XLIX - PROPOSAL

Pagkadating ko sa condo ay napaupo ako sa sofa.

It's... Empty.

Humiga ako sa sofa, at naramdaman ko nalang na tumutulo ang luha ko.

I don't want this feeling. It's supposed to be happy since it's our anniversary. I bought him a gift, but he never showed up. Well, he showed up... 'Yon nga lang sa ibang babae. Napatawa ako ng mahina. Fuck, ang sakit.

Eto na ata ang pinakamasakit na naramdaman ko sa lahat ng away namin ni Axel. Kasi hindi naman kami nag-away. I caught him.

It's so ridiculous to feel this way, even though we're living together. I thought there were no more secrets.

Is it enough?

Even though I felt dizzy and my stomach grumbled from hunger, I was not in the mood to eat, so I headed to my room.

My dress and makeup were on when I laid down on my bed. I'm so down that I can't do much right now. Honestly, it's a mystery how I got home by myself with those mixed emotions.

Here I am, silently crying on my bed, covered under my blankets, thinking nonsense until I drifted into sle