, leaning closer to her.She leaned back in her chair and studied me.“You really want my honest opinion?” she asked.“Yes. Why would I ask if I do not?” I sighed, looking around the class.“All of it?” Allison asked again.“Yes, Allie.”She nodded slowly. “Okay.”That one word immediately made me nervous.“I like Louis,” she began.I relaxed a little, smiling widely.“I actually do,” she continued. “He’s sweet to you. He pays attention to you. He makes you smile. And, most importantly, you actually seem happy around him.”I looked down at my hands, feeling heat rush over my face. I knew by now I was already a bright red.“I am. He makes me so happy,” I agreed.“I know,” she smiled,“You’re different with him.”“Diff
Natalie's pov That was it.I knew I wasn't going to let it slide this time.“Excuse me?” I asked, unable to help myself. My mother kicked me lightly underneath the table.I ignored her, I could feel my ears get hot. I clenched the spoon in my hands, trying to keep the emotion at bay.“You are wel
Natalie's pov “Must I be there?” I muttered, my voice coming out small.True to her word, before the end of the day, I was roaming the halls of a building fit to be called a palace by the sheer ridiculousness of its size.My mother was also nowhere to be seen, and I was led into a room by a man wh
Natalie's pov “Did he say 'the' Kian Lawley set you up?” Allison said, her words coming out breathless. I didn't reply. I ground my teeth, repeatedly counting my right fingers. “At least you won't be expelled. It's just a harmless prank, Natt.” “A harmless prank?! Allison, I was framed!” I s
Natalie's pov The shelf at the Dean's office was filled with awards and plaques… all in shades of brown and grey.I looked at the door, sighing inwardly to myself. My mind was already made up as to what to ask the dean.Where might he-“Quit acting like a trapped squirrel.” A voice snapped beside







