Chapter Four

I come out of class when I’m done with one class. I want to breath and be away from that guy. I still can’t understand why he is staring me all time. It’s strange.

“I told you that I know you”, the voice comes behind me. I look around and see Masson is standing behind me. I become an angry.

“There is a difference in knowing and seeing, you just have seen me, you  know nothing about me”, I say in an anger.

“We could know each other, if you want”, he say while smiling. I feel like if I stay for one more minute, I will kill him or myself. I run from there. I run as much as I can. I run to parking area, start my car and started driving. I drive really fast. I leave all my classes. Because if I stay there I will be more irritated. I enter home and walk to kitchen, drink water as my throat is too dry. I then go to my bedroom and lay down on bed. I sleep whole day.

Wednesday, January 19,2022

           1:51 a.m.

 I wake up. I still feel restless. I see my phone. There are ten calls from Angel. I put my phone down on table. I don’t call her back. I’m not in the condition to talk anybody today. In fact I’m always not in the condition to talk anybody. But today I’m in worst condition. I want to be alone. I walk down to stairs and look something to eat. I walk to kitchen but then think that I should eat some thing else from outside and spend time with myself. So I walk out of home to buy some snacks to eat. I walk slowly and stop at a restaurant, I usually come to this restaurant when I feel distress. I sit on chair and looking into menu to order something. Today I’m in the mood to eat some spicy food  let me correct it. I’m always in the mood to eat spicy food. I love spicy food. So I order chili con carne, which is famous food of Texas. And I love this as it’s so spicy. I leave restaurant when I’m done with eating. Now I feel better. I enjoy my own company.

“I don’t need anyone”, I say it loud as there is no one near me to listen. I’m happy now. There is no one to disturb me and to steal my privacy. I’m happy with my own company. I only need myself. I take a deep breath, smile and look up to sky. Now I want some sweet to eat. I always eat sweet after some spice. So I go to ice cream parlor and buy a vanilla flavor. I love vanilla flavor in ice cream. I buy that and walk along with road while eating it.

“Hey you beautiful lady.”

I freeze as the voice comes. I turn around and see some guys staring at me and laughing. I become afraid.

“You want to come with us?”, one of them says. I can’t understand what to do. They all are moving closer to me. I started running but I can’t run fast. I have forgotten my way. I don’t know where I’m going I just keep running.

“Oh my God what should I do now?”

“Please God save me please.”

I keep running and running and I can hear the voice of running shoes behind me. I don’t know how far I can run. I can’t breath. I feel suffocated and dehydrated. I’m about to faint. I see a guy running on my side. Wait, what he is Masson.

“Oh come on Emma , please don’t do this now.”

I say to myself while running in a low voice.

“What?”, I hear this and look by my side.

 He

Is

Here.

 It’s not my imagination.

“Run fast”, he grab my hand and change the direction of our running. I say nothing and started running fast as I can. Now I can’t hear the running shoes behind. I turn around and see no one is there. I stop, take a deep breath and he also breaths deeply. I hug him. I really hug him. I can’t  believe is this me? I feel a strange feelings that I have never felt before. My heartbeat increases and I don’t know what it is but I feel comfort and peace that I never felt. I never hugged any guy before. I’m about to sleep in his arms as I feel peace. He has really good fragrance. I could be in his arms all night. I’m breathing heavily. I don’t want him to move from here. All my fear gone away. I really want to hug him more tightly. It seems like the time has been frozen since I hug him and I don’t want this time to go away. I close my eyes and feel the peace I’m having now this time while hugging him. It’s the best moment of my life.  He doesn’t hug me. He grimaces, and it’s quite obvious that he is having a really hard time not hugging me. I move back. I don’t want but I have to so I do so. I want him to hug me back but he doesn’t.

“Thank you”, I say and I feel embarrassment. I don’t ask him that how he came to know that I’m in trouble. Maybe he was stalking me out or maybe it’s just a coincidence.

“Where were you going?” , he asks without replying to my thank you.

“None of your business”, I say in an anger. I don’t  know why I’m a short tempered person. He is looking at me for a while. He turns away from me without saying anything.

I stand on the sidewalk and watch him as he disappears without looking back.