LOGINThe next semester starts soon. I don’t want to fall behind. I want to resume when school does. I want my life back. It’s been hard, pushing myself out there. Making sure I do not sink in that darkness that Jake created in my life. I want to be who I was before and maybe a little better than that. So I have been listening to a lot of podcasts and watching movies. Taking walks just outside the gate of the house, I don’t go too far. Ethan has been busy with hockey, he has been putting a lot of effort and time back into his career and I am happy for him and my brother. Sometimes I keep forgetting that they are almost professionals and are millionaires. Maybe I should ask for more money. Hmm… I could ask them to go on a vacation with me before school resumes even if it’s just two nights. Yes, that could work. As I said in Ethan’s library… Yes, the man has a library space in the house. So let me give you a quick backstory about this library. When Ethan and Mason decided to buy a hous
I stood outside the convenience store, my legs glued to the ground, my eyes everywhere. I was slowly losing my breath, and I was choking. I couldn’t see anything in front of me clearly, it was just like that night. The night I burst through Jake’s front door and ran in that red lingerie, across the street. Everyone turned to look at me, turning to each other, whispering to themselves, wondering if I was sane. In the world where people do everything and anything for content for social, seeing a woman wear lingerie in public while running, is no issues but no one cared to reach for me. They laughed and pointed at me while my legs bled as I ran faster than I could. Jake is not here. That night happened weeks ago…. I am safe. I am at a convenience store with Ethan. I am fully clothed. No one knows me. It’s just me … it’s just Ethan and me. “You can wait in the car, Lila.” Ethan’s voice, low, barely audible, only because my head turned his voice out. That voice pulled me back, remin
She sat quietly in the chair next to me, her hands on the armrest, fist clenched together, throat bobbed over and over and over again. Her lips parted, letting out soft low breath every seconds. She was trembling, her palms were sweaty, and her forehead had tiny beads of sweat plastered to it. Should I take her home?No, Lila wouldn't have decided to come out if she didn't feel ready to take the next step. With my hands on the wheel, feet on the pedal, I drove, slow and steady, allowing her to take it in little by little. Should I make small talk? “Cupcake?” I called softly. Ugh… what should I say? Uhmmm:.. Think fast Ethan, you have to think of something to lighten the air. “Hm.” she muffled, her eyes still on the road, not sparing me a glance but I could feel her trying to give herself to me, as if trying to distract herself from the thoughts burning in her mind. What was she thinking of now? What part is making her break out in sweat when the car’s air conditioner is almos
“What are you doing?” I asked, softly, stepping out to the back of the house. Ethan and Mason’s house have a huge back, wide enough to be called a field….okay maybe a field is an exaggeration but that doesn’t explain the pillows, the blanket sitting on the floor, or the strands of light hanging on the wall around, or the big white screen in the middle or the bottles of coca cola and orange juice or the tray of cake.Oh, is he expecting some friends over? Is he having a party with his team? My eyes scanned the beautiful arrangement Do; the sun was setting. It would be lovely to join them. Do you think he would let me if I asked?His low groan caught my attention, yanking me out of my thoughts and I settled on him. His fingers dragged through his hair, eyes on me.Huh?“You were not supposed to see this, at least….not yet.” He grumbled, pouting.Huh?Am I missing something?“Did I ….ruin something?” I asked.“Yes, it was supposed to be a surprise.” He frowned.“A surprise?” I asked.He
progress, I think. “I get what you mean,” I said to Zera, her eyes on me, waiting for me to let out the words that got stuck in my throat. “You said I saw him as an anchor.” It took me a while to realize it but she was right. The reason I was able to pull myself up, was because I had people with me. Mason and Ava but the one person who played a huge role, was Ethan. He was always there to catch me, even at his own expense. I learnt from Ava that he is currently suspended from playing because he used force on someone and he was recorded. Turns out it was the day he was searching for Jake’s house to rescue me. “Is it bad?” I asked her, “Is it bad that he is my anchor?” She sighed, “Yes.” Huh? Does that mean I have to let go of him? If healing means that I have to let go of Ethan… I… I “Not entirely,” she said, cutting my train of thought, as though she could figure that I was about to think of something very absurd. “What do you mean?” I leaned forward. “The reason I asked an
The door to the room creaked open, I was sitting in my room, leaning back on the pillow. My eyes were looking out the window, just staring into space. The door creaked open, and Mason walked in with a tray of cake and water. His lips curled into a smile as he placed it on the table next to me. He didn't force me to eat. Ava followed, she sat next to Mason naturally, which snapped something inside of me. The way she sighed and automatically leaned on him. Huh? “Okay, today we are reading this tweet I saw on Reddit… Oh my.” Ethan’s voice yanked me out of my thoughts. “Oh let’s hear it… All of a sudden, this is like one of my favorite parts of the day.” Mason laughed. Mine too. Ethan has been reading tweets and it’s been like a mini podcast in my room. It's not chaotic but it’s loud, only because Ava is very sensitive but I don’t mind. “So there is this girl, who bought a van and decided to live in it but her twin sister gambled and used her sister’s van as collateral. Now, she d
I knew he had this violent but I never expected that he would punch Ethan like that. My body was shaking, my hands were wet, my heart was beating faster than a speeding train.Seeing Ethan’s mouth bloody, his cheeks bruised, I shook, and fear consumed me.“Stop,” I muttered, Jake didn’t stop and Et
I found the brakes, and we were in the middle of the road. The cars around us kept honking, and the drivers kept yelling.“If you want to die, get off the road,”“Jump over the bridge or something, you losers.”“Hey, fuck off the middle of the highway!”They kept yelling, and it was obvious from th
“Since when were you a jerk?” I sneered, glaring at him. He paused on my ice cream, eyes meeting mine, searching.He remained silent, almost like he could tell that I was disappointed in him and this had nothing to do with the kiss.Ethan was never like this. He was reserved and put together, he ne
“Oh sorry, I just had to greet my girlfriend, you don’t mind, do you, Ethan?” Jake muffled, eyes glaring at Ethan who remained silent and annoyingly and extremely composed. He didn’t even flinch.Instead, he turned to me, “See you.” He turned to Jake and glared at him and without having to hear Eth







