LOGIN“Relax,” Jake murmured against my ear, his hand warm and possessive at my waist. “If you grip my arm any tighter, people will think I’m dragging you in here against your will.”
“I am relaxed,” I lied, forcing a smile as the bass from inside the hall rattled through my bones. “This is just my face when I am relaxed.”
He laughed in a low and confident manner, the kind of laugh that made people turn before they realized why. “ Just do better. You’re doing great, Lila, by the way. Just do better, trust me.”
Trust him.
The word settled strangely in my chest as the doors to the hockey hall swung open and light spilled out like a living thing.
The music hit first. Loud. Pulsing. A rhythm that seemed to crawl under my skin and demand movement from me.
Colored lights flashed overhead, bouncing off banners with the team’s logo, off glass cups, off bodies already pressed close together. The smell of perfume, sweat, alcohol and anticipation blended into something dizzying.
Jake tightened his arm around mine and stepped forward like he belonged here, like the room had been waiting for him.
And just like that, people began to look at me differently.
Not as Lila Brooks from the literature department. Not as the girl who always had flyers tucked into her bag for student council meetings.
But as someone chosen by a man sexy as hell.
I lifted my chin and walked in with him.
“See?” Jake said, leaning down so only I could hear. “Easy.”
I let out a breath I hadn’t realized I was holding and laughed, the sound shaky at first, then calmer after a few seconds. “Don’t get cocky. We just crossed the door.”
Inside, clusters of couples stood everywhere. Arms slung around waists. Fingers laced together. Heads bent together in private conversations even with the music screaming over them. I caught snippets as we passed.
“Did you see their jerseys this season—”
“—freshers don’t even know how lucky they are—”
“—my boyfriend plays defense—”
Each word scraped at the old insecurity that I was familiar with but Jake’s presence helped me to be calmer. He moved in close, murmured comments about the lights, the DJ, the drinks table already surrounded by people.
He smiled at me like it was easy, like flirting was second nature, and when he brushed his thumb over my knuckles, my stomach flipped despite myself.
We stopped near the drinks table and he handed me a cup without asking what I wanted.
“You remembered,” I said.
“Orange punch,” he replied. “You mentioned it.”
I stared at him, surprised. “You actually listen.”
He grinned. “I have my moments.”
I took a sip and almost laughed again, giddy and light in a way I hadn’t felt all week.
Maybe this could work. Maybe just for tonight, the lie would hold.
Then I saw my brother.
Mason stood near the edge of the room with a couple of his teammates, his presence grounding even from across the hall. His eyes found me instantly, relief flickering there before his gaze dropped to Jake’s arm around my waist.
The relief vanished immediately.
His jaw tightened and is brows drew together. He took a step forward.
Oh no.
“No,” I muttered, tightening my grip on Jake’s arm. “Not now.”
Jake followed my line of sight, amused. “That your brother?”
“Yes,” I hissed. “Please don’t say anything stupid.”
“I’m offended,” he said lightly. “I only say stupid things when provoked.”
Mason reached us in a few strides. “Lila,” he said in a voice that sounded careful and controlled. His eyes stayed on Jake. “Didn’t know you were coming tonight.”
“I told you I might,” I replied quickly. “Mason, this is Jake, my boyfriend.”
The word boyfriend felt strange and thrilling at the same time on my tongue.
Mason’s gaze sharpened in response. “Boyfriend?”
Jake stuck out his hand like this was a business meeting. “Nice to meet you.”
Mason hesitated just long enough to make it obvious, then shook it, his grip firm. “Mason.”
“I’ve heard a lot,” Jake said smoothly.
My brother’s eyes flicked to me. “Really?”
“Yes,” Jake continued. “All good things.”
I shot him a warning look, silently begging him to stop talking. Mason looked like he wanted to interrogate him like the way a police cop would interrogate a criminal but instead he glanced at me again.
“You okay?” he asked.
I nodded too quickly. “I’m fine. I’m having fun.”
He searched my face, then sighed. “Alright. I’ll be around.”
“I know,” I said in a voice that was softer now. “Thanks.”
He gave Jake one last look that was unreadable before stepping back into the crowd.
Jake watched him go, his lips twitching. “Protective.”
“You have no idea,” I said.
He moved closer to me. “And who was the other guy staring holes into my back?”
My heart skipped. “Who?”
Jake tilted his head subtly. “Tall. Quiet. Looks like he’s judging the entire room.”
I followed his gaze without meaning to and there he was.
Ethan.
He stood near the bar, hockey jacket open, arms crossed loosely over his chest like he didn’t need to take up space to command it.
His eyes were on me, steady and unsettling, not angry, not amused, just looking at me intently. Like he was trying to understand something that refused to make sense.
I looked away first.
“No one,” I said too fast. “Just… someone I know.”
He was my best friend’s brother and my brother’s best friend but I wasn't ready to say that.
Jake chuckled. “Sure.”
I felt heat crawl up my neck. I hadn’t spoken to Ethan all week. Barely exchanged words beyond polite hellos when we crossed paths. And now here he was, watching me walk in with someone else like it mattered.
It didn’t.
I told myself it didn’t.
Jake tugged me toward the center of the room and the music seemed to grow louder as we moved. He danced easily, confidently, pulling me close, spinning me once just because he could.
I laughed, real laughter this time, and for a moment the noise and the lights and the bodies faded into something almost magical.
“See?” he said again, his breath warm against my cheek. “You belong here.”
I wanted to believe him.
We talked. We danced. People smiled at us, nodded in approval, some girls whispering as Jake moved closer to say something that made me laugh again. He flirted shamelessly, fingers tracing lazy patterns at my lower back, mouth brushing my ear as he spoke, and I played my part, leaning into him, pretending my heart belonged to him.
Every so often, I caught Mason watching from across the room, his expression wary but resigned at the same time. And every time, without meaning to, my eyes drifted to the bar.
Ethan hadn’t moved much. He talked to people, laughed occasionally but his gaze kept finding me. When our eyes met again, he looked away first this time, jaw tightening and something sharp twisted in my chest.
I tried not to think about it.
“The party is… intense,” Jake said, handing me yet another drink.
“That’s one word for it,” I replied.
“Lots of unspoken tension,” he added. “I can practically taste it.”
I snorted. “You’re imagining things.”
“Am I?” He smiled like he knew better.
The DJ’s voice suddenly cut through the music, loud and crackling. “Alright, alright, listen up! You know what time it is!”
A cheer went up around the hall. People clapped, whistled, couples pulling closer instinctively.
I smiled deeply as I realised what was going on.
“The couple dance,” Jake said, eyes lighting up. “Here we go.”
I laughed in response. This dance was what I had been waiting for all night.
The lights dimmed, shifting into something slower, warmer. The first notes of a familiar song drifted through the air, softer but no less commanding.
Around us, people turned toward their partners, hands finding waists, shoulders, necks.
I looked up at Jake, nerves fluttering wildly. “Ready?”
“Give me one second,” he suddenly said. “I need to grab something.”
“What?” I asked with brows furrowed in surprise. “Now?”
He leaned down and kissed my cheek in a manner that was quick and light. “Relax. I’ll be right back.”
Before I could respond, he slipped into the crowd, disappearing between taller bodies, darker jackets.
I stood there, momentarily frozen, drink in my hand. The music swelled and soon, couples began to sway.
One second, I told myself.
Just one second.
I scanned the room casually at first, half-expecting him to reappear with a grin, maybe a joke about timing.
I shifted my weight, stepped slightly to the side to see better.
Nothing.
A couple brushed past me, laughing. Someone bumped my shoulder and apologized. The space around me began to close as pairs drew together, leaving pockets of emptiness where single bodies didn’t belong.
My heart thudded faster.
I craned my neck, eyes darting toward the drinks table, then the entrance, then the hallway leading to the restrooms.
“Jake?” I called, my voice swallowed by the music.
No answer.
I pulled out my phone, fingers clumsy as I unlocked it, scanning the screen for a message that wasn’t there.
Maybe he got stuck. Maybe someone stopped him. Maybe—
A laugh rose behind me, sharp and mocking, a
nd I flinched, suddenly too aware of where I stood.
I was alone while everyone else moved in sync.
I turned slowly, panic creeping up my spine, and whispered to no one in particular, “Where did you go, Jake?”
The dining table for breakfast was silent. Mother was in the kitchen, working her way around, making the best she could make, and going overboard because she hadn’t seen us in a while. She was humming and dancing as she used her wok and her favorite spoon that mostly ended up on Mason’s head than the pot. The kitchen was still the same, although painted, it still had the same old feeling and arrangements, same with the dining table that contained me, Mason, and Ava. After mum introduced her boyfriend to us, last night. Mason just walked past mum and her boyfriend like they didn’t exist and went up to his old room. The Zander's man was kind of nice, he forced a smile as Nason walked past him, leaving me to deal with the mess. Ava and I turned to each other speechless. “You must be Lila… I have heard so much about you, your mother won’t stop talking about her beautiful daughter. It’s nice to finally meet you.” His throat was dry, he could barely get his words across but I understoo
“What do you mean you’re not coming with us?” I frowned, holding Penny in my hands. My eyes stayed on Ethan, whose face was glued to the table in his hands. His attention was solely on what he was doing. Is he that busy? “I have a lot to finish, Lila… going home would only add more work. And I need to finish it in time before we begin to practice for our next game which would be around the same time your semester starts. I’m sorry.” He apologized, his face was now turned to me, and he forced a smile. I understand that he had work to do but going home without him there… it won’t be complete. He also deserves this break. It’s my fault he has so much to do. All the while he kept following me for therapy and staying with me, those were times he would have gotten this work done. Now I am going home to enjoy and he is stuck here. “Don’t even think about that.” He sneered, yanking me out of my thought. He frowned. I pouted, “thinking about what?” I feign ignorance. “Blaming yourself
Silence. The only sound I could hear was the meowing of Penny and Jin. Mason was pacing around, his fingers drove into his hair, he took a deep breath, and finally turned to me. “You’re right.” He started. “I am not the best brother and … it’s hard to see you do things on your especially when you always look to me for advice and consent. And I am worried about you… Lila. You’ve grown and I don’t know what you need because you won’t tell me. Because you’d rather talk to Ava and Ethan than you’d talk to me which by the way, I still don’t know when you and Ethan got so close but that’s not the point of this discussion.”Oh… he can’t know about Ethan and me… I’m not telling him… ever. “Do you know how… how stupid I looked and how bad I felt when Ethan called me and told me about the trouble you had with that fucking bastard! Do you know how I felt when you chose to ask Ethan for help and not me? Ethan is my friend and I’m glad that you trust him enough to ask for his help, but I am you
I thought I was getting better. I thought that I had been able to heal to a certain degree but I guess I still have a long way to go. As I stared at the bottle of water that the man handed over to me, I realized there was hidden trauma I hadn’t tried to sort out. Ethan, Mason, and Ava are people I trust with my life, people I believe would never do anything to harm me so I never bothered about being poisoned by them. But this man had no reason to poison me. We don’t even know each other. I know that… I know that the water is tightly sealed and new because there was a pack of water provided by that elderly woman who had also walked her dog. I knew the water was safe but just because he was holding it and handing it over to me, I couldn’t bring myself to take it. I could even hold it just to be polite. He took the water back, “Are you okay?” He asked, “Do I need to call an ambulance?” He asked. I turned to him and shook my head, “I’m fine… You don’t have to.” I said, my voice was b
“That’s the point! There is a difference between hearing and listening, Mason, you hear me but you don’t listen to me!” I barked, my fingers running through my hair, pacing through the space between us. “I… I don’t know what to do.” He muffled, “I’m just… I’m just worried about you.” He added, his voice dropping to a whisper. Hands clasped together, head bowed. I could hear the guilt and worry that ripped through every word he uttered. Let's go back three hours before this conversation. I sat on the stool by the counter, watching Ethan whisk egg for my breakfast. I can’t believe he is actually keeping his promise to cook for me before leaving the house. I mean, Ethan always keeps his word; I don’t know why I am still surprised. “Ah, that reminds me, Ethan, we haven't decided names for the kittens and the dog yet.” I muffled. His broad back was turned to me, but he gently tilted for me to see those arched brows and squinted eyes. “Huh? What’s that supposed to mean?” I grumbled,
Ethan turned to me, his eyes flickering in awe. I just kissed his cheeks. Shit… I was too excited, I didn't realize that I had kiss his cheeks but it’s his fault for being so sweet. “Friendly kiss.” I muffled. His eyes flickered, and flickered and flickered again. “Friendly kiss.” He repeated. “Payment complete.” The red-haired attendant muffled, I turned to her and her eyes were still very much on Ethan. Ugh, I should not have offered for her to get a picture with him. Ethan forced a smile and got his card from her but she didn’t budge, as he pulled, she pulled as well. What the hell? “What are you doing?” Ethan rasped, “Is there something else we need to get?” He asked. “Uhm.. yes, the vaccination, and some other things… but the… picture and autograph.” She whispered Ohhh. Shit… I almost forgot. I turned to Ethan, and he looked back at me, his glare so dark, I could hear his thoughts saying “This is all your fault cupcake.” He sighed, “I’m sorry, I don’t really do pictur
“What happened? Why did you call me when you were already inside the building , did something happen? Did that guy, Jake try to harm you? Ugh, I just don’t like that guy, can’t you just stay away from him?” Ava went on and on behind me as we walked back to our room. “Jake is my boyfriend.” I grumb
I knew he had this violent but I never expected that he would punch Ethan like that. My body was shaking, my hands were wet, my heart was beating faster than a speeding train.Seeing Ethan’s mouth bloody, his cheeks bruised, I shook, and fear consumed me.“Stop,” I muttered, Jake didn’t stop and Et
I found the brakes, and we were in the middle of the road. The cars around us kept honking, and the drivers kept yelling.“If you want to die, get off the road,”“Jump over the bridge or something, you losers.”“Hey, fuck off the middle of the highway!”They kept yelling, and it was obvious from th
“Since when were you a jerk?” I sneered, glaring at him. He paused on my ice cream, eyes meeting mine, searching.He remained silent, almost like he could tell that I was disappointed in him and this had nothing to do with the kiss.Ethan was never like this. He was reserved and put together, he ne







