LOGINI have never, and I mean never, had sex like this before.
This… this was art.
It was something wild, untamed. We were like two beasts in heat, and there was beauty in that wildness. Freedom. None of us was trying to maintain a mask or a façade. We were absolutely drunk on pleasure, and we were pursuing nothing but that.
Both our walls were stripped away, and nothing existed outside this room. Outside this bed. It was just us. It was just the two of us and this wild pleasure born between us.
I drove my hips forward, slamming into her, my front slapping into her ass, the sound loud and sharp, echoing in my ears like a gunshot.
“Ah, Jackson!” Siri was moaning really loudly, her voice hoarse. “That’s it! Just like that! Don’t stop! Don't you dare stop!”
“I don't plan to stop until my dick is covered in your climax,” I growled as I slammed into her.
“Even then, don't stop!”
Ah, fuckkkk.
After that, not a single word was said. It was just wild fucking, our loud moans and groans.
Siri didn't stop throwing her ass back. She was a force to be reckoned with. She was like a wild stallion, free, and couldn't be tamed.
I wanted to see her face. I wanted to see what face she had on while I fucked her as if my life depended on it, but I couldn't.
Because of the way I was feeling, one look at her face and I would fall apart. I would break into countless pieces, and I wouldn't be able to hold back. I would fall on my knees and beg her to give her heart to me. I would plead until my voice grew hoarse. I would confess to her how much I've fallen, how she had me in the palms of her hands.
I would fall apart, and I wouldn't be able to put myself back together. So I couldn't. I couldn't see her face right now.
“I’m close, Siri,” I cried as her walls kept clenching around me, and I didn't think it was possible, but she was getting wetter. She was so wet that it felt slippery in there, and the sounds it was making… It was dirty, arousing, unfit for ears that weren't ours. “Cum with me, Siri!”
“I’m there!” she responded, her voice raspy. “I’m there. Fuck!”
Her walls clenched down on my dick, trapping me, and I roared as I buried myself in her to the end, my head thrown back. Both our bodies shook, her walls spasming around me, milking every drop out of me. It was so intense that for a second, it felt like I blacked out. My dick pulsed in her, giving her everything I had. My body trembled like I was convulsing, broken sounds escaping my lips.
It was magical. God, it was bloody magical.
The last of my orgasm slipped out with a jerk of my hips, and I pulled out, dropping on the bed beside her.
I stared at the ceiling, blinking rapidly, my chest rising and falling heavily. She lay beside me, breathing heavily.
We didn't say a word. Just lay there in quietness and darkness, our scent mixed together, so goddamn intoxicating.
“Damn…” Siri breathed.
I scoffed. “Well said.”
She turned to me. “You think you can get it up again?”
I turned to her with a smirk. “Let’s find out.”
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The shower was the only sound filling the bathroom as I loosened her braid, ran my hand through it, and let water run over it. She stood with her back pressed to my chest, making a contented sound as I slowly massaged her scalp and the back of her neck.
“I’m beat,” she muttered.
“I’m worse.”
We had fucked three more times after that. We fucked until it felt like my dick was going to peel off. Until our scents merged. Until I didn't know where I stopped and she began.
“That was the best sex I've had all my life,” she said as I washed the soap off her hair.
“Likewise, love.”
She turned her head, looking up at me with a smirk, and my heart kicked violently against my ribcage. “Yeah?”
“Yeah,” I scoffed.
She looked away, but not before I saw her smirk grow. “Good.”
I shook my head with a grin.
After I was done washing her, I turned off the shower, took her hand, and was about to dry her, but she shook her head, making my eyebrows furrow.
“No,” she said as she picked up the soap and then came to stand behind me. “I’m washing you, too.”
My throat tightened, and I was glad she couldn't see my face.
I didn't want this night to end.
Fuck, it was going to be painful going to bed, and then hearing her say I needed to stay on my side of the bed. Or in the morning, when the old Siri was back, putting up walls between us.
I wanted to stay in this moment, and I never wanted it to end. She washed me silently, her small hands all over my body. I chuckled when she squeezed my ass.
“It’s a nice ass,” she defended, even though I didn't say anything.
“Is it, now?”
“Hmm-mm.”
When it was time for her to wash my hair, I had to squat down. As I felt her thighs pressed into my back and her hands massaging my scalp, I felt… helpless. Helpless because when she put her walls back up, there was nothing I could do about it. After showing me this sweet side, I would be left wanting more. Wanting more than she will ever give me.
After washing up, we dried each other off in silence, like it was something we were used to. Then we moved back into the bedroom to get dressed, and my heart dropped.
Well, it was good while it lasted.
I climbed onto my side of the bed, getting under the covers. I turned off the lights.
“Good–”
My words ended in a choked gasp as I felt her roll over and glue her body to my side. She raised one leg and threw it over mine, placing her head on my chest, and her arm across my middle.
I froze completely, blinking up at the darkness.
“Good night, Jackson,” she muttered with a voice thick with sleep.
I swallowed to push the rock down my throat. I held her waist, burying my other hand in her hair, and just left it there. I rested my chin on top of her head, closing my eyes.
“Good night, love.”
Yeah, fuck Toria and her stupid advice. Fuck that happy ending nonsense. Sure, I do want a happy ending with him. I want a happy beginning, middle, and ending with Jackson. All of that and more! Damn it, I had even been thinking of the perfect future together with him. Yes—and fuck you—I’ve been thinking of going somewhere with him, getting a house, three dogs, and maybe one cat. We could live like that for a few years, then get married, and decide if we wanted kids. I'd already mapped out the perfect future, the perfect ending.So yeah… Use him? USE him? How on God’s green earth can I use him when I was in love with him? I was madly in love with that man, and it made me realize that I was never in love with Michael. No. No, I was just in love with the attention and the idea of love, the idea that someone finally wants me. But this painful shit with Jackson? This soul-crashing devastation? Yeah, this was love. This was love in its purest, fucked up form.So how was I going to us
“I thought you might be gone already,” Toria said as we settled into my hotel room. “Jackson already booked my flight,” I said, opening a beer. “I leave in two days.”“Hmm. So what are you going to do till then? Stay cranked up in here?”“Probably.”“I could show you around, you know.”I thought about it for a second and shook my head, sipping my drink. “Thank you, but no.”I had thought about leaving and just going to tour on my own, but every time I thought about the possibility that I might run into him out there, I shook off that thought. Maybe I would have seen him with his hand around another woman’s waist, laughing with the boys and acting like that night didn't happen. But seeing him on screen tonight, I don't think any of that might have happened. I wanted to ask Toria what happened and why he looked that way, but then I might sound like I care, which I very much do, and I wanted to stay cool and keep up this nonchalant act until I was out of here.And so I sipped my drink
SIRIHe… lost. I stared at the TV screen in my small hotel room, my eyes wide, hands squeezed together and pressed to my chest.“He lost,” I whispered it out loud like it would make sense if I did so. I told myself I wasn't going to watch the game, that I would stay away from my screen and just wait for my flight back home two days from now, but I couldn't. I couldn't let the chance of seeing him, even though it was from a screen, slip away. As soon as his team had skated onto the ice and the camera zoomed in on them, my eyes had found him immediately, and I knew something was wrong. His skin was too pale, his eyes looked too sunken, and he kept flexing his wrists over and over, to the point I was sure everyone in the arena must have noticed. And I could have sworn that he was trembling. The game started, and it was even worse. Everything about the way he moved, to the way he could no longer hide his trembling, was wrong. It filled my heart with dread and panic. I couldn't relax a
PRESENTThe smoke of that cigar, laced with a chocolate scent, burned into my nose even though he was across the street. The scent was the same: the cigar lit, resting on his lips, lifted in a smile. A small smile, soft and gentle. Not like that frightening smile he had on his face that night that still sends a chill down my spine. Elijah M’Call still looked the same even seven years later. His black hair was slicked back from his face, dotted with gray. His grey eyes were wrinkled at the corners from age. His shoulders were still broad beneath his tailored suit, and black leather gloves covered his hands.He still looked and dressed the same. Nothing had changed.After that night, I had cut every tie with this man. I made sure I never heard a word from him or received a single penny. I moved into Jacob’s house, and his mother accepted me without a single complaint, letting me stay until I could rent my own place. I didn't speak to my mother for two years after that. She came to my
CONTENT WARNING: This chapter contains references to domestic abuse and may be triggering to some readers. Reader discretion is advised. ~.~“I can think of a few things that can make you quit hockey,” my father said, his voice relaxed, but his face was filled with hell. He stood chest to chest with me, and I fought every instinct screaming at me to lower my eyes, to pull back. I fought them and stood perfectly still, not letting that dark look intimidate me.“What?” I spat. “Are you going to pay the coach to kick me out of the team? Then I'll just find another team to join.”“Jackson, please,” my mother whispered, and that just made my fists clench harder. Why was she calling me back and not her husband? He was the one threatening to take my dream away from me! My hopes for a better future, and still I was the one being called back? Did she really think I would just roll over and accept this bullshit? Bloody no. “That is way beneath me, Jackson,” he said in a low voice, acting li
SEVEN YEARS AGOThe sun had long since set, and the neighborhood was dark by the time I strolled in through the back door, my shoes tied together by their laces and hanging around my neck, my hands shoved into my pockets. Hopefully my parents were asleep by now, and I wouldn't have to deal with either of them. It was exhausting to look into their eyes these days and act like everything was fine when I harbored a little bit of hatred for my father. Okay, maybe it was more than a little bit, but I won’t tell if you don’t. I spent time at Jacob’s house long after practice, then came home and lied through my teeth, saying the coach sucked us dry with practice, which is why I was so late.You can’t blame me. The atmosphere in this house was depressing, and hearing my father whistle while he smoked his cigar, acting like all was right and fair in the world, was pissing me off when I could see my mother was losing weight, when I could clearly see she was losing her shine. She just needed







