"C-Cupid," I stuttered as I called him.
Mabilis akong humiwalay sa kanya ng mapagtanto ang posisyon namin. I can't get close to him anymore because it's getting akward, and.. and I can't stare in his eyes because I'm afraid I will drowned and cannot be saved.
Bago pa siya makapagsalita ay narinig ko ang boses ni Lei.
"Pscyhe!" She called me.
Halos mapa face palm ako dahil sa pagtawag niya sa first name ko. I really hate when people call me using my first name.
She was running towards me, hindi pinansin ang nakatayong si Cupid sa tabi ko.
"Psyche! Did you know? My crush is here! Oh my god, I think, I'm gonna die." She said, over reacting.
Natawa naman ako at napalingon kay Cupid na may maliit na ngiti. He's more handsome when he smile.
"Psyche! Are you listening to me?" Tanong niya sabay wagayway ng kamay sa harap ko.
"Yes, Aphrodite, I am," I answered, emphasising her second name.
"Okay stop calling me that. Call me Lei," she rolled her eyes at me. Tingnan mo 'tong babae na 'to, attitude.
Sa likod niya ay nakita ko si Ryan na papunta sa diresksyon ko. I rolled my eyes because of him.
"Venice, babe, let's talk please. I still love you. Hindi na matutuloy ang kasal," sabi niya paglapit niya sa amin.
I almost laugh, ang kapal ng lalaking ito. Kung ako 'yung babae niya siguro nabaon ko na 'to ng buhay. Babaero masyado. Kahit nasasaktan pa ako ng kaunti ay hindi ko naman masikmura na makipagbalikan sa kanya. If he's seeking for closure, it's fine pero huwag muna ngayon dahil bitter pa 'ko.
"Uhm, I think, mauuna na ako. Bye Venice!" Biglang singit ni Aphrodite at kumaripas ng takbo.
Tatlo kaming matira, Cupid, Ryan and me. I looked at Cupid and I saw him creasing his forehead.
He looked cute.
Pumikit ako ng mariin dahil sa naisip ko. Nakalimutan ko na galing ako sa break up. Ganon ka na kaharot ngayon, Psyche?
I really don't wanna talk to Ryan so I snaked my hands into Cupid's arm at sinandal ang ulo sa balikat niya. Naramdaman kong nagulat siya sa ginawa ko pero nagrelax naman kaagad.
Shit! Bahala na mamaya.
"Actually, I have a date with my boyfriend today and he's so possessive. Sorry can't talk to you," I said kahit hiyang-hiya na ako.
I can feel my cheeks flushing, sobrang nakakahiya ito but I need reason para hindi ko siya makausap.
"Right, love?"
Love, amputa.
I looked at him and smiled fakely. Ang mata ko ay nangungusap na sabayan niya ako.
Please, just this one.
I think he get it naman kaya sumabay siya. He smirked to Ryan, making him more gorgeous in my eyes.
"Yes, we're busy. I don't want my girl talking to other boys, specially her ex." Malalim na boses niyang sabi.
I didn't even notice that I was hugging his arms to tight, napansin ko lang nung nag flinch siya.
Nakakahiya ka Psyche! Kung ano-anong pinag-gagawa mo. I mentally face palmed because of my actions.
Hindi naman makapaniwala si Ryan sa narinig niya. That's right asshole, leave me alone.
He scoffs sarcastically. "Really, Venice? Tatlong linggo pa lang may bago ka na agad? Ganon ba ako kabilis palitan?"
Nag-init ang ulo ko dahil sa narinig. Wow, how dare him talked about getting a new lover when he was the one who cheated in the first place?
"Really? Can you hear yourself? Ikaw nga pinalitan mo na ako bago pa kita hiwalayan, ganon ba ako kabilis palitan?" I mocked his line before looking at Cupid who was clenching his jaw while looking at my ex boyfriend.
Before he even speak again, I raised my hand to stop him. "No, I don't need your explanation. We're going..." I waved my hand before continuing. "Adios, fucker."
Hinila ko si Cupid palayo doon. Saka ko lang siya binitawan nung hindi na namin makita 'yung mukha niya.
Then realization hit me. Bigla akong nahiya kay Cupid, parang gusto kong magpakain sa lupa para maglaho nalang ako bigla.
Akward silence filled us until I cut if off. "I-I... uhm, I want to say sorry for using you, and thank you for saying my ass back there." I was stuterring while talking. Nakatingin lang ako sa lupa.
I slowly shift my gaze from the ground to him. I saw him looking at me.
"He wanted you back?" He asked.
"Ata? Ewan ko 'don. But one thing's for sure. I don't want him back. I don't get back to my ex."
His face was still cold but I can see emotions in hos eyes that I can't name.
"Uhm, is your name really Cupid? Like in greek mythology?" I tried to open a topic, ayaw kong maglakad kami parehas na walang pinag-uusapan. Wala na nga kaming pupuntahan e.
He hummed. "Cupid Clyde, it's my name. I don't like people calling me Cupid that's why my cousins call me Clyde," he explained.
Nagtaka naman ako bigla. "Huh? Then why did you told me na Cupid name mo, d-do you want me to call you Clyde instead?"
He shook his head before looking at me. "No, it's fine. I liked the way you say my name."
Nag-init ang pisngi ko dahil sa sinabi niya. Seriously Psyche? Kinikilig ka niyan?
"But seriously, thank you for saving me. Akala ko hindi mo ako sasabayan." Tumingin ako sa kanya upang ipahiwatig na seryoso ako sa pagpapasalamat.
"Yeah, no problem." He said coldly, ganyan ba talaga siya? Ang seryoso niya magsalita.
"You know what? I'll treat you dinner, how about that? As uh... thank you gift, maybe?" I asked in a small voice.
He smiled a little. "It's up to you, Psyche."
Biglang bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko. I really don't like it when people call me Psyche, pero bakit sa kanya parang ang sarap pakinggan?
No heart, huwag kang marupok. Alam mo kung gaano kasakit ang masaktan.
Naglakad lang kami hanggang sa makarating kami sa tapat ng isang restaurant. I looked at him, tumango naman siya kaya napangiti ako.
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"So you're name's Psyche, like in Greek Mythology?" He mimicked my question. He was looking at me seriously na parang tutunawin ako.
I was a little bit shy, sino bang hindi mahihiya kung may nakatitig sa'yong gwapong lalaki?
I wiped my mouth with a tissue. "Y-Yes, I'm Psyche Venice Azarcon. I don't like people calling me Psyche, it's akward e." I laughed nervously.
Nakita kong natigilan siya. Narealize din ba niyang akward talaga dahil ai Psyche at Cupid ay mag-asawa in greek myth?
"By the way, how old are you?" I asked, diverting the topic.
He cleared his throat, "25, how 'bout you?"
Hmm, 2 year gap, pwede na.
"Nearing 23, kuya," I teased him.
He chuckled. "No, don't call me kuya. Cupid is fine."
Tumango-tango ako. "Hmm, okay." I glanced at my watch and notice that it's already 6 PM. Grabe ang tagal pala naming nag-usap, halos dalawang oras din.
"Uhm, I think I need to go home na. I still have a lot of things to do."
"Hahatid kita," he said before calling the waiter and asked for the bill. Hindi na ako nakaangal pa nung siya ang nagbayad. I should be to pay since ako ang may utang 'di ba?
"Dapat ako na pinagbayad mo, I owe you one, right?" I asked paglabas namin ng resto.
"Nope, I can't let a lady pay for the bill," he said that made me smile. He excused himself for a while, palahatid niya daw sa pinsan niya 'yung kotse.
I looked up in the sky, dumidilim na. Mukhang uulan ng malakas mamaya.
Hinawakan ko ang dibdib ko at pinakiramdaman ang sarili. I felt comfortable with him, ni hindi ako nakaramdam ng kaba kasama siya. Is it because he helped me in times of need?
Kinuha ko ang cellphone ko sa bag na dala ko at sakto namang biglang may humugot dito at tumakbo ng mabilis.
I was shocked at the moment kaya hindi ko agad nahabol ang lalaki. Cupid was busy on his phone that's why hindi niya rin napansin.
Kung kailan uuwi na kami, tsaka pa ako nadukutan!
Wow, just wow! What a great day you have, Psyche.
Then it hit me, my key card was there! Paano ako makakapasok ng condo kung wala akong susi?
I know I can just asked the management for another key pero kasi, pangalawang beses ko na nawalan ng susi, nahihiya ako.
I looked at Cupid and I saw him creasing his forehead, maybe because of what look I have in my face.
"What happened? My car is here already."
I showed him my phone na siyang natira sa akin. I stared at bim. "N-Na snatch 'yung bag ko. It's okay if I have my key card with me, p-pero andun kasi sa bag e." Halos maiiyak ko nang sabi. I don't know where to go now!
Just before he can answer me, biglang bumuhos ang ulan. Nagulat kami parehas kaya napatabi kami sa gilid.
Hinubad niya ang suot niyang coat at pininatong sa ulo namin parehas para hindi kami mabasa. Sabay kaming tumakbo papunta sa kotse niyang buti naman ay nasa may silong.
"Shit! Now I'm wet, I don't have my key card with me and I don't know what to do," I said while pouting. He was fixing himself dahil nabasa siya ng kaunti.
Nag-iisip ako kung saan ako pwedeng tumuloy para sa gabi. I don't have my wallet with me kaya hindi ako makakapag hotel.
I looked at him while he's combing his hair with his hand.
P-Pano kung sa kanya muna ako makituloy? Just for the night?
"You okay?"
Umiling ako bago kinurot ang sarili ko. I'm nervous and shy at the same time, 'pano kung 'di siya pumayag?
"C-Can I stay with you for a night?"
"Her name is Psyche Venice Azarcon. A 23 year old business management student." Inabot sa akin ni Hades ang papel na hawak niya. I looked through her basic informations. Her name, her age, her birthday, and more."Bakit wala siyang picture?" Napakunot ang noo ko.He shrugged. "She really don't post that much. Wala akong makuha. I can't find her instagram account either, hindi naman ako spy."I chuckled on what he said. I tapped his back and made my way out.Hawak ang papel ay sumakay ako sa kotse at nag drive papunta sa café ko. It's Valentine's, siguro ay marami ang costumer ngayon, lalo na sa main branch. My cafe is always special on Valentine's, of course, my name is Cupid.I arrived on a scene that made me creased my forehead . 'Yung lalaki, nag popropose sa girlfriend niya. Tss, nothing's gonna last forever.Imbes na sa harap ay dumaan ako s
Love cannot live without trust. The words you can hear when you talk about Cupid. But how can you trust when they betray a lot of times? How are you able to trust that someone again when they were the one who broke it?Forgiveness. I learned that forgiveness brings back the trust that is once lost. If you're able to forgive, you'll be able to trust again."So how did you do it?" I asked him as I fasten the seatbelt. We're on our way back to the metro after he had lunch with my family.Kasama namin ang pamilya kong magtanghalian. We talked about all the things that happened and I'm glad that my family forgives Cupid. My father asked for our forgiveness as well as him for hurting me. Now, it's all good.He glanced at me as he drive. "Uh, I.." he paused, "I changed my perfume and learned how to change my voice.""Oh?""Yeah, if you remember, I
I'm sipping my wine in the veranda of the hotel room I'm in. Nakatingin ako sa mga bituwin na nasa langit. I wonder what is he doing right now.Nakasuot ako ng black satin nighties and a robe. It's 10 PM here in Hong Kong and this is the last night here. Bukas ng umaga ay uuwi na ulit ako ng Pilipinas.Three month here on Hongkong and focusing on myself really did helped me a lot. Ang isang buwan ay naging tatlo dahil pakiramdam kong mas kailangan ko pa ng oras. Now, I'm on the process of healing.I gained more confidence and I was able to forgive my father. Hindi naman talaga ako galit kay daddy, I'm just annoyed because he didn't told me anything about that.For Cupid's mom, I understand where her anger is coming from. Nagmahal lang siya, and it ruined her. Ayokong dumating sa point na gano'n kaya mabuti na rin sigurong lumayo ako sa loob ng tatlong buwan.
Hindi ko alam kung paanong nakarating ako sa ganitong sitwasyon pero nakita ko nalang ang sarili kong nakasay sa kanyang kotse habang nasa driver's seat siya."Your seatbelt. You never changed, you always forgot to fasten your seatbelt."I scoffed. "I've changed. You changed me," I answered bitterly.Hindi ako nakarinig ng reponse sa kanya kaya itinuon o nalang ang attention ko sa labas. I'm annoyed at him plus the heavy rain that's starting to pour.Bakit ba 'pag uulan, nawawalan ako ng gamit?"I.." he paused, "I hurted you and I'm planning to do everything for you to accept me again."Hindi ako sumagot sa kanya at tinitigan lang 'yung mga ulan na dumadaloy sa bintana.Napapikit ako. This is fcking deja vou. Nangyari na ito dati but a lot of things changed. Almost six years ago, I was on the same seat with the same situatio
Wearing my white and cream asymmetric dress paired with ankle strap platform heels with my vintage chanel bag, I entered the building.Today is Monday, all my employees are busy as they entertain clients. Sa bawat pagdaan ko ay babatiin ako ng mga empleyado na babatiin ko rin pabalik nang hindi ngumingiti.Dumiretso ako sa elevator bago kinuha ang cellphone galing sa bag ko. It is nine in the morning. Ang aga-aga pero busy na agad ang mga tao. I did not even notice that I'm alone here.When it stopped on my office floor, I walked outside. Sinalubong ako ng secretary kong may hawak na bulaklak.Isang linggo na ang nakaraan matapos ang birthday ni Devan and since that week, I've been receiving white roses and americano every morning. Ngayong umaga naman ay may kasamang pancakes.Kinuha ko sa kamay niya ang Americano at pancakes. Good thing I haven't had my breakfa
Mabilis akong umalis sa pagkakahawak niya at naglakad papalayo sa kanya. I don't want to see him, I don't want to talk to him either."Psyche," he called.I stopped and glanced at him, "what?" Kasing lamig ng simoy ng hangin ang boses ko.I saw him hesitating to say something but his eyes were pleading. Hindi ko alam kung para saan ang pakiusap sa mga mata niya at ayaw ko ring malaman."Are you gonna say something?" I keep my face stoic pero sa loob ay halos magwala na ang mga lamang loob ko. I clenched my fist to prevent them from trembling. Nanghihina rin ang tuhod ko at parang anytime ay babagsak ako."C-Can we talk?" His voice is soft as feathers but I know better. Maybe he's just pretending to be like that like how he lied about being my husband.I pressed my lips together. "We're already talking Mr. Monteverde."