Chapter Five

Wednesday, January 19, 2022

              2:40 a.m.

 I’m still standing near my home where he left me and looking at a side where he left. I regret on my rudeness for the first time. I never felt regret on my rudeness before. I enter in my home still thinking about him. How stupid I am. How could I do that. He has saved me and I insulted him. How could I do that to a handsome good looking guy, who cares me and save me. I’m so silly girl. I don’t know how to behave with people or with handsome guy. I’m so arrogant. I enter in my room and lay down on bed. I don’t know how will I face him tomorrow in school. I think I should take a leave from school tomorrow. But no, I already have missed yesterday’s classes. I can’t take a leave. I’m so punctual type girl and I also want to see him tomorrow. I think I should apologize him for my behavior. I don’t know why I’m too attracted towards him. He is too handsome guy I ever have seen in my life and he gives me seductive feelings. I never felt seductiveness before from any guy. He is the one who make me smile , blush and everything which I never felt. I can’t define feelings about him. But I know is that he is so special in my life and I don’t want to loose him.

 Wednesday, January 19, 2022

               7:50 a.m.

I wake up and look at clock.

“Oh my God.”

“Its too late.”

I say and stand up quickly. I’m too late today and I have missed morning walk and now I don’t want to be late in school. I don’t know when I fall asleep last night. I quickly get fresh and do breakfast and get myself ready to go to school. I quickly leave the house, sit in a car and start driving fast. I try my best to be on time at school but I get late. I reach school and quickly run toward the class but the teacher has already entered in class. He doesn’t allow me to enter in class. So I stay outside the class. I don’t see Masson. I don’t  know he is present or not. I just sit outside and wait for the class to over. I have decided that I apologize to him as I have made mistake and I should make an apology for that.

I wait and wait. I watch to my watch again and again. And walking outside of class. I’m too tired now and waiting for him while sitting. I stretch my legs out. I started eating my nails. I can’t believe, I hate eating nails and today I’m doing this. How disgusting. What the hell is going on. I’m going crazy. I grab my phone out of my bag and started scrolling on social media. But I’m distracted. I can’t focus on phone and I’m not interested in phone. I watch time again and the first class is about to over. I stand up and go closer to my class. When I see him coming out. I start shivering but today I have to control and talk to him. He doesn’t see me and walk away. I follow him.

“Masson.”

I call him. He turn around and see me.  His looks still killing me same as I see him for the first time. This time he isn’t smiling while seeing me. And this kills me. He always smile while seeing me and it’s my mistake. I made him rude. He is waiting for me to say something. I can’t understand how to say sorry. I finally gather my confidence and take a deep breath.

“Sorry for last night.”

I apologize. He say nothing and stepping away from me. Oh my God I don’t know how do I  make him smile. I snatch away his smile and I have to back his smile. So I follow him. He stop at locker’s side and looking for something in his locker. He knows that I’m following him but he totally ignores me. And I really, really deserve this.

“I know, I hurt you last night. You saved me and I insulted you. I know you’re angry with me and I also know that you can’t stay angry with me for long time.” I say while looking at him. He is standing with his back to me. I really want to hug him and say sorry. I’m sure if I do this, he will definitely forget everything I did, he will  hug me back  and forgive me. But I can’t do that. I have to control myself. I know it’s hard but I have to. He turn around and look into my eyes. He is stepping towards me and I’m stepping back, unless I collide with lockers. He place his hand on locker and still looking into my eyes. Now I’m totally out of my control. I want him to hug me.

“Oh God , Masson please hug me now.”

“If you know everything, then tell me what is in my eyes, what is in my heart, what is in my mind? Can you tell me?”

He say while staring at me. He places another hand on locker. And comes closer to me. There is very little gap in between us. I close my eyes and started breathing heavily. I really want to hug him right now but I can’t. Wish I could do that.

“Open your eyes”, he says. I open my eyes slowly and look at his face. Oh my God. He is smiling this time and this makes me smile too. He has killer smile. He is damn handsome guy in this whole world.

He step back. Why the hell he step back. I want him to come closer but he doesn’t. I sigh, but it’s not the sigh of relief. He go away from me without saying it’s okay to my sorry. I’m watching him going away. He turns back again and again to see me, smiling while seeing me. I also smile back at him. It seems like he doesn’t want to go away.