Life is going back to normal. For one I got a new job, that I love very much. I work in an essential oil shop. I am surrounded by amazing smells all the time. I’m happy to be back but this means the world is slowly creeping into my lived fantasy. The bubble Oliver and I have created. We are living in this beautiful fantasy. I can feel things shifting. I can feel people talking to me differently. They notice me more, I am no longer the wallflower I once was. I’m moving differently now. I have an innate confidence that comes with knowing that my life is going well. I am embracing what life is giving me and I love the way everything feels. It feels right. Oliver and I are doing great. The talk we had the other night helped put a lot into perspective. Neither of us feels unsure about where we stand, we both know what is expected in this relationship. I love that for us. But I’m still nervous about going back into the real world. I am afraid to experience what it’s going to be like for us
Jameson knows now. I sigh in relief. He knows how much I’ve wanted this. We talked about how I can take things to the next level with Ryo so many times. We spent hours trying to figure her out. Needless to say none of the plans we had never worked but he never gave up. He gave me so much advice on how to get here. To this place where I can share the amazing night I had with her. It’s still mind-boggling to me that I’m here, I can’t believe it. And the look on his face says the same thing. I want to ask him why he looks like that but I’m not sure if I want to hear the answer. I’ve known Jameson long enough to know when he’s about to tell me something I don’t want to hear. He has this serious look on his face like he’s about to ruin my day. I really don’t want to hear what he has to say because I already have my own, misgivings about my situation with Ryo. I don’t need my best friend reminding me of the many ways this could go wrong. My own mind is a great reminder of all that. I try
I walk into the kitchen and drop my bag on the island with a bang. I walk to the fridge and take out a water bottle. Today felt like a battle. I can’t believe Trevor came at me like that. I know why he did it, I’m the one that ghosted him and then popped up with another dude. That was very low of me and probably trying to figure everything out. But I would prefer if he figured stuff out far away from me. I don’t have the capacity to deal with the drama. I close the fridge and take a long swig of the water. As soon as the water hits my throat I thank the heavens for this small pleasure. Nothing beats cold water after a long day of work.“Is everything okay?” My mother asks walking into the kitchen. The water in my throat goes in the wrong direction and I start coughing. I bend over trying not to die. She quickly comes to my side patting my back softly to help the water get out of my airway. “What’s going on?” She asks concern written all over her face. “You’ve been so jumpy lately.” S
Ry Are you asleep?It’s 10 pm after allPatient O Nope.I’ve been waiting patiently for your call Ry You can’t be thinking about driving all the way here It’s late O Patient O Yes I amI’ll see you in 30 minutes Ry Please drive safely Patient O Always 30 minutes laterPatient O I’m outside I hope you didn’t fall asleepI don’t want to drive all the way back without seeing you
“I promised you a date so…” Oliver says opening his car door for me. I smile at him for being so gentle with me. I get into the passenger seat and watch him walk around to the driver’s side. He gets in and smiles at me. “Are you ready?” He asks starting the car. He puts it into drive and we’re on our way. He texted me this morning telling me to get ready. I tried so hard to get him to tell me what we’re doing for our date but he’s been mum the whole day.He’s pretty good at planning these dates but I am feeling anxious. I decided to be present and enjoy every moment I have with him but there are times like now when I feel anxiety take over me. I want to at least know where we’re going. We live in a small town so I can guess what the date is if he just gives me a hint.“I don’t know what I’m getting ready for. You don’t want to tell me what the date is about remember?” I say
“I can smell water.” I say when Oliver comes to stop. I take in a deep breath, yep. I can definitely smell water.“Okay. It’s time to take this thing off.” He says taking the blindfold off. I take a few seconds to readjust to the light. I look around and smile when I see the boat in front of me. I almost scream when my brain makes sense of the beauty that’s in front of me. “Is this our date?” I ask staring at him. He smiles nodding at me.“I thought we could have a day on the water. Get a dose of the fresh air and hopefully have fun.” He says taking my hand in his. We start walking to the boat. I’ve never been on a boat on a lake before. This is incredible.“Who’s going to drive the boat?” I ask as he helps me get on.“I’m going to be driving.” He says surprising me.“So you just happen to know how to drive a boat.” I state and he nods. “So what do I do now?” I ask feeling a little out of place. This is the part of Oliver’s world I know nothing about. I don’t know anything about boa
“And by all of this you mean the boat money?” He asks smiling at me awkwardly. I nod and he sighs looking in the far distance. “This is a part of who I am. I want to be in a relationship with you as who I really am and that includes this.” He says looking back at me.“So are you saying that I need to get used to it or…” I say and he shakes his head.“It’s not an ultimatum.” He says touching my face softly. “It’s just a fact.” He says and I nod. “A fact that has held me back from truly showing myself to the people I’ve dated in the past.” He adds and I can see regret in his eyes. “My father’s money is the first thing people see when I look at them.” He says and I remember the way I saw him before I knew him. First I saw him as a playboy, then I saw him as a spoilt playboy. I’m happy to say that I was wrong. But now that he’s showing me his world in full I can’t help but feel like I will fall short. I’m a normal girl, I don’t have the luxury of owning a boat or even spending a day on a
“Today I’m the one taking you on a date.” Ryo says smiling at me excitedly. She smiles as we walk into her mother’s plant room. I smile back at her feeling like the luckiest guy alive. The past two weeks have been the best time of my life. I’ve been going on multiple dates and for the first time in my life I’m enjoying dating. I look forward to these dates with her. I always look forward to planning them, the exciting anticipation leading up to the date and the actual dates are always a dream. “I feel like this is turning into a competition.” I say and she turns nodding at me. I laugh because that’s not the point of us having these dates. I look around at the plants feeling so happy. There’s so much magic in this room. I need to convince my parents to create a room like this at the house. I bet it would do wonders for all our moods. Maybe we would get along better. “Oh. It most definitely is. I’m having fun trying to out-plan you on these dates.” She says and I shake my head at her h